Omg! I'm having a melt down. I swear my period is in its way, i'm emotional and annoying, not due for over a week.
So all I'm doing is going out to shops and then to get my daughters first hair cut. Nowhere special and I just can't find anything to wear. I just feel fat in everything. I'm over 10lbs down from a few weeks ago and I've never felt this fat before. All my clothes are my normal size from before I gained weight. I don't have many outfits for this size. I'm just looking at stuff I want to wear and know it won't fit. Then I don't want to buy size 16/18 because I am aiming to lose the weight. My boobs are the biggest they have been in my life. I know some girls would love this and flaunt them, but I just need to cover them up.
I decided on a very boring fat girl outfit. Awful for a summery day but I feel too self conscious to get my arms out.
I'm seriously going crazy. I feel like I can't leave the house. Not sure what up with me today. This pic at 225.5lbs