how do you lose 2 thirds of your self?

Thankyou everybody i feel much better :D

unfortunatly my weight loss hasn't really benefitted since :break_diet:

I should have been in prague this weekend, but decided not to go cos of the panic attacks :cry:
So mike and myself have a long weekend off together and have been visiting markets :eek:

I have decided to treat it like a holiday, chosing wisely when at home but not worrying to much if the syns are higher.

I had forgotten it was this weekend otherwise i might have planned better.

Prague will now be next year hopefully :D

manchester will have to do for now :eek:
going on tuesday:D:D:D
hmmmmmm gluwien :party0036::party0036::party0036:
 
Hey Mandy, sorry to hear you weren't well, glad I wan't here cos with my luck I'd still get it even with a computer screen and hundreds of miles between us :giggle:
Aww sorry you didn't get to Prague, but will be a nice target to aim at weight wise for the next planned visit.
I like the idea of still treating it as a holiday and being more relaxed around food while you and Mike are both off work.

I am so so :jelous: of you and Lo with the Christmas Markets, we don't get them here and even the one that we did used to get 1 day a year has now packed up :cry:
Definitely going to make it a goal to get to Manchester next Christmas, my sister has been to them when she has gone to see Man Utd play and I am definitely :jelous: of her too (no not the footie :giggle:)...suppose that's another goal for me too and maybe we could all meet up ...we have a year to plan it :giggle: xxxxxxxx
 
Hi Mandy, well done on your loss!! Sorry to hear you have not been well, hope you are feeling better! Sorry I've not been about lately, last week was manic and then OH and I had a lovely weekend in Leeds, but I am back now and all is back to normal! :D

Hope you have had a good day today, and that you are back to full health soon! xxxx
 
Hope you enjoy your visit to Manc' today Mandy - it's a bit windy but hopefully it'll stay dry for you :D

Fancy a bit of the old gluwein myself but not going into town today, hohum!

It would be so cool if we do all meet up for next year's market - my OH hates them so I can only go on m'tod or with my son in tow and he's not overlyfussed, just wants me to buy him tonnes of sweets:rolleyes:

Enjoy your 'holiday' and the quality time with Mike :D xxxxx
 
Sorry I jinxed the weather, been peeing down all day and my house is leaking :sigh:
 
LoChan1984 said:
Sorry I jinxed the weather, been peeing down all day and my house is leaking :sigh:
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Actually we managed to avoid the rain :D
walked round for 3 hours and it spit a couple of times but never amounted to much. We were considering not going when that torrential downpour and hail hit!
The road flooded for a few minutes as the drains struggled to cope but that was it.
Have you got your leak sorted out.

The market was fab totally undiet friendly but wonderful. love all the smells and the atmosphere.
I to fell fowl of the dutch cookie man :break_diet: Althougth teen will prob eat them all cos he loved them .

I have enjoyed my week off but am ready to get back on plan.
want to get to that 4 st shiney by chrimbo :eek:
Definetly feeling unsettled this week as back to work next week, but i am going to cope i know i am.
tried my uniform on this week and its really baggy :D:D:D:D:D

probably going to need taking up cos it is really long, florence nightengale length nearly :rotflmao:
 
No there's a giant hole in the attic which has been there for years that's not been sorted out yet, another one in the front room and now the back room and kitchen (the walls connect) have started aswell - dunno if it's the roof or guttering for those :sigh: Tis the boyfriend's house so must nag him to get it sorted out before the decorating we jointly paid for gets b00gered up :rolleyes:

Hehe I managed to get through most've the £10 offer bag from the cookieman :eek: I love the almond slices, will have to have one more before they go away for another year. Only one, honest... :angeldevil:

Glad you enjoyed your trip out and didn't fall afoul of the downpour. Many gluweins partaken and cups collected?

Do you know how the graduated return to work is going to go yet, shiftwise and such? xxxx
 
Im new to this myself. I was 30 stone and with a few changes ive managed to get down to 24 stone. I still have a long way to go and i struggle a lot at times. But joining my local slimming world group was the best thing for me. no one ever judges, at the end of the day we are all there for the same thing. I wish you well and hope you achieve your goals!!!!!!!!! x x
 
joanna1120_0 said:
Im new to this myself. I was 30 stone and with a few changes ive managed to get down to 24 stone. I still have a long way to go and i struggle a lot at times. But joining my local slimming world group was the best thing for me. no one ever judges, at the end of the day we are all there for the same thing. I wish you well and hope you achieve your goals!!!!!!!!! x x
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hi joanne and welcome :welcome:

you have done so well :clap: how long have you been going and are you enjoying it.

I get so much support from here i don't really miss going to group. For me in the past i have felt a lot of pressure with the wi not from the group but from myself.

This time some how i just know i am going to suceed, it is going to take time but i will do it xx

pop in anytime I love the support and love giving it back :D
 
LoChan1984 said:
No there's a giant hole in the attic which has been there for years that's not been sorted out yet, another one in the front room and now the back room and kitchen (the walls connect) have started aswell - dunno if it's the roof or guttering for those :sigh: Tis the boyfriend's house so must nag him to get it sorted out before the decorating we jointly paid for gets b00gered up :rolleyes:

Hehe I managed to get through most've the £10 offer bag from the cookieman :eek: I love the almond slices, will have to have one more before they go away for another year. Only one, honest... :angeldevil:

Glad you enjoyed your trip out and didn't fall afoul of the downpour. Many gluweins partaken and cups collected?

Do you know how the graduated return to work is going to go yet, shiftwise and such? xxxx
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only one gluwien but also had a hot spiced cider:eek: and that was yummy:D

meeting tomorrow to discuss plan hopefully it will be 2 days next week 3 the week after and then 4 for christmas week 5 for new year week.

I was already on the offduty for next week when i went in on the 22, but they had me at 3 4 and 5. they obviously have more faith in me than i do cos my first shift next fri is a late with me in charge with 2 junior members of staff:eek::eek:

I will know more tomorrow :confused:
really not looking forward to it as usual but know it will just be a quick meeting
 
Oh, those markets sound wonderful, I wish I could visit one myself! And I love gluwien and I'm sure I could cope with the hot spiced cider as well! :D :D xxxxx
 
ok first day back on plan 100%:D
after my week off. haven't weighed my self today cos was feeling very fragile and didn't want to make it worse:confused:
will leave it know till next week.

meetings at work completed and plans in place ready for next week. I am working a late on fri (12.30-20.30)and an early on sat (7.00-15.00) Had a long chat with my manager and got a few things out in the open for both of us.
I actually know i will be fine next week as today i feel 100% myself for the first time in a long time.
I have also had a long chat to my parents about the root cause of my problems which I now know were caused by an incident when i was 11 that had huge reprecussions for my family.
I have carried the guilt for it for all that time even thougth it was never my fault. It involved the police and a court case in a very differant world than we are now in and at first people outside of the family didn't believe me. As a child I haven't interpretated things correctly and have never discussed my thoughts with any one. the counseller made me start to discuss them a couple of weeks ago and made me realise how big an effect it has had on me. discussing it with my parents has lifted a weight of my shoulders and freed me really.
A comment was made at the time about me being a "big girl " for my age i took this to mean fat, tonight i have learned that it was actually about the development of my assests as i was an early developer:eek:
When i first tried to tell some one about the incident I was told to shut up and stop being a pain as the person was busy with important things. If at this point action had been taken what happened next would not have happened.
After 30 years i have realised that what happened that night has shaped the person i am as well as allowing me to develop some deep rooted problems.
It made me believe i was fat, that i was a lier and that i was worthless.
Now it is time to heal To accept it was never my fault and the fall out was not my fault. Its affect on others was not my fault and finally the wrong decisions taken by some people that night were not my fault,
I am not a lier nor was i fat and i am most definetly not worthless

I cannot believe that 1 night has had such a dramatic effect on my life, and that more importantly i have kept it all to my self for so long


gosh that was hard to write but i am so glad it is out in the open :D
 
Hey sweetie,
I admire you're bravery, it must have been hard to write that down :bighug:
I know it has been a hard journey for you and I am so proud of you for getting this far and so quickly...bless you hun, I know you will be fine and I know you will complete this weight loss journey too :hug99: keep up the fabulous work, I just know as scary as your return to work will be that you will do it and be the brilliant, caring Nurse you always have been
I have to admit that even though I thought I had conquered a lot of my fears, you have made me see that I hadn't quite done as much as I thought and reading your diary specifically, has pushed me to do so much more and this week has been my finest, with me shopping for the 1st time in nearly 15 years with my daughters and honestly hun 90% of that was because I thought if Mandy can do this so can I xxxxxxxx
 
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Hi hun, hope you are OK. You are definitely not worthless - you are an inspiration and you are doing so well!! Hope your weekend has been good! xxxx
 
Hey sweetie, just wanted to wish you good luck for your return to work tomorrow :fingerscrossed: it all goes well for you, I know you'll be fine young lady you're a fighter...have fun lovely :bighug: xxxxxxxx
 
well i am struggling a little to get back on plan, sat was awful, yesterday not to bad at least it was within syns, and so far today i have been exemplery, meals all planned, tea in the slow cooker and all syn free.
I think part of the problem is i have been so busy and my routine has been disrupted:eek:
So last night i wrote a meal plan for the week and ordered all the shopping on line.
Have the day to my self so can do lots of catching up on jobs.
I also think i am starting to stress out about fri, my first shift back. I went to a christening yesterday, just to the church, with a few of my work friends and shook for the first 10 mins:eek: I did manage to control it thougth and thats the important thing:)

This morning I have made a decision inorder to reduce my stress levels and ensure i don't go completley off the rails.
I have put the scales away :confused::confused::confused:
I will weigh myself on the thurs before christmas. The reason for this is to stop me stressing about the numbers. I will keep a full food diary again to keep me on track and continue with the exercise challenge and hopefully at the end of dec i will have a good loss to report.:D:D:D:D:D

I have given the teen permission to nag me as well.
This sounds awful but hubby is almost at his goal weight and not as focused so not being as supportive now :sigh:
I am not trying to blame him or not take responsibility for my own actions but this is a familier pattern.
Dieting goes well while he wants to lose weight but as soon as he is happy he stops being so focused and instead of helping starts to hinder :mad:

This time i am not going to let it happen

will pop back later and post todays food diary
hope all are having a good day xxx
 
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