Oh Spangly,
Those of us who have done LL before you will relate to some of what you are feeling.
The feeling of euphoria at getting to goal can never remain at such a high. That's why maintenance is so hard and we have to keep reminding ourselves of what we have achieved and the differences since before we lost the weight. Look at your photos.........!
Look at your job prospects.....?
The situation with your hubby is really tough, but wouldn't be different if you weren't doing LL. I hope it will turn out to be a positive move for him to start using the wheelchair.
The family, in-law stuff is universal isn't it? What about "he who casts the first stone"? Would you go and comment on their houses - I don't think so. That's because you are a nicer person and life's too short to worry about a bit of dust (says she who used to get teased for having the cleanest of skirting boards!).
I've got a little plaque I bought for myself, it says:
That's not dirt in my house, it's Angel dust!
It was when my husband was seriously ill, I was working full time, he was in hospital in a different county, I was trying to keep everything going - I realised that as long as my house was relatively clean and hygienic it really didn't matter what other people might think. Mind you I still found time to console myself with food and wine in those days.
Now I am facing a scary health challenge of my own I will have to rely on my OH to keep things going. I'll have to remind myself not to expect too much.
It's strange how old habits are still there. For the past 2 weeks I have found it really difficult to not keep allowing myself "treats" like the bar of chocolate that has been in my kitchen cupboard for months. At the end of the day it doesn't matter - as long as he does the shopping, cooking, house work, looks after me and the cats, waters my plants and keeps good humour! Only joking, but it does make us realise what we cope with day in and day out, doesn't it?
As for the people at Church, ignore what they say - did they come up to you when you were overweight as ask if you are okay because you were putting your health at risk -NO!
isn't it amazing how people feel they have the right to comment when we become thinner than them!!!!!!!
Stay strong hun xxx
You have done so well on your LL journey and reading about it all is inspiring! I too am really scared about life "after the packs" as I worry about not being able to stay in control. I love cooking and have been cooking every day since on LL so I don't worry about what to make so much but whether I can address all my issues and sort my head out to stop myself binging. 
