LucieLovesIt
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So, there will be no diary today. Yesterday we got some more bad news regarding my Dad. I'm hoping he can somehow get through all this. I am hating 2016 at the moment already to be honest.
My heads just not with it at all if I am totally honest trying to take everything in. I went to work last night more so to just keep myself busy.
I wasn't hungry, but old habits came back round and I ended up turning to the vending machine for comfort on both breaks and it continued when I got home . I am so disappointed in myself
I am exhausted in all honesty, I think I have had just 9 hours sleep since going to bed Sunday night. I will try get back on plan later, but it's going to be hard with juggling work, home, looking after Mom and visiting.
So if I am quiet or not updating here that's why. Love and light to all of you reading x
I'm sorry to hear you got more bad news, It always makes things harder to do and diets always go out the window. I know it's easy to beat yourself up but please don't be too disappointed in yourself, you are only human. I always tell myself If I need to have a break or a week off then I'll take it. It's my birthday on the 10th Feb and I know I'm going to go and have a few meals and drinks out and if I put on that week then I'm ok with that because I'm choosing to put myself first and after i'll get back on it and carry on. Doing it this way for me means I can still live my life and lose weight, I have at least 10 stone to lose still and it's going to be a long ole journey but there is no time limit so if I'm going to do it, it will be to my rules and my happiness and without putting extra pressure on myself.
I think if you need to pause your journey to clear your mind, take time and when you are ready come back 100%. It doesn't mean you can't bare the plan in mind while your not following 100% ( to help minimise damage ) but it means if you do have that bit of chocolate, you aren't beating yourself up about it after because of course then it almost seems pointless to eat it. Enjoy it, draw a line under it when you're done, and carry onwards and downwards my pretty
Losing weight is alot more than just eating good food, it's a mental thing. I'm one of those people that if I've had a good day I want to "reward" myself with a takeaway.. like I'm a dog or something that gets a treat haha, and now I'm trying to change my brain by buying myself say some Lush bath bombs and treat my body to a nice bath because I did extra exercise or buying a new bag because I've been good taking my lunches and dinners to work every day and sticking to plan.
I think you have to find your own path on your journey to your finishing line and remember that it will take aslong as it takes to get there, even if sometimes you're needing to take a few steps back, aslong as you still take them forward you will get there
You're not alone, ever. I know you have my Instagram so you can always PM me on there. I'm always here for support and venting and love. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx