how do you lose 2 thirds of your self?
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LoChan1984
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Hmn no report in from you yet :bighug:Hope the first two shifts back to work went smoothly with as little stress as possible xxxx
P.S Will bear in mind your teen's wise advice and drink plenty of water this next week after my chinese indulgence tonight
lol Hope he's chuffed about having so many uni options open to him
P.S Will bear in mind your teen's wise advice and drink plenty of water this next week after my chinese indulgence tonight
lol Hope he's chuffed about having so many uni options open to him 
broadsbean
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hey, sorry for taking so long:wave_cry:
fri just couldn't face talking or writing to anybody, cos cried for 2 hours when i got home :cry:
yesterday was the birthday parties so went to my mums from work finally got home at 2.15 am slightly worse for wear not used to 20 hour days anymore
Fri was awful went in ok and felt resonably confident. I hadn't even got to the ward when somebody told me i shouldn't have bothered cos it was carp
went on to the ward to discover we were short staffed (nothing new there) the staff nurse who handed over to me also told me i was an idiot and should have stayed off. handed me a piece of paper told me i needed too list the weekends planned discharges for the ward and attend the bed meeting at 2.00 pm. (again it is normal to do the bed meet when your in charge, the pridicted discharge thing is new ) Handed over her pts to me pointed out she hadn't had chance to do the lunch time meds or obs and was finishing early cos was owed some hours.
I had 2 agency nurses on with me and a staff nurse from the ward who had come in to do some overtime a fact she constantly pointed out to me througthout the afternoon
she has a strange sense of humour at the best of times but made several jokes about skiving off the last 4 months.
At the bed meet another ward rang me and told me i needed to do there predicted discharges too as they had no band 6 on. At the meeting the Matron questioned our staffing level for the weekend and what had been do to resolve the issues when i said i wasn't sure agency had been booked but not yet picked up. she started to have a go at me about this should have been sorted the day before. then she realised it was my first day back so dropped it
by 4.00 pm i wanted to cry :sigh: was edging towards a panic attack but managed to talk myself out of it
Felt disorganised and not in control all afternoon and by home time (half an hour late !!!) i was convinced i had made a mistake and wasn't ready to come back .
Hence the tears.
Sat I got up and made the desicion to put yesterday behind me and start again. Dragged out my PMA and was in work for 7.00 am. what a differance a day makes !!! The staff i was on with seemed generally pleased to see me I felt supported and back in control sorted my time management out and managed to take a break and finish on time
Still wondering if i really was ready but determined to do this. back in in the morning. have a return to work interview with the matron which is unusual normally its with your manager. Trying not to stress about that !!!!!!
need to get a routine sorted cos eating has been really erratic and i have not drank anywhere near 2 lts let alone 3
but that i know i can sort out
hope every body is ok and sorry for ranting as always i use this diary to straigten out my thoughts and vent xx
fri just couldn't face talking or writing to anybody, cos cried for 2 hours when i got home :cry:
yesterday was the birthday parties so went to my mums from work finally got home at 2.15 am
slightly worse for wear not used to 20 hour days anymore Fri was awful went in ok and felt resonably confident. I hadn't even got to the ward when somebody told me i shouldn't have bothered cos it was carp
went on to the ward to discover we were short staffed (nothing new there) the staff nurse who handed over to me also told me i was an idiot and should have stayed off. handed me a piece of paper told me i needed too list the weekends planned discharges for the ward and attend the bed meeting at 2.00 pm. (again it is normal to do the bed meet when your in charge, the pridicted discharge thing is new ) Handed over her pts to me pointed out she hadn't had chance to do the lunch time meds or obs and was finishing early cos was owed some hours.
I had 2 agency nurses on with me and a staff nurse from the ward who had come in to do some overtime a fact she constantly pointed out to me througthout the afternoon
she has a strange sense of humour at the best of times but made several jokes about skiving off the last 4 months
.At the bed meet another ward rang me and told me i needed to do there predicted discharges too as they had no band 6 on. At the meeting the Matron questioned our staffing level for the weekend and what had been do to resolve the issues when i said i wasn't sure agency had been booked but not yet picked up. she started to have a go at me about this should have been sorted the day before. then she realised it was my first day back so dropped it
by 4.00 pm i wanted to cry :sigh: was edging towards a panic attack but managed to talk myself out of it
Felt disorganised and not in control all afternoon and by home time (half an hour late !!!) i was convinced i had made a mistake and wasn't ready to come back
.Hence the tears.
Sat I got up and made the desicion to put yesterday behind me and start again. Dragged out my PMA and was in work for 7.00 am. what a differance a day makes !!! The staff i was on with seemed generally pleased to see me I felt supported and back in control sorted my time management out and managed to take a break and finish on time
Still wondering if i really was ready but determined to do this. back in in the morning. have a return to work interview with the matron which is unusual normally its with your manager. Trying not to stress about that !!!!!!
need to get a routine sorted cos eating has been really erratic and i have not drank anywhere near 2 lts let alone 3
but that i know i can sort out
hope every body is ok and sorry for ranting as always i use this diary to straigten out my thoughts and vent
xx
tillymax
Gold Member
When you have your meeting with the matron point out the things that you've mentioned on your diary. They have a duty of care towards you and if you've mentioned them they have no excuse if you ever need time off again. You have to cover your own back in this day and age. If new systems are in place you should have been talked through them. It would have been better if you'd been shadowing someone on your first day back so you could be fully aware of everything.
The lady who was talking about skiving was probably trying to have a laugh. I had a lot of time off when I was pregnant with my youngest. I'd had a miscarriage so had time off with that and then got pregnant straight away. I started bleeding and because of the misarriage the doctor signed me off. I was off for about 3 months in total. I'd previously had an excellent sick record. Some of my collegues did talk about me sitting at home with my feet up whilst they were holding the fort. At the time I was really upset by it. I'd just lost a baby and didn't know if I was going to lose this one too. Looking back I know they were trying to make light of the situation and weren't trying to be nasty but at that time I was too sensitive for those comments.
You did a brilliant job under the circumstances and should be really proud of yourself. You've proved that you can do it and you have to remember that when things go wrong it's not your fault. In an ideal world there would be enough money to give you the staff and equipment you need to do your job easily. This isn't an ideal world and all you can do is your best.
I'm glad your second day was better and hope it shows you that you are more than capable
The lady who was talking about skiving was probably trying to have a laugh. I had a lot of time off when I was pregnant with my youngest. I'd had a miscarriage so had time off with that and then got pregnant straight away. I started bleeding and because of the misarriage the doctor signed me off. I was off for about 3 months in total. I'd previously had an excellent sick record. Some of my collegues did talk about me sitting at home with my feet up whilst they were holding the fort. At the time I was really upset by it. I'd just lost a baby and didn't know if I was going to lose this one too. Looking back I know they were trying to make light of the situation and weren't trying to be nasty but at that time I was too sensitive for those comments.
You did a brilliant job under the circumstances and should be really proud of yourself. You've proved that you can do it and you have to remember that when things go wrong it's not your fault. In an ideal world there would be enough money to give you the staff and equipment you need to do your job easily. This isn't an ideal world and all you can do is your best.
I'm glad your second day was better and hope it shows you that you are more than capable
JackieN
One day at a time, one step at a time
Hold that head high sweetie. How well did you do? very very proud of you. And sounds like day 2 was a big success overall. Day one would always have been difficult as you've had time off and were nervous. The twonks that made jokes and had a go are just that twonks. Don't stand any nonsense huni remember the new Mandy is not a door mat. :bighug:
I for one am very proud of you as well all are and I do hope the next shift goes smoothly for you sweetheart and that its twonkless xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
very very proud of you. And sounds like day 2 was a big success overall. Day one would always have been difficult as you've had time off and were nervous. The twonks that made jokes and had a go are just that twonks. Don't stand any nonsense huni remember the new Mandy is not a door mat. :bighug:I for one am very proud of you as well all are and I do hope the next shift goes smoothly for you sweetheart and that its twonkless
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LoChan1984
Gold Member
Aw, your first day back sounds horrid So glad the second shift was better with nicer people around you :bighug:
Also glad Tilly's able to give you some sound advice about how to approach any back to work problems too
Have you got a couple of day's breathing space before your next shift? xxxx
So glad the second shift was better with nicer people around you :bighug:Also glad Tilly's able to give you some sound advice about how to approach any back to work problems too
Have you got a couple of day's breathing space before your next shift? xxxx
desperate2Bslim
Reaching the goal
Hope you're feeling a lot better now sweetie.
broadsbean
Gold Member
afternoon all
well day three went well
The place i feel most comfortable is in the bay with my pts and thats exactly where i have been. I have been confident and assertive for most of the morning.
Discovered i do have a tendency to shake when talking to other members of staff
not sure why but i will get over it.
My problem is that i tend to panic and stress about going in but once i am there i settle quite quickly. As i see it the only way to cure that is to just keep doing it
managed to keep my eating on track today but still need to drink more.
B alpen light before i went to work
L shredded wheat hexa and hexb
T sw chilli and rice
S horlics light 6 syns chocolate 3 syns
hopefully i can keep this up all week
not working till the weekend now.
well day three went well
The place i feel most comfortable is in the bay with my pts and thats exactly where i have been. I have been confident and assertive for most of the morning.
Discovered i do have a tendency to shake when talking to other members of staff
not sure why but i will get over it.
My problem is that i tend to panic and stress about going in but once i am there i settle quite quickly. As i see it the only way to cure that is to just keep doing it
managed to keep my eating on track today
but still need to drink more.B alpen light before i went to work
L shredded wheat hexa and hexb
T sw chilli and rice
S horlics light 6 syns chocolate 3 syns
hopefully i can keep this up all week
not working till the weekend now.
JackieN
One day at a time, one step at a time
:bighug: well done Mandy proud of you. You are naturally abit nervy sweetheart you've had 4 months off. Has anyone noticed all the weight you've lost?
Have you tried revival remedy? I get it from crystal herbs online and prefer it to rescue remedy, just seems to calm me and help me cope better
Well done on the food front too xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
proud of you. You are naturally abit nervy sweetheart you've had 4 months off. Has anyone noticed all the weight you've lost?Have you tried revival remedy? I get it from crystal herbs online and prefer it to rescue remedy, just seems to calm me and help me cope better
Well done on the food front too
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Lily42uk
Gold Member
Well done hun, a shaky start but knew you could do it...really really proud...I shake when I am anxious, nervous or really angry ...god knows what causes it.
So so proud of you and even more so for staying on track...surely they've noticed your weight loss...glad you were where you're happiest today always makes for a pleasant day :bighug:, enjoy your few days off before your next shift and give yourself a big old pat on the back, you deserve it xxx xxx
So so proud of you and even more so for staying on track...surely they've noticed your weight loss...glad you were where you're happiest today always makes for a pleasant day :bighug:, enjoy your few days off before your next shift and give yourself a big old pat on the back, you deserve it xxx xxx
broadsbean
Gold Member
a couple of people have asked me if i have lost weight, several people have told me i look great and one even said i looked younger
I think cos i have been off and not everybody knows why, people think that might be why i have lost weight and don't want to comment
My uniform is fab that is really loose
and that has recieved a lot of comments. will probably need to get them taken in, in a couple of months
I think cos i have been off and not everybody knows why, people think that might be why i have lost weight and don't want to comment
My uniform is fab that is really loose
and that has recieved a lot of comments. will probably need to get them taken in, in a couple of months
LoChan1984
Gold Member
Glad you've been getting some nice comments on your weight loss from work. I bet the loose uniform is a fab NSV for you to see how well you're doing on the shrinking side of things
I want you to be eating more aswell as drinking more water but can understand it will be difficult while you're getting back into the work routine. Take care of yourself and enjoy your few days off between shifts xxxx
I want you to be eating more aswell as drinking more water but can understand it will be difficult while you're getting back into the work routine. Take care of yourself and enjoy your few days off between shifts xxxx
broadsbean
Gold Member
wonder why they are called days off !!! was so busy yesterday
went to the gym, walked the dog had a counselling appointment and had to catch up on the housework cos nobody had done any over the week end
Now today is going to be totally differant, i have booked my shopping to be delivered within an 8 hour window so can't go out, walked the dog for nearly an hour quickly hoovered and tidied round and now i have the rest of the day to myself
hubby and son have gone to loughborough uni to visit some car thing for matts extended project and won't be back till about 7.00 pm so i am going to override the central heating turn on all the crimbo lights and sit and watch christmas movies:xmascheers:
Its my last free day before crimbo and i am going to make the most of it
food wise it is all planned out for ease
B apricots, yog and honey (2 syns)
L wm pitta filled with salad, syn free sausage onions and chilli jam ( 2 syns and hexb) banana
T chicken wrapped in lean bacon stuffed with hullomi cheese (hexa) baked potato
baby sweetcorn and mangetout flora for pot ( 5 syns)
S hot choc (2 syns) 2 satsumas and grapes
hope you are all having as good a day as i plan to have xxxx
went to the gym, walked the dog had a counselling appointment and had to catch up on the housework cos nobody had done any over the week end
Now today is going to be totally differant, i have booked my shopping to be delivered within an 8 hour window so can't go out
, walked the dog for nearly an hour quickly hoovered and tidied round and now i have the rest of the day to myselfhubby and son have gone to loughborough uni to visit some car thing for matts extended project and won't be back till about 7.00 pm so i am going to override the central heating turn on all the crimbo lights and sit and watch christmas movies:xmascheers:
Its my last free day before crimbo and i am going to make the most of it
food wise it is all planned out for ease
B apricots, yog and honey (2 syns)
L wm pitta filled with salad, syn free sausage onions and chilli jam ( 2 syns and hexb) banana
T chicken wrapped in lean bacon stuffed with hullomi cheese (hexa) baked potato
baby sweetcorn and mangetout flora for pot ( 5 syns)
S hot choc (2 syns) 2 satsumas and grapes
hope you are all having as good a day as i plan to have xxxx
broadsbean
Gold Member
ohhhh forgot to say has anybody tried the NAS winterberries squash robinsons have bought out ?
Its really nice and fab hot
lo it reminds me slightly of gluwien
well worth a try imho xxxx
Its really nice and fab hot
lo it reminds me slightly of gluwien
well worth a try imho xxxx
Lily42uk
Gold Member
Hey sweetie, enjoy your day off, your lights and films, you deserve it all.
Food looks fab...not tried the Robinsons winter berries but will definitely be giving it a try, sounds yum.
Feet up and relax, that's the way forward, was going to do my pickles but heck I think I'll go with your plan, am suddenly quite sleepy lol
Have a fab day xxxxxxx
Food looks fab...not tried the Robinsons winter berries but will definitely be giving it a try, sounds yum.
Feet up and relax, that's the way forward, was going to do my pickles but heck I think I'll go with your plan, am suddenly quite sleepy lol
Have a fab day xxxxxxx
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