Helen's quest for good health!
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Charleybarley
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Hey Helen, I need to catch this cleaning bug. Well done on the food so far as well, you are doing great. - perhaps all this new found cleaning energy and being wide awake is connected to the fact that you have been really good the last few days - I always find the better I do in my diet, the more spunk (for want of a better word!) I have - maybe I should use the word pep, much less gross than spunk - so Helen are you feeling peppy (spunky!) today?!
GothGoddess
Time to start again!
I would have said that had you been pregnant you would be nesting ready to giving birth, but as that's not the case, I would say you have been gripped by some rare tropical disease called 'housework' be careful Helen if it goes on past today and you find yourself doing other peoples it might need attention... I think a few hours in a spa or better still a bar with copious amounts of alcoholic beverages... lol! ...xx
Arctic-BNG
Talks to self!
HPSaucy
Will get there one day!
Binge eating avoided today.. Phew! Feels good when it could have so easily been a fail, walked in kitchen ready to eat whatever I could, put a Dr Karg crispbread in my mouth ready to scoff the whole packet as well as loads of biscuits and thought what the hell am I doing?! Sat down with a plate of cheese & ryvita instead and didn't wolf it down, it was within plan, annoying thing is I now can't have something nice now after dinner as I've used my syns but that'll teach me!
Had a bit of a cry earlier and told Mark all about my binging and secret eating, I told him before but didn't go into too much detail and don't think he really understood, this time I laid it on the line and told him how bad it is and also that I'm scared of putting on as much weight in St Lucia as I did in Turkey, he was really understanding and he can't believe I didn't tell him before, he said just have one thing and stop, but I said its not that easy, once I start I really can't stop and will eat anything I can and get my hands on.
I feel like I'm having a good week though despite dinner out on Friday and Sundays cheese and bread, feeling in control.
Tuesday 23rd October - Extra Easy (Off)
Brunch: bacon, baked beans, tomatoes & mushrooms
Snack: 1x dr karg crispbread (HEB), 3x ryvita (4.5), 40g low low cheese spread (3/4 HEA), cherry tomatoes
WW caramel wafer bar (4.0)
Dinner: toad in the hole (7.5 + 1/4 HEA), mashed potato, green beans, red onion gravy
Drinks: squash
Total syns: 16.0
Not as bad a I thought! Could have something if I want x
(Updated to include ww caramel wafer bar I had after writing diary)
Had a bit of a cry earlier and told Mark all about my binging and secret eating, I told him before but didn't go into too much detail and don't think he really understood, this time I laid it on the line and told him how bad it is and also that I'm scared of putting on as much weight in St Lucia as I did in Turkey, he was really understanding and he can't believe I didn't tell him before, he said just have one thing and stop, but I said its not that easy, once I start I really can't stop and will eat anything I can and get my hands on.
I feel like I'm having a good week though despite dinner out on Friday and Sundays cheese and bread, feeling in control.
Tuesday 23rd October - Extra Easy (Off)
Brunch: bacon, baked beans, tomatoes & mushrooms
Snack: 1x dr karg crispbread (HEB), 3x ryvita (4.5), 40g low low cheese spread (3/4 HEA), cherry tomatoes
WW caramel wafer bar (4.0)
Dinner: toad in the hole (7.5 + 1/4 HEA), mashed potato, green beans, red onion gravy
Drinks: squash
Total syns: 16.0
Not as bad a I thought! Could have something if I want x
(Updated to include ww caramel wafer bar I had after writing diary)
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GothGoddess
Time to start again!
The most important step is telling Mark... Everything is much better when its shared... Jared tells me to open up more to Kev, and when I do it always seems much better whatever the problem... Sending hugs... xx
HPSaucy
Will get there one day!
Thanks everyone, he says what can we do but I don't know! He thought that's what the hypnotherapy was supposed to help with but it hasn't! I'm just going to keep on plodding along.. Tonight's going to be hard as I always find when Mark's on Late shift I eat.. Need to find something to occupy my time tonight x
Charleybarley
Gold Member
Well done for stopping yourself, that is the hardest part. I totally understand the need to binge eat. Well done for telling Mark, it is a big step but it is so difficult for people who can control their food to understand the people that can't. Mick will eat when he is hungry or peckish but I have no stop button. Last Friday we had fajitas, proper ones. We had an Old El Paso pack which comes with salsa, 8 tortillas and a mix. He stopped at 3 because he was full up - I had 4 and then, because there was more filling and his last tortilla I had that one too - I had 5 loaded fajitas, boy did I enjoy them, but I should be the one to stop at 3, he should be eating 5 - he is a 6 foot stocky man and I am a 5' 3" "not built to be big" girl. I ust think he must sit there and think "******, she can really put it away".
When he goes out overnight, or goes to football I get excited because that means I can eat the hugest baguette with tons of packets of crisps followed by an afternoon nap! I never tell him about that! Why do we do it to ourselves? I would love to try hynotherapy to see if there is an underlying reason why I over eat and sneak eat. I can remember doing it as a kid. We used to live opposite an Esso Garage and they used to sell those 5p packs of onion rings and tangy toms etc. I used to sneak across the road having raided my penny jar and eat packs and packs of crisps behind my garden gate!
HPSaucy
Will get there one day!
Mumma K said:
I had a one to one with a lady from the quest institute (same as Jackie had), was good at getting me over my scarediness but doesn't seem to have made a difference to my eating habits but I suppose to be fair I am alot better than I used to be and also don't drink coke anymore and rarely have any fizzy drinks since the Slimpods as well. Going to make a conscious effort to listen to her cd and the Slimpods.. Suppose they can only work if you listen!! X
HPSaucy
Will get there one day!
Charleybarley said:
OMG that could be me! I just can't stop and I would have done the same with the fajitas as you did, Mark seems to be able to get away with eating anything but he knows when to stop even when he's being naughty.
Mine stems from people going on about my weight when I was a kid and me secretly scoffing was my defence mechanism, I think to a degree my sister is the same. I'm going to start the Slimpods again, I struggle always to get my positives down as I said to Lisa above but they've worked wonders on others so perhaps you could try them too.
This afternoon I popped to shops and there were sweets and chocolates haunting me everywhere, I was standing in a queue trying to reason with myself why it was acceptable to buy a packet of M&M's, I thought I'd keep them in the cupboard and share with Mark, I even looked at back trying to work out how many syns thinking it would magically say 5.0 or something! Then I thought don't be stupid, I know if I buy them I will open them in the car and will just eat them all in about 30 seconds without even tasting them.. I left them at the shop.. It was easier!
I've been thinking it might be good to try and arrange my syns so I can have a treat everyday as then I won't feel like I'm depriving myself but its whether I'll be able to stop or not. Managed to have a ww caramel wafer last night and stopped at one but that's because Mark was sitting there with me and when he had a bath he got me to come upstairs and talk to him (keep an eye on me lol!).
There's a binge eating thread on here that was started that you might be interested in as I know you're like me! X
