Sunday arvo update/ whinge
I'm feeling really really low guys.
Thursday night I drank- it would have been day 13 of no drink. Then I had Subway
Friday at work I had cake, shop bought sandwich, packet of crisps. Me and Oli had fallen out without me even knowing and so I was miserable all day. Valentines. I had Domino's for dinner.
Yesterday (Saturday) I went to an all you can eat buffet for a friends birthday. And did eat. A lot. Oli came. Lots of us were out, we had a laugh and everything. Me and Oli had a really nice time together too. Or so I thought?
But he woke up at 5am this morning and left. He had the right hump and sent me all these texts about him being 26 not 76 and said I've stopped being sexy and act like an old woman.
I was flabbergasted and still haven't heard from him.
I'm not typing all this because I want girl power and all that. I know he's mean for saying those things and I know how to stick up for myself. I'm saying it because I don't have anyone to tell, precisely because if I tell my mum or girlfriends they'll get their backs up (like you guys are probably going to- but I'd rather you didn't).
I've said before, me and Oli have had a really tough year. I think I've been very giving and patient to be honest as he has been unemployed for over a year now and working solidly on that application for the music school in California. We never have money to do anything, theres been lots of deadlines and stress and well yes- its been tough for everyone.
I think he must be on his period. I don't know what's wrong with him. A while back he picked on me a bit for my weight but I've since joined SW and come really far. Now I'm acting like an old woman. Like give me a break!!! please please please don't start telling me how rude he is, and that I shouldn't put up with that and deserve better bla bla bla
Just need to vent in the safety of this forum. We've been getting on really well recently, chatting, laughing, supporting one another everything. I'm not sure where this has come from and sort of can't be bothered to confront it. It's a big week for me because I found out I've been shortlisted for a job I applied for and the interview is Thursday (he didn't even really say well done because I found out Friday and he had the right hump!)
But I was walking round town earlier, needing to buy a suit jacket or something but all emotionless and couldn't concentrate. I am cross with him for behaving like this, but more than that I'm worried that there must be something seriously wrong with our relationship, beyond the factors such as jobs and money which we have been working on. That's scary. Everyone says/does things they don't mean when they're angry or upset but this morning was just, well, I've no idea what's going on!
I don't know