Feeling blue today
not quite sure why really, fed up with the way things are sometimes, I suppose most of it comes down to money
and major lack of it...pressure of birthdays and xmas!
I wish I didn't feel so crappy because things are better lately in all other senses...
A little run down of what I have been through recently;
Last August we lost two of our nephews in a car crash
things will never be the same again, and we are coming to terms with it and we know the family will always have a massive hole in it now!
We moved to Cambs in April (was living in Dagenham Essex) so life is better up here for the kids - schools are amazing, couldn't be happier!
But I miss my friends so much, it took me a good month or so to stop feeling really depressed about not having them around the corner, although I do have some of my family up here, and we moved to be closer to them to help with the loss of the boys!
Although I still miss them of course, I have turned a corner and am starting to make some new friends up here, so feeling happier about that, having people to chat to up the school etc. and the kids are still really happy at school!
Money has been massivly cut down as my OH has had to take a huge cut in pay as we no longer get the London rate, so we feel the pinch more then ever, I am looking for work locally but it is so hard, I don't drive and for me to find a job that fits around OH and kids then it will have to be evenings and weekends, so far nothing has come up, unless it is far away - long bus ride - problem there is if it is a late shift I have no way of getting there and back as the buses do not run past a certain time and if I get a day job a lot of what I earn will go on childcare so I will be working to pay for that!
I have to be happy as I have a lovely house and healthy happy kids, just need to tighten the belt more (even if that is possible) and stop worrying, but it is difficult when a bill comes in and then stress happens all over again!
Anyway that is a rant I needed to get out, I hate moaning about money, tend to just struggle on in silence but thought I would add a little in my diary to get it off my chest!
Sorry!!
Anyway food for today! Green Day - 22/09/2011
Breakfast - 2 weetabix with skimmed milk (Heb1 and some of Hea1)
Orange
Lunch - 2poached eggs on 1 slice of WM toast (Heb2)
2x bourbon creams & 2xcustard creams (13syns
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Dinner - I think I am just going to make some kind of pasta meal for us...probably do spag bol for OH & kids and just a tomato sauce for me!
Got to tidy the house today, but really not feeling in the mood, need to get it nice and tidy for tomorrow though, so need to get my lazy butt moving!
I hope you are all having a nice day! x
