Okay- today could have been a big disaster.. but i held strong. Stronger than i thought i would., so a suprise to all lol.
breaky: half 8: two alpens, 1 mullerlight HEB hot choc and milk 3syns
1 apple
3 slices of ham, half a whispa.
small portion of 1/2 a syn chilli( xl mince, pepper, onion, baked beans and kidney beans) rice, 28g cheese HEA and a dollop of yogurt
3 spuds, 1 small chicken breast, brocoli, carrots and gravey 1 syn.
can anyone tell me what the syn value for 1 half of a whispa duo would be?
Let me explain, today we went to put the deposit down on wedding band, but thee shop is an 40 mins, an hour away ( traffic was flipping awful today)
i ate breakt at 8:30 as you can see, .. we left the house late thanks to the big faffer that is my husband to be.. it was getting on for two, we were still out, with more to do.. and im flipping starving. Having thought wed be home earlier (out earlier..) i didnt take anything with me, as i had a roast ready to get going in oven as soon as we were home for a early aft. meal. . im so hungry, im getting really frustrated and my tummy is hurting. We need milk and bread, so stop off in a corner shop whilst we are still quite far from home. OH sends me on my own, fine. Untill he says - ''get some chocolate for us to share tonight wont you?'' no i say calmly, i have some weight to loose now remember, i have to be good.
Of course, i go in alone, and had said to myself id get one of those pre-packed chilled fruit bags, so i can stave off the munchies till were home. Do they have any fruit, what so ever.. no! rediclous. Im getting panicy, im stood between the chilled aisle, and all the chocolates. I stare back and forth, picking up various things, putting them back down. i can feel myself getting worked up, im hot and im hungry and im starting to loose the will. i make a descion, il pay £2.50 for a pack of 5 slices of ham, grr. Prices of things these days.
i get to the till. my body still trying to drag me to the chocolate, oh how i want the chocolate.. but i want to be slim more!
then, the card machine breaks at till.. im waiting.. waiting.. my eyes wonder. Oh no. theres a whispa duo in my bag. How did that get there! did my hand just do that?
i panic, i rush to car. Realise all is not lost. i can just give it all to OH.
then i ate my ham, felt much more calm.. and realised, i could just eat half. So thats what i did, i shared it, with joe.. and i didnt feel guilt, or like id thrown the whole week away, or like i should just srew it and eat what i want. I was good. I shared. I ate half, i ate my ham.. i went home.. knowing that i was still v hungry and roast would take an hour. Told OH roast would be much later, and ate some chilli i already knew i had, and used HEA which was at risk of being left out two days in a row.. phew.
I did well. i think i did anyways. i think im making progress. iv never not felt guilt after choc mid week.. never been able to just carry on as normal afteer without the urge to throw the week away. and i shared food!!!!
x
update: AQA tells me a wispa is 10.5 - assume this is a normal bar.. so im counting 6 syns for my half of duo, seems reasonable as was just a bit bigger than a treat sized type thing.
so 6 syns wispa
3syns hot choc
1/2 syn chilli
and 1 syn gravey
10.5 syns today, far more than usual but meh, im still in the zone. just about lol
haha) 
