Lost & Found... Map Gone AWOL!

[Katycakes]

Dis, I am the same... since China, have put on a few more lbs. I knew I was overeating and was deliberately avoiding scales, but finally dared to look and the news was not good. I think the truth is that for me I HAVE to be a bit controlling about food and following 810 or whatever is a good idea... for me, managing alone has not been so good lately. And maybe I DO need to post because it keeps me focused, and when I am not on minis I let myself get away with murder, food-wise.

Liz, the mission was a success... did get to do some exploring too, and fell in love with Beijing. Would recommend it to anyone. Have some pics, but too chicken to put them up... cover would be blown, lol.

Need to think hard and form a plan, then stick to it... and the plan needs to include more exercise, always a sticking point for me. Need motivation, determination, and a bit of self-belief... this over-eating has to stop.

xxx

 

[sleepybird]

I didn't eat all of the biscuits Katy and MJT so have some left over.
Scary to think that about 10 are my entire days worth of calories for the day. I don't care tho!
Have very achy abs today, I suppose it shows how unfit i am but roll on summer and the desire to wear nice summer clothes to keep my appetite in check ;-) xxx

 

[Watergirl]

I feel the same about the exercise thing, but find the gym so boring. shame we don't all live near each other and could set up a fun team sport like netball. We'd have a laugh and get fit!

 

[Wales]

I like the sound of netball, but scary memories of short skirts!!

You are not alone Katy, definitely not. We are all here. I sometime find that I have nothing to say other than the facts. The thinking around the choices I am making can overwhelm me so I just do, and don't think. And that is when the scales go up.

Would love to hear all about your plan, and any details of the secret mission to China!!!

xxx

 

[Bess]

Hi Katy, hope all's well. :hug99:

 

[Laura Croft]

Katy,

May well be off track here but I read you saying thing you 'have to do' and 'need to do'. Don't know about you but that just puts up an internal battle of self-will for me. Thinking about things I want to do because I know they'll benefit me helps me to go a lot further. xx

 

[Katycakes]

I need some battling of wills, though!

This morning went to gym for first time in 18 months or more. It was OK. Went with daughter. Busy tomorrow, but will try to get back on thurs... and add in a swim & sauna too. Fingers crossed. If I can just get a habit going of gym + dog walks, it might make all the difference? Food choices better today, although I am craving choc... that should go in a few days if I can hold out.

xxx

 

[DisneyParis]

Thinking about things I want to do because I know they'll benefit me helps me to go a lot further. xx

Laura, l agree with you. I've achieved the most when l thought like that, it didn't seem as hard work as l told myself it was my choice and for my benefit, now l just need to get myself back into that frame of mind.

 

[Watergirl]

Choc cravings definitely diminish over time, which is why Easter is such a bad idea!!!

Good for you on going to the gym - I know how hard it is when you've not gone in a while. Even dog walking can seem like a chore. People always say 'get a dog, great for exercise' but not so attractive when it's peeing it down outside.

Oh and no good if you have a ball obsessed border collie who doesn't want you to move - you have to stand still and throw the ball - them's the rules

Your gym sounds nice with a pool and a sauna. I'd be more inclined to go with that. I could even say 'I'll just do sauna today' and would then be pleased if I did more when I got there. Think of all the detoxing sauna's do - as good as a colonic xxx

 

[Laura Croft]

Laura, l agree with you. I've achieved the most when l thought like that, it didn't seem as hard work as l told myself it was my choice and for my benefit, now l just need to get myself back into that frame of mind.

Good to hear Dis. It's amazing what a difference it can make. You'll get there again but don't try to 'force' the thinking. It'll come.

 

[Katycakes]

Agree Liz, the rain makes it hard for dog walks - the dog refuses to go and has to be dragged out! She's OK once she's out, but it's not very nice for anyone! The gym is at the local pool, but it's only during easter hols the pool is allowed - rest of time it is reserved for school classes & even lunchtime is over-50s only. So will try to make most of it, Plan to go tomorrow, chest & shoulders a bit muscle-sore from weights, and legs a bit 'weary' from step, bike & running but that should all be fine by morning. I even got new leggings so have no excuse.

Laura, I know the sense in your advice but I need to pull myself up if that makes sense... without some self-discipline right now I will sink beneath the waves of over-eating and wake up months later back where I started. The safe zone of 'no-pressure' is my ideal but it's still a way off right now - and unless I take control I am going to be accelerating towards self-destruct, if that makes any sense.

xxx

 

[Laura Croft]

Plan to go tomorrow, chest & shoulders a bit muscle-sore from weights, and legs a bit 'weary' from step, bike & running but that should all be fine by morning. I even got new leggings so have no excuse.

Laura, I know the sense in your advice but I need to pull myself up if that makes sense... without some self-discipline right now I will sink beneath the waves of over-eating and wake up months later back where I started. The safe zone of 'no-pressure' is my ideal but it's still a way off right now - and unless I take control I am going to be accelerating towards self-destruct, if that makes any sense.

xxx

You have been busy with your exercise. Well done

Of course you need to find the way that works for you. What I'm trying to say, and maybe very badly, is that it doesn't have to be about force. As you know, I used to struggle with spending waaaaaaaaaaay too much time on the Internet. It was really important that I stopped so I had a choice, I could say to myself 'I have to stop doing this or I'm going to get really behind in too many things' or I could say to myself 'I'll feel really good when I'm got xyz finished because it means that blah blah blah.' I spent years trying to force myself to do stuff. It didn't work. The only difference between the two is the latter is a lot more peaceful for me.

Take care of yourself xx

 

[Katycakes]

Understand better now... this is about choice for me. I have the choice to carry on with the self-sabotage, or to accept that it is damaging and upsetting and choose a calmer, safer way... no choice, really, when you look at it like that. I think I used words like 'need' and 'must' because I am enthused to take control and step back from the self-destruct. But the only one pulling the strings is me... I know that!

Trying hard to cultivate a gym/exercise habit, may be hard to do but I want to give it my best shot!

xxx

 

[Bess]

Understand better now... this is about choice for me. I have the choice to carry on with the self-sabotage, or to accept that it is damaging and upsetting and choose a calmer, safer way... no choice, really, when you look at it like that. I think I used words like 'need' and 'must' because I am enthused to take control and step back from the self-destruct. But the only one pulling the strings is me... I know that!

And when you've worked out just how to do that almost all of the time, just let me know will you? xxx

 

[DisneyParis]

Well done on the exercise Katy.

Tomorrow we're going away for a few days over Easter. Happy Easter everyone.

 

[Katycakes]

Happy Easter Dis... hope you all have a fab, fab time!

Bess, you made me laugh... I haven't a scooby, I just live in hope!

xxx

 

[miss jelly tot]

Just wanted to say



Have a good weekend x

 

[Wales]

Hey Katy, big hugs and hopefully not too long when the days are drier and warmer to be out with the dog. I want to spend much more time outside this year, walking and gardening - it so tantalising to see the sun but it still be cold!

Have a good bank holiday weekend x

 

[Katycakes]

Thanks both, & the biggest Easter hugs coming back at you...

xxx

 

[Watergirl]

Happy Easter Katy It's raining! Shocker...and a dog walk to do this morning before I go shopping.
Think I'll shower and get ready after the muddy walk. Have a great bank holiday xxx