Mrs CC's journey

[Mrs CC]

So today has been totally lazy and its been great!! Got my house work done early, then went back to bed till middday! Never went to the gym cos I couldnt bothered. Uh oh!! Must go tomorrow! I got my mountain of ironing done just to find two pairs of pants and a work top that needed done too!! Doh!! Ive got all organised for tomorrow, gym bag is packed and Ive made a healthy salad for lunch, so no excuses!

I got text this afternoon from work usual last minute.com to be told I am in on my own again tomorrow and my shift would need to change gggrrr!! Im convinced sometimes all this stress from this stupid job is what causes me to eat so much!!! Im now missing out on my lie in and gym class booking!!! Its far too long a story to go into on here, but honestly sometimes I feel like Im being taken for a mug and get expected to do one thing after another. At least I will get the evening with the OH which is a bonus.

Anyway rant over!! CC wise today was fine, Im quite happily settling into counting and getting used to what I can have, like i know most of my brekkies are 400 or so cals now. I had a really tasty asda veggie pizza tonight for 590 cals and it was really nice. Ill be getting that again for a little treat!! Hope everyone has had as enjoyable a day as I have x

 

[jules1981]

Sounds like you have had a great day, sorry you have had hassle with work, doesn't sound like fun

xxx

 

[Skinny Sia]

Love Asda pizzas especially the huge fresh ones u buy off the counter. Yummmmm. Sorry about ur work issues. Hopefully today goes ok. I've had some pretty stressful jobs in the past and it definitely affects other parts of ur life. Have a great evening with ur OH xx

 

[Mrs CC]

Busy busy day today at work, but Im actually feeling not too stressed out about it now. Ive realised that no matter how wound up and stressed I get it wont change a thing so why bother?! I also some gossip about the bosses today as well - rats and sinking ship comes to mind - which explains a lot about the current state its in! I also think that Ive often put myself last on my list of priorities behind work/friends/family etc, so its a bit odd actually leaving at home time with work still there, I feel a tad guilty about it and Im sure other people are a bit confused by it. But at the same time it feels amazing to do something all for me!!

I sneaky weighed myself this morning and was a bit miffed it hasnt moved since the wknd, but I havent been the gym since then really! Ive also been having 1700 ish cals on my non-gym days when I think now this might be a little high. Ive set my limit on my app to 1400 - cals for sedetary lifestyle, so will give that a go for a few days, and go up to 1700 if I need it on gym days. Like today!! Ha ha!
Now Im off to enjoy a relaxing evening at home!!

 

[stef2009]

Hiya! Just popping in to say hello, I'm currently on ww bit thinkin of coming to cc, my friend has posted on ur diary Nyssa so thought i would have a look while doing my research

Well done on ur loss so far!

I'm gonna aim for around 1200 cals a day and maybe 1400 on exercise days, hoping that works lol

Hope I enjoy ur relaxed evening at home
Xxxx

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[Mrs CC]

Hiya! Just popping in to say hello, I'm currently on ww bit thinkin of coming to cc, my friend has posted on ur diary Nyssa so thought i would have a look while doing my research

Well done on ur loss so far!

I'm gonna aim for around 1200 cals a day and maybe 1400 on exercise days, hoping that works lol

Hope I enjoy ur relaxed evening at home
Xxxx

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Thanks for popping in Stef! Ive done WW in the past too, I lost a lot on their old points plan, and went back when the new one came out but I didnt trust myself with no points fruit. I think CC and WW are similar, but sometimes it seems you can have more on CC. I think its cos WW work the points out based on fat and other things as well as cals. Like I had a pizza the other night that was 590 cals and something like that wouldve been half my points on WW!!

 

[Mrs CC]

Today is a hard day!!! Work was ok, just let all the crap wash over me today, had some company in the office from some young men too which made things easier ha ha ha!! Diet wise has actually been ok too even though I have no idea what to have for tea. Am wondering if Ive earnt a bowl of homefries and mayo?! The gym has completely knocked me on my bum!! It was so hard, couldnt get up to my usual speed without getting a stitch, so had to run slow and even then it felt so hard!! At the end I nearly cried through a combination of euphoria that I did it and it was over, and sheer devestation that I realised I have to keep doing this all the time!! Urgh!! Must dig in and keep going strong!! Cant be overwhelmed by the task at hand!!

 

[Mrs CC]

ITS FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!

IM OFF THIS WEEKEND!!!!!!

WHOOP WHOOP!!!!!

Sorry Im rather excited! Really want a Friday night blow out. Missing the gym tonight cos Im tired after yesterday but could do with it to unwind and get me away from food/drink to relax!

 

[Mrs CC]

Weighed in this morning and I have stayed the same at 10.10
Im a bit gutted cos I feel like I can physically see a difference in myself - my stomach is a little flatter, thighs seem a little tighter etc. So I was expecting to see at least some loss. Boo!!
Guess I cant complain too much. Ive only been to the gym twice so far this week (more incentive to go today now!!) and Ive been at the top end of my calorie range (1400-1700) most days even when I havent exercised. Plus I knew that the massive loss of last week would be a bit of a fluke

It is disheartening to think though Ive stuck to 1700 cals a day at worse which is a lot less then I have been eating recently, why wont the chub just go?!

So my plan of attack moving forwards is get back to the gym more and stick to 1500 cals. I think having the range is sometimes a little too much temptation.

This week hasnt been all bad though, I am getting used to counting calories and am finding I can easily eat what I enjoy within it. I do feel like I could do this forver!!

 

[Mrs CC]

The maintain this morning hit me harder than I thought. I really want a pig out - its my weekend off, I feel like I should be able to eat whatever I want. Its harder to motivate myself not to cos I stayed the same. Part of me feels like what is the point?! We have nothing in the house to pig out on and Im not willing to spend my last bit of cash this weekend on junk food, so if I do binge it will be on stuff in the house and I know that I will be binging cos of something else rather than wanting or enjoying the food.

I was out with family today and it was hard not having things but I didnt really. I had a couple of sweets which will take me over my cals but Im not worrying about them too much given my mood today. I guess I have to remember that while I feel deprived of food at times like this being overweight is depriving me of being happy!!

I also think my wanting to pig out tonight is cos of my maintain in an odd way. Its shown me that I need to make a couple of changes to what I was doing like eat less cals than I was doing last week. Thats making me feel a bit deprived and fed up, I enjoyed last week and it didnt feel like a diet, but if every week is like it I wont lose weight, so I need to dig in and have 1400-1500 cals max a day.

Ive also been so tired today and think I have been pushing myself too hard re exercise. Ive told myself I need to do at least five workouts a week and I need to be using about 500 cals a time so I can have the extra calories to eat. So it means I always have to go flat out at the gym. I think Im better doing what I have this week, Ive exercised five days but only two so far have been at the gym. The rest have been 3 mile walks. But again this means I have to drop the cals I eat. But hopefully it means I wont have to push myself so hard at the gym.

I just feel a bit pants that I thought it would all fall off over night without me having to think too hard about it. But at least I am looking at my plan and am willing to adapt it when I could have easily pigged out by now and thought stuff it!!

I just need to chill out and distract myself tonight, then tomorrow I will feel a million times better!!

 

[Mrs CC]

I feel like I have been hungry all weekend it has been a hard weekend, but I am getting through it slowly but surely. I think so much of it is in the mind - the maintain, having to cut my cals & change my workouts, having to do without what I want when socialising at the weekend and realising I'm on this journey for at least six months - has all just added up to making me feel pants! But I will get through it. Dieting is hard, but so is being overweight and unhappy with my reflection. Besides Ive done much harder things and lived to tell the tale!!

For all my grumbling on here, it has actually been a lovely weekend catching up with family, we went out for a lovely long walk this afternoon and I have really enjoyed relaxing. Just goes to show I dont really need food to enjoy myself!

 

[Mrs CC]

I feel like my body and I arent exactly on the same level right now! Ive been sooooo hungry the last couple of days by 10 am this morning I had to have something to eat. Should add I had brekkie at 6am, but usually I would manage until 12! Then I have been craving naughty things so had a curly wurly and snackajacks as a low cal option (quite proud of myself re this!). Ive also been exhausted and really irritable. My skin has also gone mega greasy and spotty. I had put it down to TOTM but its been a no show for sometime (I stopped my birth control recently and have been all over the shop since!) and I even did a test before but Im not preggers.

Arrrrrggghhhh! I just wanna know what is going on with my body!! Im too old for spots! And its annoying cos after doing so well with my diet its like its doing what it can to stop me! Im determined not to pig out tonight but it is so hard

 

[laurenmay]

I feel like my body and I arent exactly on the same level right now! Ive been sooooo hungry the last couple of days by 10 am this morning I had to have something to eat. Should add I had brekkie at 6am, but usually I would manage until 12! Then I have been craving naughty things so had a curly wurly and snackajacks as a low cal option (quite proud of myself re this!). Ive also been exhausted and really irritable. My skin has also gone mega greasy and spotty. I had put it down to TOTM but its been a no show for sometime (I stopped my birth control recently and have been all over the shop since!) and I even did a test before but Im not preggers.

Arrrrrggghhhh! I just wanna know what is going on with my body!! Im too old for spots! And its annoying cos after doing so well with my diet its like its doing what it can to stop me! Im determined not to pig out tonight but it is so hard

It sounds like your body having sort of withdrawal symptoms to the birth control not being there now. I'm on the depo injection and have been for nearly a year now, and have it re done every 3 months - but when it's coming close to running out say a week before I'm due the next injection I get really spotty, my skin is greasy and so is my hair, I crave all the wrong things & chocolate in huge amounts, I bloat, get tired and irritated, snappy and down, it's horrible! The effects birth control give your body are similar to pregnancy symptoms, that's the only thing I can compare it too! I actually took a test once or twice because I thought I was pregnant again & was having all the same symptoms I had when I was pregnant with my son.

Try maybe some options hot chocolate, they come in so many flavours and are 38-44 calories each. Or buy a treat size chocolate bar if you feel you need chocolate, and freeze it so it takes longer to eat and should satisfy your craving. Hope you feel better soon!

 

[Mrs CC]

It sounds like your body having sort of withdrawal symptoms to the birth control not being there now. I'm on the depo injection and have been for nearly a year now, and have it re done every 3 months - but when it's coming close to running out say a week before I'm due the next injection I get really spotty, my skin is greasy and so is my hair, I crave all the wrong things & chocolate in huge amounts, I bloat, get tired and irritated, snappy and down, it's horrible! The effects birth control give your body are similar to pregnancy symptoms, that's the only thing I can compare it too! I actually took a test once or twice because I thought I was pregnant again & was having all the same symptoms I had when I was pregnant with my son.

Try maybe some options hot chocolate, they come in so many flavours and are 38-44 calories each. Or buy a treat size chocolate bar if you feel you need chocolate, and freeze it so it takes longer to eat and should satisfy your craving. Hope you feel better soon!

Thanks hun, it was really bad to begin with, first few weeks I was convinced I was preggers cos it felt really like morning sickness, then the greasy phase as I call it started! Its calmed down the last two months but I havent had a monthly visit in that time?! This deffo feels like TOTM tho, bad mood, tired spotty and greasy! Have still got terrible munchies!!!

 

[Mrs CC]

I ended up over my cals last night by having a pig out two muller rice a couple of rounds of toast a packet of wotsits and a cake bar to be exact.

Went to bed early last night cos I felt so pants and this morning Im not sure I feel any better for it

Anyhoo onwards and downwards today. Had a healthy brekkie and got my salad sorted for while in work. Im planning on getting out for a walk tonight really enjoying my summer nights walks! I just feel like sometimes my body is doing everything it can to stay fat

 

[Mrs CC]

For all my complaining I actually feel a lot better in myself today. Think maybe my body needed a bit of a blow out - might have to factor in a treat night once a week or fortnight now! All in all a good day so far, easy day at work, finished early and catching up on some bits and pieces while i have five minutes to myself before the oh gets home. Jolly good!

 

[Cas3]

Your doing well, keep up good work! I think we all need a blow out day once a wk glad ur feeling beter today, had bad day yesterday I went over with calories I was abit fed up! x

 

[Mrs CC]

Your doing well, keep up good work! I think we all need a blow out day once a wk glad ur feeling beter today, had bad day yesterday I went over with calories I was abit fed up! x

Aw Cas, dont worry about it, way I see it is one day isnt the end of the world. You'll get back into it no problems!

Ive managed to stick to my calories today and had a tasty tea of fish fingers and chips. Yummy! I havent been to the gym for ages so could do with dragging my behind there tomorrow! Ive gotten too used to coming home and relaxing with the kindle of an evening! I think after a big flurry at the begining Im realising that if Im going to stick to this forever, its more realistic to do 3 days a week.

I was quite proud of myself today getting some shopping in at the cheap shop - normally Im tempted by cheap cakes and sweets. But I didnt get anything, not even 19p flapjack! Just thought what is the point Ill only eat it and get fat?! I wonder if there will come a time when I just forget about this stuff or making these decisions becomes something I dont have to think about? Honestly, the more I think about, I think it is something I will always have to think about, thinking thin is not something I do instinctively! When I was at my thinnest I did the diet for 18 months, but still very quickly the weight went back on cos I went back to my eating habits.

Its a bit depressing to think I will always have to count calories for the rest of my days. But I actually think Im prepared for it. I wont need to stick to dead on 1400 every day though will I, its about having a range to work within, so some days when I need it I can have more than others. Plus I can have days/meals off where I dont count, just have to make sure its not everyday. These are things Ive been doing already, so I guess I will get used to it and be ok.

 

[Cas3]

Im glad ur back on track, its not the end of the world when you have odd day off, its better than not trying at all. I often do my shopping online its just less tempting to buy the naughty treats, although I do have to buy some bits for the girls and my oh.

Once I get to target my plan is to maintain my weight by counting calories mon-fri and having weekends off! I dont want my life to be about counting calories all the time, by then I should have better idea the kinds of food which I can have within calorie range.

I didnt go to over top yesterday just ate wrong stuff I actually stayed within calories im allowed to have 1680 by mfp but I try and have around 1400 most days. Today ive been much better just had fish cake and chips, it was just something quick and easy as my lil baby isnt very happy tonight

 

[Mrs CC]

So I havent been on here for a little while on purpose. I'm not really sure how much I want to go into on here at the moment, other than something happened that made me realise that I am trying to compensate for other areas of my life that Ive not been happy with.

So with that in mind I have been questioning my reasons for wanting to diet and lose weight. I have had an unhealthy relationship with food for some time whereby I have binged because of emotional reasons. I honestly think now that I want to deal with that more than I actually want to lose weight, I guess I had never ever considered that I could do one without the other? So I have been doing a lot of reading on the subject and am at the point where I am considering going to overeaters anonymous. Im not really sure what Im trying to achieve by writing this, and Im not sure that CC or even being on Minimins is something that is benefical to me, I guess I just wanted to share this stage of my journey x