Miriam's Diary

[MsJMC]

Have stir fry tomoz , you know today you've had bits so your not hungry your just having mental thoughts to carry it out .
blimey 11 stone amazing , don't fall now , bet you feel stuffed now ?
I know this diet must be becoming boring hang in there with a low kcal meal of a night , so that stir fry tomoz ?

 

[precious]

Hey Mia how's it going lovely?? X

 

[Mia]

Hi Precious, I am ok thanks. Walked around the Metro Centre for ever today so should have lost my last half stone with that alone lol, but I bet I haven't. I had my last tesco bar whilst there for lunch while daughter tucked into sausage, beans and chips with a giant slab of chocolcate cake for afters. The only this is I have been busy all weekend and had no water at all. Just trying a little bottle now but getting late for bed so may not finish it. I'm keeping everying crossed for WI Thursday as I really want to get to goal but understand the weight will be harder to lose. But it worries me becasue I am a slow loser anyway, so God knows how long this will take. How are you doing?

 

[precious]

Hey Mia ur doing well hunny. Well done for resisting temptation that is pure determination how is today going??

I'm not too bad thanks plodding along kinda fell of the wagon yesterday a girl at work is losing her house :-(( the sobbing and tears got too much for me and wen I got home and just eat ... I'm back on today though and it's staying that way x

 

[Mia]

Hi Precious, I'm fine thanks, how are you?

I haven't been to the gym since last Monday and I can't swim for a couple of weeks now. I had my tattoo redone on Saturday, I've had it 15 years and it was starting to fade, so now I can't swim until it's fully healed. Really must get my finger out and step up my gym work though rather than my swimming.

OMG thats so sad about your work colleague, what a shame, I hope she will be ok. I cant blame you for eating after that ordeal though. You are doing so well and I believe you when you say you'll get back on the wagon today. Hope you do well and stick in x

 

[precious]

Hey Mia morning it's all exercise Hun - I wud absolutely love to go swimming but I can't swim think I'd be just wobbling along splashing around lol ... Gym is a good alternative but u can maybe do a mixture gym / swimming that way u get both forms of fitness

I managed a 100 day yesterday and I've already been to the gym this morning

Are u still ts'ing or ws?
Have a good day lovely x

 

[Mia]

Wow been to the gym already - well done

I am still on TS, cant really think of any other plan to follow at the moment coz I am frightened to eat again. I know I will have to but maybe once I get to 10st I will, coz then the plan is to even out somewhere between 10 and 10.5

WI for me tomorrow. I have been good so hoping for a loss although cant imagine it to be massive with only 7lb to lose, we'll see. Hey, you are doing well. Hope today is 100% too. God, we will get there in the end lol

 

[precious]

Hi Mia how did wi go??? Only 7lbs to go that's just ace know wat u mean about eating again but I am pretty confident u will be just fine ur determination and will power will get you through it I'm not too bad feeling loads bette since ditching the scales gosh sometimes they do take over everything lol n messes with my head like a voice just pestering me to jump on the scales lol either that or I've just lost it lol

Xx

 

[MsJMC]

hi Miriam , and a good morning to you , dropping in seeing how your doing , amazing to lose 3 stone !
soon be away on your hollybobs , and you've done it in plenty of time losing your weight .
i'm on the fruit and veg route for now , times ticking by for me to lose this weight so must not waste anytime.
how are you ?

 

[Mia]

Well I've had a bad couple of days. Started to pick at food so need to knock that on the head NOW. 3 birthdays in work this week so biscuits/cake forever in reception area to help yourself to. Didnt do too bad though until last night.

It was my sisters birthday night out Friday so knew I was going to drink copious amounts of vodka She put a buffet on so I ate a party pork pie, 2 pieces of cheese and loads of doritoes. Today, work up starving so went to Morrisons and got 2 small salmon steaks and a small packet of salad and ate that, then had a tub of strawberries and some grapes. I then had 2 small pots of Ben and Jerry's ice cream. OMG I was in heaven, I am not a great ice cream lover but adore B&J's. So, thats me done for the day hahahaha. Expecting a gain on Thursday after that performance. No doubt more food on MOnday coz that's my sisters actual birthday. Need to get my act together

 

[Mia]

Hi Shanny, how are you?

Yes, enjoyed myself as usual. Got the same this weekend too, a party on Friday night so buffet there, then saturday night at the town with the girls. I need to get back in the zone though coz I can feel myself slipping. Had some great compliments last night so want to keep it that way

 

[MsJMC]

Hi miriam , well you don't have long till goal , who knows come weigh in day you might get a sts . when you go out it really is hard too not mingle and eat and drink because you feel you just want to do what others are doing , gone are my days of drinks and Fags good job now with no smoking lol
gave up at 37 .
Keep being good and have the odd blow out , after all you won't alllow yourself to gain too much Miriam before you drag it back into line !
Shanny hi ! so these hollybobs will keep you on top of the diet .... always good to book up a hol to lose the weight .
Right have a happy bank hol , off to sister will stay in line .... lol

 

[precious]

Hey Mia well done ur totally ace 10.11?? That's just fab how do u feel - would love to see some pics if ur brave?? I bet u feel amazing hope ur enjoying the bank holiday weekend xx

 

[Mia]

Hi everyone. OMG I have had a terrible weekend, I am so disappointed with myself

Started on Friday night, then Saturday work up starving. It's now Monday evening and I haven't stopped eating I could cry, but still want more food

I am scared stiff in case I can't get back on the wagon tomorrow. Being at work is easier becasue it gives me routine, but Thursday I am going to a funeral (buffet) and Friday a birthday party (buffet). I feel like I have lost all my willpower. In fact I dont think I will have WI this week coz if I have put on it will make me feel terrible. I can't tell anyone how bad I feel about it all.

I will try my utmost tomorrow and will dread the headaches but hope I am strong enough.

Precious - I don't do photo's hahaha. 99% of my photos are headshots and I wouldnt put any on here lol. There are some very old ones somewhere which I keep meaning to find and delete haha. The thing is, yeah I am 10st 11lb (or was ) but still have a big stomach. I have health problems which limit which stomach exercises I can do, so think I will pay to be professionally assesed by this place which specialises in sports injuries, rehabilitation after operations/accidents etc to see if they can help. No women trainers at my gym and no way am I explaining my problems to a kid young enough to be my son!!!

 

[*Shanny*]

you are strong enough look how far youve come... start tomorrow and don't weigh??

 

[Mia]

Oh Shanny I am so disappointed with myself

I only hope I can get back into the swing of things. How will I cope with 2 buffets this week, plus the alcohol at the party I should think positive I know and I also know that tomorrow I will feel differently. I WILL DO IT

 

[*Shanny*]

Oh Shanny I am so disappointed with myself

I only hope I can get back into the swing of things. How will I cope with 2 buffets this week, plus the alcohol at the party I should think positive I know and I also know that tomorrow I will feel differently. I WILL DO IT

you will and can... just remember having these blips happen and part of life, dusting yourself off and freshen up for tomrrow is the way forward, isnt it??

 

[MsJMC]

Hi Miriam , give it 100% today think of the buffet when the day comes don't think to far ahead,it, start's playing mind games ... if you eat and drink think i know i'll still have time to shrink in time ! its a few messed up days thats all , say , I can turn this around i'm not going to beat myself up because I know i can do this , as i always have !
Let us know if your ok .xx

 

[Mia]

Hi girls, woke up in a foul mood today and I know it's coz of this diet. I am sitting here staring at a 2 ltr bottle of water which I am going to have to chuck down my neck coz I hate it !!!!

I will feel a bit better later on I am sure, but at this moment in time I am like a bear with a sore head hahahaha. Nobody is forcing me to do this diet, it is a choice but boy, am I sick of it now lol

 

[MsJMC]

morning Miriam
yes you've been on it since Jan , feels like a merrygoround wondering when the ride will stop .
Yes you've always hated the water , i drink alot of coffee and hate to take milk out , so i tend todo more water as just few coffees or but some van shake in my coffee , not great .
What was you thinking this morning Miriam ?
I will be happy to return , saw myself in a full size mirror yesterday , didn't like it at all . don't have full size mirrors at home ...
So your ready to go again ?