Jenni's diary: Given up chocolate!

[minime]

probably hormonal hun, but not a good idea to get into a routine where you are eating junk all the time and know you can cos your still losing. Hope you feel better soon.

 

[smilerjen]

Oh I have days like that...five packets of crisps later you think, oh not that hungry for lunch! lol!!

 

[jennikay]

I realised earlier that I haven't pointed anything in about 5 days, BUT - I haven't gained any weight
Well, I gained 2lbs then lost them again, lol.

I saw my boyfriend tonight ^.^
:love:
He insists it's not possible to love him more than he loves me, haha.

We went to McDonalds and I had 5 chicken nuggets and a diet coke ^.^
Which I don't think is too bad, since I work 5 nuggets out to be 3.5 points

x

 

[xxemmaxx]

happy ur still loosing weight hun or maintaing... have u been more active this week or anything?? xx

 

[jennikay]

Well not that much!

So maybe I'm just eating less without realising it or something
Either way, it's sort of good, ish, right?

I skived my meeting tonight
But it was actually because I wanted to see my boyfriend - it was just a bonus that I didn't have to face up to my leader, LOL.

xx

 

[jennikay]

:sigh:

I seem to be struggling at the moment.

Both my mental and physical health seem to be messed up
I'm slowly realising just how much my OCD affects me, things I didn't realise were OCD I'm just remembering.

And my diet has fallen by the wayside a bit
I either need a kick up the bum, or a restart, or something.

On the plus side, I'm not pregnant
On the down side, I'll have no idea what's wrong with me until my ultrasound.

Hmph.

xx

 

[Anna_B]

Sending you some hugs :hug99:and this snowman just because it made me smile :smiley1842:

 

[Jax123]

Hi sorry to hear you're struggling - hope your feeling a bit happier today Am sending lots of positive thoughts and big hugs :hug99: xxx

 

[jennikay]

YAY my ultrasound is on Monday.

On the downside I have NO-ONE to go with, and it's all the way out in Beverley (basically meaning I have to get a bus and a train by myself, and I don't really know my way around Beverley either.)

But it was that or waiting another month for it (I think this one must've been a cancellation) so I've grabbed it with both hands ^.^

LOL Anna the snowman made me smile too

I'm feeling a bit better today, so that's good.
I started the day with good intentions and they fell by the wayside a bit, so I'm trying again tomorrow

xx

 

[Starlight]

Hope youre feeling better soon *HUGS*

Glad you got the ultrasound so quickly thats great x

 

[Anna_B]

I'm glad you have your appointment on Monday. I hope it gives you some answers

 

[Jax123]

Glad you got your appt so quickly xxx

 

[Lozbo]

Glad you got the ultrasound so fast...hope it all goes well.x

 

[xxemmaxx]

Good luck for monday hun ... let us know how u get on xx

 

[Emma_2008]

Good luck for Monday Jenni. Hope all goes well x

 

[lea8198]

Good luck for Monday Jenni!

 

[jennikay]

I've almost done it!

So far I've eaten 17 points (after weighing in at 9st 4.5 this morning ) and I have 1 point left to see me through until I go to bed - easily doable, since I've already had tea.

I saw my doctor today and I'm getting help for my OCD.

Thanks for your lovely words girls, my dad is now taking me to my ultrasound so I won't be on my own.
Still rather worried though

xx

 

[Lozbo]

Glad you're getting help from the Drs and that you're dad is going to the ultrasound with you. Hope that it all goes well! xx

 

[Anna_B]

It's good you were able to talk to your GP & I'm glad your dad is going to take you to your scan x

 

[jennikay]

Thanks again girls

I'm getting into dieting again slowly
I managed until about 10pm last night and then had a mahooosive binge on anything in sight - strangely, I was 1lb less this morning

I'm doing OK so far today though

xx