MizKirsty - Becoming my inner skinny!

[Mizkirsty]

Well here we go haven't broken the cycle as of yet another naughty day - had to travel up to London for a job interview and with all the hold ups ended up having a burger king however did force myself to the pool for aqua aerobics!!!

Better day tomorrow as working so can't cheat and again will force my body to the gym lol!

But on a positive this morning showed I wi with a loss so back to what I was before my gain (sure after bk I've ruined it but I can pull it back!!)

Fingers crossed for the job should hear back thur!! Streesssssssssss!!!! X

 

[Mizkirsty]

Another day another .... actually not bad!!

Ok so had a few naughty bites but within sw syn allowance!!

Boxercise this evening - eeww those pads were vile very stinky!! But verdict is still out - will try again next week maybe and see!!

Think I'm a spin girl at heart!! Xx

 

[bunny_hops]

How you doing hun? Is it his Thursday you hear about the job?

 

[Mizkirsty]

I heard and I got the job so I'm sorta chuffed however obv still want the job in Bristol!! So very anxious and nervous this weekend as interview mon morning!!

Food wise absolutely *****! I'm sure I've gained between 2-3lbs over the 3weeks ive not been to sw! Just can't seem to refocus I don't think my heads quite on it ATM but I need to pull it back ...
1 bc ive still got 5st to loose
2 bc if I don't I'm gonna end up back where I started
3 I need another prescription
4 bc I want it!!!!!

Ugh so today I've been ok so far skipped breakie and went out for lunch (ie eaten out most day this week which hasnt helped!) and had chicken topped with bacon (I removed fat) and cheese hea with a jacket (which I didn't eat - had about a mouthful!) but then came the garlic bread my weakness so I'm counting that as 15syns in total - prob more but I mean I'll have no more today!

Ive also really struggled to fit in exercising tbh which I always finds helps loads! So being good now till following mon - aiming for a good loss!!! Xx

 

[bunny_hops]

well done on the job hun! So pleased for you... it's a good idea to keep your options open though, so good luck for the Bristol job


.......smack on the wrist for skipping breakie lol!

To be fair though hun, you've had a very bumpy few weeks, with work and the job so it does put you out of whack.. hopefully you should be able to settle down a bit now, knowing that you're sort of sorted job wise... what are they hours like?

 

[Mizkirsty]

Yeah I still don't feel mentally settled I'm still stressed out! I wish I was one of those people that stopped eating when stressed rather than pigging my face out!!

It would be 3x 12.5hr shifts so I'd commute and stay in London or those 3nights then come home!!

Thing is gaining weight depresses me even more! So it's a vicious cycle! Haven't been drinking or exercising enough but eating well snacking far too much!! X

 

[bunny_hops]

Gawd, I don't fancy the travel and staying over in London... 3 days is a long time away when you add it all up, I suppose something else could come along, at least that's something though isn't it.

Have you thought about reading The Beck Diet Solution? It's quite goo, I got mine from The Works a few weeks ago, it woeks with any diet and it can help..maybe you should write a short list of all the reasons why you want to loose weight, and all the things you want to treat yourself to when you've lost it...help you get some focus back... maybe plan to treat yourself to a little something in a month if you loose 1-2kg's?

 

[Mizkirsty]

No I really don't fancy it hence the stress about Monday!! I'm prying for that job!! Would Make it so much easier!!

I've just ordered that book hope it will help! Yeah I think it's just not been a priority and therefore I've let it slip!

But I need to et back on it else I'll end up where I started!! Any tips to get back on the wagon?! Xx

 

[Mizkirsty]

Well I really need to go loo - dont think that's helping the scales tbh! Ugh dam body lol! Xx

 

[bunny_hops]

The only person who can put you back on the right path is you, I think you should spend a bit of time out on your own, have a think about what you're doing, take a good look at yourself, and forget about the bad in the recent weeks... start afresh, a clean slate no tomorrow or the day after but today and do it for you!

Plus...there's 19 weeks left to christmas!!!!!!!!!

And I want to see you 3 award sticker!!!

C'mon woman, or I'll get the whip out lol!

 

[Mizkirsty]

I know once I refocus I'll be fine it's just every time I have a good day it's followed by a bad day!! If that makes sense! But with everything going on it's been difficult to ensure food is readily available and accessible!!

I'm managed to go toilet so hoping that will help with the scales!! Lol tmi!!

But I think when I get home I'm gonna plan this week!!! But it is totm this week so not sure how that's gonna pan out!!

But been at work today and only had a bread roll (oh poop and a slither of chocolate!) to keep me going so avoided the roast spuds and yorkies!! Which normally are my down fall!!!

Really nervous about Tom but I'm facing it head on and will get my 3st award this month!! Xxx

 

[bunny_hops]

I'll now you'll do it hun... it's just getting back on the wagon and staying there, but you'll do it! It's my totm too, I'm over the worst of it, 2 more days left til next time...gawd it's a pain in the ass!

Glad you've been to the toilet hun, I went 3 days the other week, which is so unlikely me!..nothing but rabbit poo for 2 days, so glad I went in the end lol!

Try not to worry too much about tomorrow, it'll be ok...deep breaths!

 

[Mizkirsty]

Yeah its just crap food is convenient and I know that's a crap excuse it's just ATM that's what I needed!!

I just need to break the cycle that's all once broken all will be well I am sure!! It's just breaking it for long enough hehe!!

I wish there was a magic pill that would be great lol!!

Oh well a new week a new start!!!
Yeah I'm hoping I'll be ok!! I really need that job so fingers crossed for me tomorrow!! And I can finally chill out if I do get that job!

Xx

 

[bunny_hops]

I'll keep my fingers crossed for you hun... when will you find out?

 

[Mizkirsty]

Hopefully by Wednesday!!! But what's worrying me is that if I got that job it would mean that everything had worked out perfectly and I'm a bit pessimistic lol !!

But here's hoping!! Xx

 

[bunny_hops]

lol!...you're a nutter ... I know what you mean though, it all seems too perfect doesn't it...but you deserve to be happy though, so I hope you get it!

 

[Mizkirsty]

I hope I do too feel really ill ATM it's horrid only an hour to go!! xx

 

[78storm]

Good luck with the interview.

 

[bunny_hops]

How's it go chick?

 

[Mizkirsty]

I got the job xx