Mrs CC's journey

[Mrs CC]

Hiya everyone!

I've decided to use this forum and diary as a way of getting external support while I lose weight. In my teens I had always been happy with my weight/size as I exercised regularly and didn't eat junk. Then in my 20's the weight went on. I blame my husband and his love of takeaways, working full time and shifts, never having any time to exercise, the pill and overeating for some emotinal reasons. In the last ten years I have done every diet going - Slimming world, weight watchers, Dukan, south beach, slim fast. I have lost weight to varying degress but never really kept it off as looking back now I wasn't willing to make permanent changes.

The final straw has been after another birthday passes and another social event where I've been looking at every picture of me on Facebook with a horrible feeling in the bottom of my stomach. I've been trying to pretend for too long that my weight doesn't bother me, but there was no hiding from it now! I don't want another birthday, wedding anniversary or christmas to pass with more pictures of me I hate!

I have decided on Calorie counting cos it is cheap, easy and isn't faddy. I'm having around 1500 cals a day, depending what exercise I do, and I am going to the gym at least five days a week (but am aiming to do something everyday even if it is only a walk). The last couple of days have been a bit of an eye-opener for me, where I've realised just how much I have been eating and where I have been going wrong all this time. It has been hard to face up to and even harder to admit that I need to eat and exercise this way forever, not just when the weight is gone. But I have done plenty of hard things in my life and lived to tell the tale!

I'm really looking forwards to watching the weight fall off. Please feel free to offer any advice, hints or trips or any thoughts!

 

[laurenmay]

Hello! Welcome to the forum everyone on here is really lovely and I'm sure we'll all be there to support you on your journey! Good luck xe

 

[Neelyo'hara]

Hey! Welcome to the forum, the support here is really great. Good luck with your weightloss.

 

[mrs-s]

Good luck xx

 

[Mrs CC]

Hello! Welcome to the forum everyone on here is really lovely and I'm sure we'll all be there to support you on your journey! Good luck xe

Thanks! Good luck on your weight loss too!

 

[Mrs CC]

Hey! Welcome to the forum, the support here is really great. Good luck with your weightloss.

Thanks hun!

 

[Mrs CC]

Good luck xx

Thanks Mrs s!

 

[Mrs CC]

So I have nearly finished day three which looks like

Breakfast 391 cals
Oat bran
Semi skimmed milk
Thick slice of white bread and spread

Lunch 509 cals
Large baked potato
Half tin Baked beans

Dinner 594 cals
Steak
Boiled carrots brocolli and cauliflower

Exercise 550 cals
60 mins 10.3k cross trainer

I was really tired after the gym today and yesterday and its been day off work so Ive had my feet up for most of it since I got home. Just relaxing with the kindle.

So far on the diet I feel like Im doing well. Ive not been too hungry and Im already starting to remember the calories of certain things so its not been too hard working out what to have for breakfast, lunch and dinner. Its just hard knowing that I have to do this every single day now but Im sure I will get used to it!!

 

[mrs-s]

Once you get used to it it becomes second nature, i don't even notice myself doing it now, it's just part of preparing food and takes just a few seconds. X

 

[Mrs CC]

OMG! What a day! Was on my own in work all day today and it just did not stop! I felt really bad leaving at home time with so much left still to do, but it will just be me doing it tomorrow anyway
After work it was straight to the gym and an hour done on the bike. I got mithered into having another meeting with the personal trainer tomorrow and now Im feeling like I cant be bothered with it. Why do some people not understand that I dont want to compete or train to run a marathon, Im doing ok with what I enjoy and at least Im doing that most days?! Maybe I shouldve just told him that eh?!
I had a little bit of a wobble when I got home. Normally after a hard day and working hard at the gym I would treat myself with something high in cals/fat/junk. Its been hard tucking into a healthier dinner and I wont lie I do actually feel a bit fed up cos of it! Im going to treat myself to a relax on the sofa with my kindle instead.

Food
Breakfast 480 cals
Beans on toast
Tea with milk and sugar -counted as brekkie but whole day really!

Lunch x2! 580 cals
Spag bol ready meal
Tomoto mug shot

Tea 500 cals
Cod
Honey and mustard sauce
Boiled veggies

Exercise 60 mins 23.3k on bike 410 cals

 

[Mrs CC]

My calorie counting app has an advert for dominos on the bottom tonight its just taunting me

 

[Mrs CC]

This is gonner sound really silly but I am actually feeling really depressed and I honestly think its cos I cant have a pig out on rubbish tonight after a hard day. How stupid is that?! Ive spent the last couple of hours sitting around feeling sorry for myself cos of it I think its best I get myself to bed and relax!

 

[nyssa88]

I know how you feel, i remember going to the supermarket buying aload of junk then pigging out in the evening and feeling sick and crap after!

Try not to deny yourself anything hun just whatever you like within reason and moderation.

How did you get on last night? X

 

[Mrs CC]

I know how you feel, i remember going to the supermarket buying aload of junk then pigging out in the evening and feeling sick and crap after!

Try not to deny yourself anything hun just whatever you like within reason and moderation.

How did you get on last night? X

Thanks for the support. I went to bed early for a bit of a relax! Not necessarily feeling much better for it tho today. I think the real problem is that food has always been my way of dealing with things and now I have to be a big grown up and face up to problems like my job is a bit crappy right now! I also feel like I need to get myself a new reward for exercise instead of scoffing sweets etc.

Today looks set to be another manic day in work again but I am not stressing too much about it. If I dont get it all done it will just show they need to make changes with the hours and cover etc. Im also looking forwards to the gym later. Last night I wasnt too keen on the idea of having the PT session, I just hate doing stuff like weights etc cos I was worried I would put on weight with it and get bored but I think it might be good for me to get some different ideas. Even if I just end up going to a circuits class or something. OH and I are also planning on getting out for a bit tonight just to the cinema or similar for a bit of a relax so Im looking forwards to that too x

 

[Mrs CC]

Rest is a good thing!! Feeling so much better tonight for cutting my gym session short and also having the full 1700 cals today.

The trainer session at the gym went really well! He worked my arse off in half an hour doing circuit type things. It wasnt all weights like I feared instead it was stuff I could do.to add to my cardio fitness as well as machines and classes. I can have a session with him once a month within my membership so am already signed up for the next one!

Tonight Im just going to relax with my hubbie as we didnt do much together last night and I want a quiet one with being in work tomorrow. I am feeling 100 times better tonight compared to yesterday so am happy!!

 

[jules1981]

Glad you are feeling better Hun, i can relate I used to use food to deal with stuff too.

Glad your session at the gym went well

Hope that you and hubby have a good eve.

xxx

 

[Mrs CC]

I dont wanna go to work today boo hiss! On a plus note Im finishing at 3pm! I had a sneak peak on the scales and Im showing as 10st10 already!! Whoop whoop!! The hard work is paying off!!

 

[Neelyo'hara]

Wow 6lbs in 4 days is a great loss! Well done!!

 

[Mrs CC]

Wow 6lbs in 4 days is a great loss! Well done!!

I technically started on Monday so its been about a week. Still really pleased tho, its been hard work but its worth it!

 

[jules1981]

Hey that's a fab loss well done.

Hope you are having a nice afternoon, and work went quickly for you.


xxx