Gen's CD Diary... Day 185... gonna give SS another bash!!

[Gen]

just after having the last gulp of my 2nd litre of water... my goodness i'm in the zone today guys!!

i've decided that if i do need to eat later on (which at the moment i have no intention of) or while i'm doing ss'ing 100% anytime i feel the need to eat i'm just gonna have a kind of Add a meal portion of chicken and brocolli or cabbage so that'll give me the food i want and get me over the craving!! i'm actually quite excited i have made that decision!! firstly tho i'm gonna make sure i'm busy all the time so i don't need or want to eat lol cos i really don't want to slow this process down!!!

love

Gen xx

 

[Karen1972]

Gen, you're doing it again honey!! Allowing those little bits and pieces in....

You started by saying you'll have 4 packs if you need it and now you're saying you might have an AAM....

SLIPPERY SLOPE

You need to stick to the diet 100% babe, no excuses!!!!!!

Come on, you're letting your chatterbox get the better of you....

 

[Gen]

Gen, you're doing it again honey!! Allowing those little bits and pieces in....

You started by saying you'll have 4 packs if you need it and now you're saying you might have an AAM....

SLIPPERY SLOPE

You need to stick to the diet 100% babe, no excuses!!!!!!

Come on, you're letting your chatterbox get the better of you....

i knew you would say that BUT and this is a big BUT i do have no intention of eating and every intention of SS'ing 100% but if i do think i'm gonna eat and there is no two ways about it and i have done everything in my power not to, short of stitching up my mouth, then i'm thinking that i CAN have the small bit of chicken and veg allowed on AAM. its better than any of the **** i have been eating recently and thats normally what i would have looked to eat.

the rate i'm going today girl i won't be having 4 packs/AAM/dust (reference to little britain lol) or anything outside my allowed cd for a while!!! my chatterbox isn't even at me, unless its quietly chipping away inside my head????

thanks for your post and i really do get where you are coming from but it was a last resort that i was going to do that rather than an ongoing thing, if ya get me??

love

Gen xx

 

[Slim at heart]

Ok Gen- it was so great to hear you sound so positive this morning & really in the zone as you say BUT I'm going to take the tough approach now!!
Someone will probably disagree with me & who am I but a young whipper-snapper (well at this game anyway!) but it's too early on the diet to start making compromises with yourself!!

100% SSing turned into an extra pack if necessary into AAM if you feel like eating!!

If you are going to do this, YOU HAVE TO GET THROUGH DAY 1 WITHOUT EATING..

You know you can do it, you've done it before, you CAN do it... stop setting yourself up for failure & making compromises!!

Sorry if this sounds harsh but I have been following your diary for a few days now, mostly cos of the great support you have given me... I stayed on this diet because of you in a way, remember when I posted about not knowing if I should give up & start again after the move & you advised me to go get weighed half way through the week to get the extra motivation??

Well it's thanks to you, I'm here in my second week, don't give up before you even start... please!! Don't listen to the voices!!

Sorry again, don't want to be harsh, just the way I see it... tell me to mind my own effing business if you want girl & I will!

 

[Slim at heart]

Sorry crossed posts- didn't see you already had a response!

 

[Karen1972]

Gen darling!!

When we say "i'll try not to eat today" we will eat. If we say "I asbolutely will not eat today, even if it kills me" we will not eat.

Your problem is still your mindset. When i'm good i am absoultely 100% focussed at sticking to my plan and nothing is gonna stop me! And this is how you need to start thinking if you have any chance of losing this last little bit of weight.

You are 13st 4lbs today, and you hate it don't you? Keep thinking of that number and it will stop you eating BUT you have to think that there is no way you will eat - You are not in the zone Gen you are kidding yourself - now take this kick up the arse - go to the loo, look in the mirror and tell yourself you can do this 100% no excuses!!! The plan is :

3 x CD Packs, loads of water and black tea or coffee

DO NOT EAT ANYTHING ELSE BECAUSE ITS NOT ALLOWED!!!

If you can get past the first few days it'll be easier, if you keep thinking this crooked way then you'll be 14 stone something before you know it.....

Be warned beautiful......

 

[Gen]

Hiya Anna

Thanks for that and i really do appreciate what you are saying... i think my first post came across wrong.... i have absolutely no intention of eating anything or having 4 packs... but today instead of me thinking 'oh sure i can just have a chinese' i thought if i do want food i could have chicken & veg but it really isn't something i'm going to do... i was just excited about how my mind had changed from picking the crap to the good stuff. hope that makes sense but believe me i have no intention of eating tonight, in fact, i'm being very busy and my chatterbox is really quite at the moment yippee!!!

love

Gen xx

 

[Slim at heart]

Good to hear it Gen!

 

[Gen]

Gen darling!!

When we say "i'll try not to eat today" we will eat. If we say "I asbolutely will not eat today, even if it kills me" we will not eat.

Your problem is still your mindset. When i'm good i am absoultely 100% focussed at sticking to my plan and nothing is gonna stop me! And this is how you need to start thinking if you have any chance of losing this last little bit of weight.

You are 13st 4lbs today, and you hate it don't you? Keep thinking of that number and it will stop you eating BUT you have to think that there is no way you will eat - You are not in the zone Gen you are kidding yourself - now take this kick up the arse - go to the loo, look in the mirror and tell yourself you can do this 100% no excuses!!! The plan is :

3 x CD Packs, loads of water and black tea or coffee

DO NOT EAT ANYTHING ELSE BECAUSE ITS NOT ALLOWED!!!

If you can get past the first few days it'll be easier, if you keep thinking this crooked way then you'll be 14 stone something before you know it.....

Be warned beautiful......

ur one tough task master young lady.... my ass is soooo sore from the kicking its a gettin from your girlfriend hee hee

i am not going to eat today.... have no intention of eating OK!!!!

thanks girl, least i know you care!!!

still laughing at the j'lo ass message from yesterday that was just sooo funny!!

love

Gen xx

 

[Karen1972]

Good !! People on here must think i'm very harsh on you, but i'm only doing it cos i care honey!! And like you i have moments of crooked thinking too - it's so easy to talk yourself into and out of something.

Keep it simple. Just think "i'm sticking to this diet 100%" You don't need a contingency plan cos there is no other option for you if you wanna lose the weight.

Anyway, only you can do it babe...... So show us what your made of!

Luv ya lots,

 

[Gen]

Good !! People on here must think i'm very harsh on you, but i'm only doing it cos i care honey!! And like you i have moments of crooked thinking too - it's so easy to talk yourself into and out of something.

Keep it simple. Just think "i'm sticking to this diet 100%" You don't need a contingency plan cos there is no other option for you if you wanna lose the weight.

Anyway, only you can do it babe...... So show us what your made of!

Luv ya lots,

you be as hard on me as you feel you need to be and i mean that.... twas your 'bitchyness' that got me really really back and focused yesterday... so roll with it girl!!!

thanks a million for your stern words ever thought of joining the army lol lol

love

Gen xx

 

[Karen1972]

oh honey you've seen nothing yet!! haha

sexy ass versus lard ass?? Know which one i'd choose!

I'm talking to you like i'm little miss perfect myself - should take a bit of my own advice eh? How the hell to i allow myself to binge?!?!? I think someone takes over my body, but believe me the following day i am soooooo hard on myself - it's why my binges NEVER go on for longer than one day!

 

[Gen]

i'm getting my hair done later... just a top up on the colour and gonna get it cut just a little bit too!!! yay yay yay that'll keep me busy eh!!

love

gen xx

 

[Gen]

oh honey you've seen nothing yet!! haha

sexy ass versus lard ass?? Know which one i'd choose!

I'm talking to you like i'm little miss perfect myself - should take a bit of my own advice eh? How the hell to i allow myself to binge?!?!? I think someone takes over my body, but believe me the following day i am soooooo hard on myself - it's why my binges NEVER go on for longer than one day!

hey mrs... if you are not gonna be on ur date with DCI on Sunday and if you feel you are gonna binge, maybe you would text or phone me and try to break the pattern of bingeing on a sunday??? cos once ya break it once its such a huge achievement that you might not go back!!!

just a thought girl!!

hope you are having a great day

love

Gen xx

 

[Karen1972]

hey mrs... if you are not gonna be on ur date with DCI on Sunday and if you feel you are gonna binge, maybe you would text or phone me and try to break the pattern of bingeing on a sunday??? cos once ya break it once its such a huge achievement that you might not go back!!!

just a thought girl!!

hope you are having a great day

love

Gen xx

Oh thanks honey, i usually binge once mid week (any random day) and once on sundays. TBH when i wanna binge i won't ask for help (well i haven't so far anyway) cos at the time i don't want anyone to talk me out of it!!!! Soooo maybe i should change that pattern.... I will get in touch if i get an urge i can't control.... i'm so determined to get this 10lbs off cos my dresses just don't look as sexy on me at the moment and we can't be having that when i'm in the market for a fabulous man!!!

 

[Karen1972]

Actually Friday will be a difficult day for me cos i won't have eaten any food on Thursday (just packs cos i'm out drinking with a client), which means i will be famished and hungover on Friday with a 4+hour drive home ahead of me. I usually stop in the services for some chicken and grapes, i eat that then stop at practically every services on teh M4 for choc, crisps and biscuits!

I'm aware of Friday though and i make a promise to myself now that I WILL NOT EAT. I'll have a bar and lots of water and tea and that is it until i get home lunchtime ish for my soup!!

I can do this i know i can!

 

[Gen]

Oh thanks honey, i usually binge once mid week (any random day) and once on sundays. TBH when i wanna binge i won't ask for help (well i haven't so far anyway) cos at the time i don't want anyone to talk me out of it!!!! Soooo maybe i should change that pattern.... I will get in touch if i get an urge i can't control.... i'm so determined to get this 10lbs off cos my dresses just don't look as sexy on me at the moment and we can't be having that when i'm in the market for a fabulous man!!!

i know exactly what ya mean about not wanting to be talked out of it!!!! once ya can crack that one girl ur sorted!!

i'm sure you still look super dooper sexy girl!!

btw how you feeling today??? binge wise??

 

[Karen1972]

i know exactly what ya mean about not wanting to be talked out of it!!!! once ya can crack that one girl ur sorted!!

i'm sure you still look super dooper sexy girl!!

btw how you feeling today??? binge wise??

you are so right hun, if i can crack that then no more binges

I'm feeling good and positive today, i know it's gonna be a good day. Friday and Sunday will be my difficult days. But not difficult enough for me to give in this time!!!

I'm so determined I could burst!! lol

 

[Gen]

you are so right hun, if i can crack that then no more binges

I'm feeling good and positive today, i know it's gonna be a good day. Friday and Sunday will be my difficult days. But not difficult enough for me to give in this time!!!

I'm so determined I could burst!! lol

thats brill karen... will you be able to have access to the site on friday?? ya know you can text me anytime anyway ok!

 

[Karen1972]

thats brill karen... will you be able to have access to the site on friday?? ya know you can text me anytime anyway ok!

Friday will be difficult for me to access the site - maybe late afternoon ish?? I will defo text you though if i start to lose control....

Thanks honey

How are you feeling now?