Micci, you're so good! I'm such a pig, a slimming world pig, nevertheless a pig.
Naw
This is a woma who can sit down with a couple of packets of biscuits and get through them all in less than an hour. It's just I'm working on my need to have a healthy relationship with food, going to counselling, reading and listening to personal development type podcasts for the inner stuff. Somehow after two years of piggery and 5 stones plus to show for it I'm in the right emotional space again. I've had health problems, a son who has had two long term spells in hospital for mental health reasons, the last time under a section 3 of the MH act, ie not voluntarily. The stress around all this, plus my husband is most likely on the autistic Spectrum as well as my son and heself medicated as they say with alchohol and prescription painkillers ... well without spelling it all out life has been difficult and my coping strategy was eating.
I'm ashamed at having been so out of control and done so much damage to myself. For heavens sake I've been going between a size 22/24 and a loose 14 (once!) for about the last 10 or 11 years. Now I'm weaning myself off the anti depressants and seem to be coping with my boy's ongoing difficulties OK. Fingers crossed
Anyway, pigs are amazing animals, with more intelligence than a dog, so comparing yourself to one is not such a bad thing. Being out of control with food is SOOOOO flipping understandable. We all are here on this forum. That's how we got this way.
There is more food to add to that list ....
1 pack of some low fat Sainsbury's crispy things at 4.5 sysn
The rest of the cashews, a very hit and miss judgement as I made a spread. Soak your cashews overnight then pour away the soaking water and liquidise with (this was what I fancied) smoked garlic powder and onion salt. How you work out 16 cashews from that I don't know but I just had a level teaspoon.
A sort of risotto that an Italian would have been aghast to see called risotto. Made by boiling up risotto rice with a stock pot, some frozen broccoli, halved fresh cherry tomatoes and a tin of black eyes beans. 3 for a quid in Sainsbury atm, do you see a theme? Yum yum, lots of super free in there.
More fruit and the almond milk in coffee. I need to have more of that before bed.