Hello Lovely, :wow: that was some speech :giggle: I totally agree with not wanting to be or sound negative all the time, whether it's your diary or not, negativity creates negativity, so it's on with the positives.:hug99:
I'm doing my best ATM and I've ordered some slimpods 
Like you I keep putting on and taking off the same few pounds and actually sat down and worked out exactly where I stood.
I never actually look at my optomising book, as the figures make me feel bad, they are so daunting, so I do the tallying in my head, but my head isn't as young as it used to be:giggle:, I thought I had 3lbs to go to get back to my lowest weight, I don't it's 7lbs, but you know what I may be heavier than I was before Christmas but somehow my clothes are looser, so it's not all about the weight ok.
I need to get my head into the zone re weight v size, I let it get to me too much and too easily.
I just watched Obese: A year to save my life from Monday night, and as I was watching and :drool: over Jesse, I heard him say, you can do more than you think you can do, and I am here to show you and push you that bit further every time you want to give up....so guess what? I'm your Jesse :8855:, maybe not as gorgeous especially when I'm sweaty, like he is :drool: but every bit as demanding.
I've not seen Jesse:cry:so I can't possible comment on the comparisons. I won't prejudge anyone.
Failure????????????????????????? You, hey Patsy, I'll say this quietly in case it's a secret, :secret: you've lost 2 and a half stone....where is that a failure????????????????
No that bit's not a secret, but the fact I have done all this once before has been up till now :secret:before my transplant I was down to just over 12 stone. I was also half dead but you don't win em all. I gained a bit with the steroids and being encouraged (seriously) to eat chocolate to make sure my potassium levels didn't drop but the big change came when I had a bit of a mishap at a Xmas party and retreated to the safety of blubber
Your garden sounds horrendous but you can do it, we did my FIL's before he died and he had a jungle that was taller than us by at least 2 feet, what we did was cordon off areas and concentrate on them and only them and then when we were happy move on to the next one, took some time but hey it would have only gotten worse had we left it and I obviously don't know where you live or what friends or family you have or even neighbours, retired neighbours are a great help or neighbours sons if you can afford to pay them a few bob to help out.
I had weeds last year that were taller than I could reach. Don't really have family who could/would help and neighbours all have their own lives to lead.
I know you have health issues hun, we all do some worse than others I'll grant you, but to be honest if you give up (BELIEVE ME YOU'RE NOT GOING TO...I'LL TRACK YOU DOWN IF I HAVE TO) they'll just get worse.
I sort of live in the middle of nowhere so if you were to try to track me down you'd be going some. Anyway if you did I wouldn't let you in at present cos I'm too ashamed of the state the house is in. Hence I can't ask pals to come help with the jungle.
So you come on here and rant rave, moan do whatever you need, ask for help would be a good choice lol.....but you will do this hunni, cos you deserve it and I know that loads of people me, Jackie, LMC and many more will push you every step of the way :bighug: so here's a few of these :hug99: and now let's hear no more of this failure nonsense....and I am now going to set you your first challenge....you
have to lose 2lb this week at least, i am going to lose 4lb or near as damn it, cos I am sick of being fat and i know you are too !!!
:hug99: :bighug: xxxxxxxx
for the NSV...you go girl, hopefully you'll be able to accept them and shout out a big yahoo one day :giggle: xxxxxxxxx
