Hi Safia, sorry couldn't reply earlier as can't upload from my phone. I'm sorry to hear you are feeling so low, never easy when those old baby hormones run amok!! Don't beat yourself up about it all. First and formost is that you enjoy having the little fella, everything else takes second place. As for the diet, draw a line under all those syns and treat tomorrow as if you are starting again with a clean slate. I expect life is pretty hectic but try and plan a week ahead or if not at least a couple of days. Get some syn free snacks around the place for when you feel the need to eat, that way no guilt. You will get there but give yourself a chance and success will follow. As for the obsession with the scales, sorry can't help you there as I can't get over that obsession either. Chin up and soldier on and enjoy some support from here.x