Losingit's losing it journey

[losingit]

Ah, yes it's hard to change that negative little voice in your head, especially if you have grown up with people around you reinforcing it at every step it becomes part of who you are in the end and it's hard to imagine defining yourself in any other way. At some point you have to stand up and say "i'm not putting up with any of this nonsense" and giving yourself a firm talking to... and actually believing that the negative crap you are saying IS NOT really who you are. I found that if i challenge every negative thought that enters my mind, it does eventually help change it - it takes quite a bit of effort for a while though as it's hard to spot the negative voice but eventually it becomes a bit like a "whack a mole" contest at the fairground, spot the negative thought and swat it away to be replaced with something positive. Over time this technique really helped me free up my thought process and allow positive thoughts to take root. And the other thing is removing negative people, events, associations from your life too.

"I value myself enough to feed myself only food that will nourish me and make me healthy. I deserve, and will be, a healthy weight. I am not perfect and make mistakes, but these mistakes make me stronger and more determined to succeed, my downfalls will not beat me. I will make a difference in my own life and be in control of where i am going and who i will be 12 months from now, a week from now, or even who i am in the next 5 minutes."

 

[stef2009]

I see this alot and it rages me to the point a few times I have ended up in a royal argument, I know u can't interfere with ppls parenting skills but sadly for me I can't keep my big mouth shut! It's disgusting the way some treat there kids and they should be bloody ashamed, problem is, there not and think its ok!! Grrrr!!!! Xxx

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[losingit]

Had a bit of an oopsie today. Was going to have a square of dark chocolate, but ended up eating a whole 100g bar. Which is 15g of carb so still within my allowance but it's made me feel really hungry all of a sudden. Going to have a big steak in a bit and just carry on, still keeping my carbs below 20g for the day. Dark chocolate is now off my list of things to eat for a while as i can't control myself.

 

[ladyfelsham]

Losingit - and everyone else who contributed - I am so proud of your comments.

A lot of history for me here, and I'm not going to go into it here at the moment, but one parent tried to suppress me for years (you're not pretty, you're not bright, yada yada).

Parenthood and good guidance are paramount to children, and I know without a doubt, Losingit, that you are a great mum and giving your child a fab start in life.

 

[losingit]

It's really sad when the people that are meant to be the only ones in the world you can rely on to care for you, hurt you instead.

Going back to the diet, that chocolate from yesterday made me put on 2lbs of water weight overnight despite me still keeping my overall carbs below 20g. Just goes to show the effect TYPE of carbs has, it's not just about keep carbs low it's about avoiding the wrong kinds (like sugar). I also feel very hungry like i'm coming out of ketosis. I also think it matters when you have the carbs too, if you eat 20g of carbs in one go (or 15g as i did yesterday) the effect is very different than spreading carbs out with each meal and having lets say no more than 6 or 7g per meal. I also noticed my body is super sensitive to carbs, any carbs at all, i'm not one of those people that can eat 70g or 80g a day and still stay in ketosis, when it comes time to upping my carbs when i get near goal weight, i half expect my tipping point for carbs without gaining weight will be somewhere in the region of 30g a day.

 

[moonlights]

Absolutely - the type of carbs and how many you have in one go can cause an insulin spike. It's really unlikely to take you out of ketosis but will it cause cravings or shock your body into holding onto a bit of water? Yep and yep. Even so, you picked a much better thing to go overboard with than you could have and I doubt the effects will last long. We all have trigger foods.

 

[losingit]

Yep, chocolate is definitely a trigger food for me. Funnily enough, cocoa powder doesn't trigger me to overeat - even when i make delicious chocolatey treats like chocolate Atkins cheesecake mix. So from now onwards i'll avoid the chocolate and stick to cheesecake .

Have found the past few days pretty tough mentally, but spurred on by the fact that January is almost over and i've almost completed my January challenge. Every day in January has had no more than 20g carb, which is a vast improvement on my performance in the last half of 2012. Problem is, i've lost much less weight than i was losing then, frustrating. Only thing i'm doing differently is not exercising, maybe that's it, i honestly didn't think the exercise was making that much of a difference but i guess it was. I'm just not in the mood to start again at the moment.

On the brighter side, i just ran a credit check on myself and my score came back at 983 / 1000! I really desperately want to buy my own property, have plenty of income and savings and everything, don't owe a penny to anyone, but i have a default on my credit record dating back to January 2008. When i was pregnant with my daughter i had to quit my agency job at the time and i was unable to pay a debt for three months, hence the default. Totally frustrating as it's STILL stopping me moving on with my life, and i've got another 12 months to go before it will disappear, can't get a mortgage even with that great score. Anyway, the end is in sight, in 12 months i'll be able to get a mortgage and will have (i hope) a perfect credit score. I just hope my business holds up (eek!). I'm already obsessively looking at properties on rightmove and dreaming....

 

[Supersmileyme]

I'm a rightmove addict too! Finding lovely houses that I dream all day about, even though I need to get a job before I even start saving the deposit!!

 

[stef2009]

I am too but the abroad version lol my dream houses overseas ahhhh if only!! Xxx

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[ladyfelsham]

Rightmove addict number 4 here I'm still looking even though I've made the offer on my place!

And lol Stef, I also look at the overseas ones - am always finding some little nugget in Italy...

12 months will whizz by, Losingit, and it's more chance to save a bigger deposit And the dreaming and planning is so much fun!

 

[stef2009]

I hate dreaming, it ends up annoying me rather than inspring me, im far too impatient xxx

 

[losingit]

It is fun to dream. I get frustrated because when i look at houses i always see how much more i can get for "just" another 20k on top of my budget. It seems like all the houses in my price range are in bad areas and are small but just that 20k more and i can get something really nice.

I bought some new coffee today: Douwe Egberts UK | Products | The Flavour Collective - Smooth Caramel it tastes amazing, even with the almond milk it doesn't clash at all. I can't find any carb data though . I weighed how much coffee i use per cup and it's around 2g, so it won't hurt to have one a day but i wish i could find a carb count for it somewhere. I might write to them and ask. It's probably only around 0.2g to 0.5g max.

 

[sammy1]

Hi, re the coffee, the site says there are 2 cals per mug, so if all the cals come from carbs there is a max of .5 carbs per mug. 1gr carb equals 4 cals. I think I will look out for this the next time I am shopping, it sound lovely.

 

[losingit]

Ah ok, that makes sense, thankyou!

It is on offer in Tescos at the moment, 2 pound instead of 3 (sorry can't get the pound symbol.. my computer set up for US english lol). It's really really nice, i love it. They do it in hazelnut and vanilla too.

 

[ladyfelsham]

Sounds lovely

I got a stack of Da Vinci syrups lately, including caramel - must try one tonight

 

[losingit]

Lost 0.8lbs this week, going to call it 1lb.

 

[stef2009]

Well done! Xxxx

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[losingit]

help! Got to go and see my friend tomorrow and will probably have lunch with her . Dreading it. She knows i'm doing Atkins but doesn't think it's good and she is one of those people who is pretty assertive with her opinions. I can't exactly ask for Atkins-friendly food either knowing how expensive it is (compared to for instance a sandwich). She is/has been on a diet herself of just eating fruit and veg but not sure if she's still on it, if she is i might get away with a bit of veg. What would you do in this position, stand up and say "no" to the food and risk offending your friend, or just put up and eat? I so don't want to eat carbs, i'm really in the zone and have been solid for a month now, i'm losing weight slowly and don't need to be set back for another week .

 

[moonlights]

If she knows you're on a diet then it's just rude not to check what you can eat - a ham salad is no more expensive than a sandwich. Either send her a text asking if she'll be okay to do a ham or cheese salad or take along a couple of boiled eggs and Atkins snacks yourself and remind her about your diet but say you don't need her to go to any trouble. Or text and ask if -she's- still on the diet and offer to bring something you can both eat?

She really can't take the suggestion of a salad with egg, ham or cheese as an unhealthy option. Especially if she's eating only fruit and veg, which -is- genuinely unhealthy.

 

[stef2009]

I agree with the above ^^
Ur in the zone ATM it isn worth breaking ketosis especially for a sandwich, she should respect your diet, I'm sure you have your opinions of her fruit and veg diet but not enough to make her feel she can't have lunch, if that make sence!? Xxx

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