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[Yolande]

hee hee yeah he is an absolute sweetie =) Cant believe this weather its actually hot wow it makes me want to be thin right now!!! Ha ha ha i seem to be back into this now which is such a relief cos it means i will be able to wear nice short and vest tops on my hols in september =D Have been very bloated the last 2 days my stomach is as hard as a rock put it down to needing the toilet but totm came today i only get it like 3 times a year so i feel very bloated and yukkie but luckily all i have planned for today is to lay in the garden soaking up the rays day dreaming about how much better it will feel when im in my size 12 shorts ha ha ha hope everyone has an awesome weekend enjoying the sunshine while it lasts =D

 

[Yolande]

Note to self DO NOT under estimate the uk sun and fall asleep in it... i am absolutely burnt to a crisp, didnt mean to fall asleep just did for 2 hours no sun block on have been so ill this evening think i might have a touch of sunstroke but then again i am having a very heavy totm which is making me feel blaaa =/ i really am not having much luck lately ha ha ha on the positive side im still on plan tho which is all that matters... need that good wi on wednesday for motivation.

 

[ayshaahmad]

Omg I hope u are ok, it is so bloody hot outside, be carefully yolande and hope u are alright, plenty of water xx

 

[Yolande]

Im ok its my own stupid fault i have such sensitive skin should of put on sun block and not fallen asleep i am drinking lots of water.. promise =)

 

[tizzy51]

Ouch! In addition to the water, make sure you put on cream. When I get burned I use aloe vera gel - it really good for dry, sunburnt skin.

 

[Yolande]

Ha my mom told me the same thing i dont have any but gona go and get some today... and will have to stay out of the sun too. Its my housemates birthday they have invited like 30 people over today for a bbq today and my housemate is a chef you must see all the different varieties of meat she has for it my mouth was drooling while she prepared it ha ha i just cant have a blip today there is chicken and salad but im gona try not even have an ss+ meal cos i really need a few weeks of ss again i dont trust myself ha ha and im gona buy coke zero and just pretend im having a few vodka's not in the mood to get a lecture off 30 people 'ah im sure a few drinks wont hurt bla bla' besides they will all be drinking and after a while wont even notice that im not ha ha ha its time for me to be strict with myself and really not feeling very well with my totm it is so heavy still my stomach is so bloated its making me feel really fat again, men really have it easy ha ha.

 

[tizzy51]

Hope you were able to enjoy the BBQ with your coke zero! Sometimes it's just really hard to stay on track!
I'm supposed to have an 810 week (3CD + 1 meal of 300cal) - in the Netherlands you're supposed to do it every 4th week - the first one I missed altogether and I sort of did the 2nd when I went to Ireland, but this will be the first proper one. Actually went grocery shopping today and made a list of what meal I will have which day, so no surprises. Am a bit worried, but hey - it's also a learning for when I'm no longer on CD.

So nice to enjoy such wonderful weather!

 

[Yolande]

Hope you were able to enjoy the BBQ with your coke zero! Sometimes it's just really hard to stay on track!
I'm supposed to have an 810 week (3CD + 1 meal of 300cal) - in the Netherlands you're supposed to do it every 4th week - the first one I missed altogether and I sort of did the 2nd when I went to Ireland, but this will be the first proper one. Actually went grocery shopping today and made a list of what meal I will have which day, so no surprises. Am a bit worried, but hey - it's also a learning for when I'm no longer on CD.

So nice to enjoy such wonderful weather!

I think you used to have an 810 week here every 4 weeks but it changed.. i was so nervous about doing my 810 week but its just like you say its learning for when you are no longer on cd i realised in that week just how yummy and filling a nice salad could be i never used to touch salad so will defo be including lots of nice salads in my diet when im done with this, i was looking in the shop the other day at the foods i used to eat so often like ready meals and pies and i actually looked how much crap is in it and i seriously cant ever bring myself to eat those type of things again i dont think so its a good thing to learn to change those things =) I also planned what i was gona eat every day on my 810 week i found that it really helped! Hope your week goes well x

 

[Yolande]

So the bbq went well was so much fun i did have a tiny bit of chicken and salad i couldnt resist it was YUMMY so had a ss+ day not the end of the world. I was playing with the kids and tripped over my own feet smashed my knee in the ground and some how bashed my body on the chair so my ribs are black and bue and soooo painfull i literally knocked the wind out of myself but dont know if they are cracked or just bruised but did get given painpills rib injury they cant do anything to fix it just takes time hopefully not to long it is so sore =/ my knee is all cut up and my bum cheeck is bruised i have to sit on a cushion ha ha i swear i am the most accident prone person ever so now while everyone enjoys the sun i am stuck in bed and to add to my discomfort i am still on my totm and it is still so heavy =( i dont really get it but when i firrst started cd i got it and had it for 2 weeks just then it was very light!!!I try take it as a good sign that im back into it like i was in the start ha ha always try look on the positive side =) I really want to have a good wi i have been so good after going awol so hope stupid totm wont effect it but my tummy is so bloated that its actually noticable =/ Anyways il stop moaning hee hee hope everyone is enjoying this weather =D

 

[Daisy65]

Yolande - sorry to hear of your calamities - better to fall over in public when you're 14 stones than 20 stones! You made a good food choice and I hope you are rewarded at the Weigh in. I'm watching Gok cook tofu and dreaming of Step 2!

 

[tizzy51]

Ouch! Sounds very painful - I hope the painkillers are working and you're taking it easy! Recover quickly!

Funny these long weekends. I lost track of time and just recently realized today is Monday. As my CDC weigh-in was postponed to tomorrow, I'll start my 810 week tomorrow. Am looking forward to a yummy salad with 50-100g of turkey filet. Mmmm.

Take care of yourself!

 

[Yolande]

I am feeling ok when i take the pain killers without them i can hardly move rib injuries HURT!!! Have my wi in tomoz still on my totm its been like 5 days and its still so heavy i have been so good this week so i really hope it wont impact my results but my size 16 shorts that fit me very comfortably are rather tight gaaahhhh but they are loser around my thighs so i know its just cos im bloated and i know if my wi is not good tomoz it will be even better at the next but i cud really do with that boost it will keep me on the path ha ha . Daisy i watched that show too and i was drooling lol and Tizzy i hope you had a good start to your 810 week?

 

[ayshaahmad]

Ah hun I am sure u will be fine at your wi tomorrow, fingers crossed its a gooden for u! Are u sure someone didn't slip vodkas in your coke shouldn't take the mickey I am sorry it sounds very painfully u poor thing and Totm Sux! Let's hope it hurries up and goes away!!! Xxxx

 

[Yolande]

Ha ha ha its ok just about everyone thinks i was drinking i almost caved in and did drink but would never while in ketosis and i convinced myself a few vodkas is soooo not worth going through those first few days again and besides my fall i had a really good time, my mom was right i dont need booze to enjoy myself =D And thanks i am hopefull for good news tomoz x

 

[tizzy51]

Good luck for your weigh in tomorrow! I'm rooting for you!

 

[Daisy65]

I hope it goes well tomorrow - I've just jumped on the scales and don't seem to have lost anything! Feeling pretty sh*t and wish I could just wait until I see CDC. Well, all will be revealed tomorrow...

 

[Yolande]

My wi was not good =( i almost cried i am heavier than i was 2 weeks ago i know last week was a rubbish week for me and i didnt even have a wi but this week i was so so good avoided all temptation and still up 6 whole bloody pounds!!6 POUNDS!!!! HOW??? i am really not even upset now just so angry i am on totm STILL and its STILL heavy and im very bloated but surely it wouldnt make me 6lbs heavier???? All i can think is usually before wi i only drink about 1l water and today i drank almost 3l before (my wi is at 11) cos its TT races here and work is SO busy and SO hot i couldnt get enough water but surely even that wont make you 6lbs heavier!!!!!!! Really could do with some motivation now cos i almost dived into a tub of ben and jerry's i was that mad but i didnt, i need to deal with dissapointments with other ways not food but then again i was good all week and still bloody gained weight =(((( My cdc said your body can retain alot of water and said that its just water but still doesnt make me feel any better... she is away next week so i have no wi for 2 weeks and she promised me i will have a 'OH MY GOSH' moment when i get weighed in 2 weeks its just hard to stay motivated on a day like today but here i am glugging my water down =/

 

[Yolande]

I hope it goes well tomorrow - I've just jumped on the scales and don't seem to have lost anything! Feeling pretty sh*t and wish I could just wait until I see CDC. Well, all will be revealed tomorrow...

After all my moaning i forgot to wish you luck for your wi tomoz =) I really hope ity goes well x

 

[ayshaahmad]

Oh yolande I so feel for u, big massive hugs just don't let it get u down, keep going and drink that water I will most prob be in the same position as u on Friday! The weight is so easy to put back on isn't it? Keep at it and when u have a wi in 2 weeks u will see a great result!!!!

 

[tizzy51]

I agree with your CDC, it is all water weight! You had at least 2ltrs more than usual, which is like having added 2-3kgs of water - that's a lot!
Hang in there - I know you won't go off diet as you have really, really worked hard to get here - but the emotional disappointment is really hard! But it's a learning experience in dealing with a negative emotional event and not using food to work your way through it.

Two weeks from now you will have a great w-in! I am sure of it!