My Countdown - 20 Weeks to go!

[leeds123]

am off sick kez, and not doing too good but coming on here and reading how great you are doing is a real inspiration. keep it up and SO excited about your impending wedding. it seemed like only yesterday you were talking it about being 12 months away!

 

[cornishkez]

Hey Leeds, I'm sorry to hear you're off work sick. Well actually I'm kind of not as I know that you were unhappy and that was probably making you feel even worse being there.

Well done on your diet plan and doing the exercise. I've been having a lovely run of good luck these last few days, but it's followed a really, really rubbish few months.

So there is hope for us all, grit your teeth and stick with it and you'll get what you deserve in the end

 

[cornishkez]

Well, I went for my first riding lesson in 15 years today and I loved it! I went so much better than I hoped for and I've already been promoted up a class. Going again next week, can't wait already. But my hip is killing me, I thought my knee would as it usually gives me jip when I'm riding my horses. But my knee was fine and I can definately feel that I was working my thighs and hips!

Diet wise, not so good, not managed to get back on track so far. Having two products and an evening meal. Will get back onto it tomorrow, the scales have stayed the same, but need to not be complacent.

 

[Surfhunny]

Glad you enjoyed it!! I've had a funny food day too, started off fine but had to go to mums, cos having no toilet for the day and being on CD is a nightmare. So I had one of her Exante soups (gross) for lunch and she made me a couple of poached eggs for tea cos I couldn't face another soup. Then when I got home I was hungry so instead of having a shake I had some cottage cheese and chicken, I know it's not as bad as it could be but I still feel like a pig.

Anyway good to see you feeling positive again!! A nice ness handbag always helps

 

[Goreygirl]

Hey hon
Saw your post about the chat with the manager. So glad she was so supportive....makes it less stressful doesn't it?

Hope physio went well and she didn't mangle you too much, my best mate is one and has hands of steel!

 

[cornishkez]

So, so disappointed with myself, I've dragged my heels all week and not got on plan and then last night had a whole 12" pizza, 2 bottles of pear cider and a whole large bag of doritos. Especially when I see this morning that Kim managed to resist.

I've been hiding from the scales, kidding myself all is ok but jumped on this morning and I'm about 6 lbs up on my scales.

So back to it today , I might just have enough time to turn it around and get a sts on Monday. Though it'll be complete luck if I do.

Had some lovely comments from Scott last night, saying he can def see it in my stomach and legs. And he couldn't understand how I couldn't see I'd dropped. He said he can feel the difference most when he cuddles me at night (we always fall asleep in spoons position).

Also I wore a pair of trousers I bought last year yesterday, never been able to wear them before. Some of my 22's are too big now and can fit into most if my 20's now.

Going to head up the field with the woofs and take the horses out for a ride, go to the feed store and restock on animal feeds and then fix the fencing in the field I've been meaning to for weeks.

Just feel like I need to get out and move, do something useful with myself.

Might book a badmington court tomoz afternoon. Urgh, I've got a head ache already, not to mention the upset stomach.

 

[Surfhunny]

Aw never mind Kez just draw a line under last night and start again fresh today. 4lbs or so of that gain will be glycogen stores so it'll go quickly! Chin up Hun, you've done so well and you CAN keep going xxx

 

[*Shanny*]

yep i agree with sal chin up and by monday you will have dropped them pounds again..!!

 

[kimmi1982]

Heya! Forget about the slip up and start afresh. The 6lbs will just be water and you'll get that off easy- you've done it before!! Xxx

 

[cornishkez]

Yeah I know just wish I'd learn not to put myself in the position where I have to.

Got the worst headache! But know that I deserve it and am kind of pleased. Been so slack and have drifted along on the verge of ketosis for the last week or so, but still lost on the scales. This headache is reminding me that I've been lucky and don't really deserve what I've gotten.

All I want to do is climb into a red hot bath, my pajamas and then bed, but got a mountain of washing and housework to do.

 

[cornishkez]

Urgh! Head is pounding and have to go out to the shop. Trying to drink lots of water, this is a proper day 1 headache.

 

[Surfhunny]

Hope your headache goes away soon! Hate day 1 headaches

 

[cornishkez]

Serves me right for all those carbs last night! Just clock watching now till I can go to bed, watching let's dance for comic relief. Saturday nights on tv is rubbish!

 

[cornishkez]

Just been to the shop, very grouchy and feeling very out if it. Is the headache down to low blood sugar? I've been drinking loads, just had a tetra and that's made me feel a bit better. Still got 1 more product for today, so might have some porridge in a bit.

 

[Surfhunny]

Just been to the shop, very grouchy and feeling very out if it. Is the headache down to low blood sugar? I've been drinking loads, just had a tetra and that's made me feel a bit better. Still got 1 more product for today, so might have some porridge in a bit.

I'm in a right crabby mood too. I don't know why, right now I feel like the whole world is against me dieting right now I guess it's all in my head but the usual demon is rearing it's ugly head. The weight is not coming off fast enough for my liking and even though I'm not checking on the scales my clothes aren't as loose as I'd like them to be at this point. I think that's why I'm struggling to stay focussed.

The other day I thought I was starting to notice a difference but I don't think it's that noticeable really

 

[cornishkez]

Oh hun, it's just mind games! We both need to be strong, if we keep giving in we are just prolonging the journey and punishing ourselves more than we need to.

What weight are you now? Or were you last time you weighed? My scales are back into the 17's today, I want to get back into the 16's asap. Cd doesn't seem like the enemy any more, I just seem like my own worst enemy.

 

[*Shanny*]

Sal I admire you for staying away from the scales for such a long time.

But y don't u have a look tomorrow atleast this will clear your head a little??

You may be surprised u just don't know, you know u can ss/ss+ 100% but when your constenly wondering u will feel like this. Xx

 

[*Shanny*]

Kez wot time u having your last shake ?? X

 

[Surfhunny]

I was 14st 13lbs last time I weighed I don't think I'm much less than that now be 14st 7 at very least. I'm my own worst enemy too, and I'm starting to think I've got too much time on my hands, might be better when I get back to work.

I'm impatient and want quicker results than what I'm seeing which is why I keep getting to a point and slip!

 

[Surfhunny]

Shanny I'm scared of the scales now I'm scared that I've been kidding myself and that I'm actually in the 15s which is why I'm just keeping going and keeping away. Even though realistically I should be 14/7ish.