Muffy's battle with her self! 16 weeks 100% ....

[Angel72]

Youre right, It must be how we carry it and how much its spread out. Unless its how we see ourselves. I'm 5ft 7 and was a size 16 at 15stone. Looking at photos I don't look much different to friends but I felt enormous at the time, my head hadn't caught up with me. Wish I was back there now. Good luck on reaching goal.

 

[nomoremuffintop]

hubbys just come in and made his lunch of bacon sandwiches so the house smells of that. kids are sat eating smelly doritos and watsits so i justt cant escape the smells today haha. hubby is being fab, he brought me a blanket and pint of dr p zero warmed in the microwave as im frozen! iv drank a litre of water so far today. trying to hold off having a pack as long as i can but its hard when im bored. making pork loins with salad and fried rice for the family tonight for dinner. why did i buy so much pork at my last shopping trip? i love pork i have read through a lot of diarys today and so many people that have the add a meal option of vlcd's seem to fall off the wagon alot. i know i would so i cant do that "ill just have a chicken breast and some broccolli"thing. if ever i tried it last time i was on exante i would start with just a tin of tuna. 20 minutes later it was ill just have an egg then id blow out and eat everything in site but i felt so guilty doing it id hide in the kitchen and hope nobody came in. i was i could have just kippers and salad leaves. or just chicken shish and lettuce but my brain tells me to have just......a bit more! i had the conversation with my mum yesterday about how id eat after im at goal as she pointed out that id said it all before how ill never put weight back on again blah blah. she pointed out also tha iv gained roughly the same back that i lost but my body shape is drastically different in shape than before id lost weight the 1st time. my back is bigger and my bum is wider i really will eat less after and make better choices/limit treats to saturday night maybe? the pain of knowing i have all this ahead of me again is worse than saying no too things i like.

 

[nomoremuffintop]

Youre right, It must be how we carry it and how much its spread out. Unless its how we see ourselves. I'm 5ft 7 and was a size 16 at 15stone. Looking at photos I don't look much different to friends but I felt enormous at the time, my head hadn't caught up with me. Wish I was back there now. Good luck on reaching goal.

we always wish that we were back there when its too late. hopefully not this time! xx thanks and you too xx

 

[ED.]

I absolutely believe you hun. You will lose this weight again and this time you really will keep it off.

I hate it when people say that stuff, Its the reason iv barely told a soul this time. The comments like that are really infuriating, my OH started off saying all that stuff but now he's mute. Im staying 100% TS throughout too no breaks or sly crumbs xx

 

[Angel72]

I'm a different shape too, it's more round my middle now. I can't just have a bit of food either, I proved that in November when I came off for the weekend and that was that. It sounds kooky but I'm having to think about what emotion I'm trying to bury with food for a change and honestly I'm not liking it but its better than masking it. An afternoon with my in laws usually makes me head to choccydom. It drove me nuts when OH was bringing my fav foods in and eating them in front of me. Sending you strength and ignore your mum, you will do it and keep it off!

 

[nomoremuffintop]

1 litre water, 1 slim fast bar, 1 litre dr p zero 2 slices of ham (i dont know what made me do that?) and £30 online bingo oops it has kept me busy though. i really couldnt afford that and now im mad at myself i havent used online bingo sites in a year+

hubby called said he is bringing takeaway in for him and boys and said i should take the chance to get in the bath while they eat it.

why do i just go from fine to fed up in such a short space of time?


anyway. looking at some more pictures of tunisia should perk me up a bit xx

 

[Little-Miss-Perfect]

Wait.... Warmed up dr pepper? Omg your disgusting muffy lol
2 slices of ham is nothing. Now get in that bath till they're all fed. Your doing fab chick xx

 

[nomoremuffintop]

Wait.... Warmed up dr pepper? Omg your disgusting muffy lol
2 slices of ham is nothing. Now get in that bath till they're all fed. Your doing fab chick xx

Lol I like it in for 30seconds just takes the chill off but I left it for 60seconds just now and oh my god warm is not nice. I have sensitive teeth and my house is freezing so even when it's not in fridge the drinks are like ice!

I'm still not in bath yet was waiting for heating to warm bathroom up a bit I'm going now then straight to bed ) xx day 15 done xx

 

[nomoremuffintop]

I'm slacking with replies in other people diaries again arm is aching so ill get all my thoughts out now then snuggle down.

Ill try harder to comment amd reply tomorrow. X

Had a 1 hour bubble bath and now I'm in bed watching tv.

The kids and Hubby eating takeaway was hard I ended up making my mushroom pasta with 400ml water and drinking it like a noodle soup then had a bar straight after and had another pint of zero so that's a whole 2 litre bottle of dr pepper iv had today :O

Don't have any zero left so I have 3 x 750ml bottles of water for tomorrow. I don't have any slim and save meals left so tomorrow ill have 3 s&s shakes and a s&s bar adding extra water to each shake and maybe drinking some mint teas too. I have ordered a weeks worth of s&s that will arrive Monday and I'm going to do a s&s day and then a exante day so that I'm officially still on exante. I don't want to get kicked out. What would I do if I wasn't allowed to post here?

I weighed myself before my shower (just for curiosity to see the effects of the day) and it said 16st 11 again haha. I hope iv lost a teeny weeny lb tomorrow. To bring my weight under 16st 7lb and make it my 1st stone off this year xx

Saturdays are hard for me so I'm hoping that minis isn't too quiet tomorrow


I think that's about it for now xx

Night everyone xx


Ps here's my motivation for tomorrow, I don't want to be one of these poor ladies on the beach with people taking pics of me to add to google images labeled "fat beach"

 

[ED.]

You are doing sooooo good!!! Yes!!! Gotta love a hot bubble bath, my fav Hope you get your stone you damn well deserve it! Night hun hope your arm eases for you xxx

 

[carrieclaus]

Nighty night muffy. Xxx

 

[DustQueen]

I'm slacking with replies in other people diaries again arm is aching so ill get all my thoughts out now then snuggle down.

Ill try harder to comment amd reply tomorrow. X

Had a 1 hour bubble bath and now I'm in bed watching tv.

The kids and Hubby eating takeaway was hard I ended up making my mushroom pasta with 400ml water and drinking it like a noodle soup then had a bar straight after and had another pint of zero so that's a whole 2 litre bottle of dr pepper iv had today :O

Don't have any zero left so I have 3 x 750ml bottles of water for tomorrow. I don't have any slim and save meals left so tomorrow ill have 3 s&s shakes and a s&s bar adding extra water to each shake and maybe drinking some mint teas too. I have ordered a weeks worth of s&s that will arrive Monday and I'm going to do a s&s day and then a exante day so that I'm officially still on exante. I don't want to get kicked out. What would I do if I wasn't allowed to post here?

I weighed myself before my shower (just for curiosity to see the effects of the day) and it said 16st 11 again haha. I hope iv lost a teeny weeny lb tomorrow. To bring my weight under 16st 7lb and make it my 1st stone off this year xx

Saturdays are hard for me so I'm hoping that minis isn't too quiet tomorrow

I think that's about it for now xx

Night everyone xx

Ps here's my motivation for tomorrow, I don't want to be one of these poor ladies on the beach with people taking pics of me to add to google images labeled "fat beach"

Oh god those poor women I'm so not looking at that just in case I'm on it :S
Warm DrP ewwwww lol you are doing so well babe if it's quiet on here and you want someone to natter with just text xxxx you're doing fab hunny keep it up hopefully a stone down next time you stand on those scales

 

[valentine]

Hiya babes just a quickie before I hit the sack..... 2 slices of ham is nothing babes so don't worry and ya sound like ya got a good plan for tomorrow... I'm addicted to Dr pepper Zero but only allow myself a big glass every time I drink a litre of water lol.. My water intake is getting better pmsl ... Nighty night babe x x x xx

 

[nomoremuffintop]

Morning

Just quickly popping in I'm not in the best of moods today :/

Not impressed that monsters been awake since 6am but I have lost my 1st stone of 2013 bringing my weight to 16st 6.8lb to cheer me up a teeny bit.

so far this week iv lost just over 5lb weigh in is on Tuesday xx

 

[nomoremuffintop]

how on earth did i let myself go back to the last picture here is what i look like now. after getting down to a normal size that i was in the 1st 2 pictures really upset today xx

 

[Little-Miss-Perfect]

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how on earth did i let myself go back to the last picture here is what i look like now. after getting down to a normal size that i was in the 1st 2 pictures really upset today xx

Right mrs!!
Yeh that's what you got down to, you looked and felt great right? Ok today you don't feel so great but you gotta remember that you CAN and HAVE done it. So you'll get there again. Lots of people have regained the weight they lost. Last year I was 11.10 and today I'm 14.04 so don't beat yourself up about it!!
What's done is done. Now smile and get drinking yer yukky warm dr pepper zero.
Btw, that was kinda a telling off. Hope it's helped.

Big hugs xxxxxxx

 

[nomoremuffintop]

Right mrs!!
Yeh that's what you got down to, you looked and felt great right? Ok today you don't feel so great but you gotta remember that you CAN and HAVE done it. So you'll get there again. Lots of people have regained the weight they lost. Last year I was 11.10 and today I'm 14.04 so don't beat yourself up about it!!
What's done is done. Now smile and get drinking yer yukky warm dr pepper zero.
Btw, that was kinda a telling off. Hope it's helped.

Big hugs xxxxxxx

i know xx

i was looking back on old pics on here of me and id already lost my 1st stone in week one iv been faffing for 3 weeks and only just lost a stone today, i am happy with that im not saying im not but it feels like iv been on this diet ages already and i still have 6 and a half stone to lose. if i was 13 stone and had 3 stone to lose id probably accept it. its my own fault i know if i hadnt eaten id be further along now but i think that looking at pics iv got and working out how many days it took me to get to each stage had worried me. in one of my pictures i have a shot of me standing with a bra on to show my back fat then next to it im taking the same pic after losing 3 stone and it doesnt look much different how long will it take before i see a diiference? im so big again i think i have a good 50 days more before i even see a difference

you are right LMP but its hard when all i can think about is how supid i am, i had forgotten i had the pic of me in green jeans. maybe i should have kept that as a screensaver? xx

 

[Angel72]

Muffy, I think Miss perfect says it all. Just remember that if you stay in ketosis you can't fail to reach the weight you want to be. Use your fav photos as inspiration, not to bring you down. You've got a beautiful face whatever size you are. Thinner today than yesterday! Sending you strength :vibes:

 

[nomoremuffintop]

Muffy, I think Miss perfect says it all. Just remember that if you stay in ketosis you can't fail to reach the weight you want to be. Use your fav photos as inspiration, not to bring you down. You've got a beautiful face whatever size you are. Thinner today than yesterday! Sending you strength :vibes:

ahh thank you angel xx ill try to be more positive x

 

[Angel72]

I put on 9 stone after losing 8 and feel furious with myself so you'll have to dig me out of the pit one of these days : ) , someone once said to me to view moods and thoughts as fleeting, just let them float by and move on. Helps me on down days. If all else fails do the funky bunny dance