My child ain't never gonna be a neat freak, I fear. But then, his parents aren't either, really. We have a houseful of clutter. Though not as bad as some. I've been very reassured by that C4 programme about 'The Hoarder Next Door".
It's been an interesting JUDDDing weekend. I've eaten everything in sight today, not really sure why. Well, that's a lie, I know why. I've got to deal with work tomorrow and I don't want to. My job's getting me down big time at the moment but as I'm in no position to jack it in, I've just got to pull up my big girl pants and get on with it. Emotional eating, bah. It's like punishing myself, in a way, because I haven't got the balls to tackle the problem I have full on, even though I've spent £700 on life/career coaching in recent months. Oh, I'm better than I was but I'm still not fixed. My problem is I'm far too nice. I can do helpful and collaborative but not leading and thrusting. Grrr.
As an example, my boss told me on Friday that the words I used in the first draft of my performance agreement for 12/13 were too "passive". Well, hello - I have a liaison role within my team. It's hard to turn "I will try to persuade and cajole..." into quantifiable deliverables when, courtesy of my position, I have no actual clout to make those I work with do what we'd ideally like them to do. (As it turns out, I do quite a good job of persuading and cajoling, but I can't promise to deliver in my performance agreement, only that I'll try). I suppose that's no different to sales, except if you know that you're not going to get a sale with a particular business, you can move on to another one. I can't move on to another one - I have to work with the same directorates year in year out. I'm going to have to "have it out" with my boss, and I guess that's what's getting to me most. :sigh: I really would like to get it sorted before I go on holiday though, otherwise I'm really not going to want to come back.
DD tomorrow then. A DD with bells on, it had better be, after the amount of cr*p I've eaten this weekend...