My Countdown - 20 Weeks to go!

[great things]

i'm obsessed with the scales. twice a day possibly more on some days. been on twice already. i'll go on before bed. again when i get up. it's bad either way.

you'll be loosing.

i never suffer from headaches on cd when i start. i think it's cause i still drink coffee. i think it's possibly lack of caffiene (sp, i just can't spell this word) in most people's cases.

 

[cornishkez]

Not sure Shanny, should make myself have another one. Might have another tetra instead, dont feel like eating much, amazingly! But determined to do it properly instead of all this messing about that I have been doing. Must have my 3 a day.

Still got a headache, but luckily not as bad as earlier, not feeling quite so much like crawling into bed and dying! lol

 

[great things]

bed is good.

 

[cornishkez]

Not lack of caffeine in mine, still having as many coffees as I usually do. Think it's low blood sugar at the mo and carb withdrawals, I really did binge last night. Plus I had alcohol, so even though I've been drinking plenty I'm probably dehydrated still.

Got up in the night and had 2 pints of water, was gasping. I never wake up in the night for a drink...! But then, there was a lot of salami and pepperoni on my pizza

 

[cornishkez]

Day 2 today and feeling pretty crappy still. Feel weak and a bit sicky. The scales this morning were back in the 16's but only just and not for long. Had a porridge for dinner and going to see friends for cheese and coffee tonight, so hope I can stay strong.

Looking forward to being back in ketosis properly, am wondering whether to move my weigh in this week to Thursday instead if Monday so I have half a chance of a sts or loss.

Annoyed at myself for being weak and letting life get to me. Emotional eating only makes things worse in the long run. And certainly doesn't punish anybody but myself.

Have spring cleaned the living room and kitchen and done about 10 loads of washing. How we make so much just the two of us I don't know!

Off out now to walk the dogs and feed the horses.

Just want these scales back to where they were!!!!!

 

[old_user45]

Hello,

I'm a re-starter and just cruising the diaries for motivation and tips!! Well done on your amazing loss recently, and well done for making the slip-up a short one and getting back in the wagon!!

 

[*Shanny*]

Hi kez how's your day been. ?? X

 

[Surfhunny]

I'm following you Shanny lol.

I'd probably leave WI the same hun, you know by Thursday you'll have an STS anyway so just bite the bullet and have WI as normal. I don't know, that's just me!

Oh and I was brave this morning - I went on the scales! I'm 14st 9lbs not as bad as expected but nowhere near as good as it should be! So it's done now, I'm going to be keeping an eye on them in future.

 

[cornishkez]

Im so sick to death of cd right now, I can feel that I'm fighting it in my head, resenting it!

Argh! Going to weigh in tonight but this will be my last week if I can't get back on it. Waste of money otherwise

 

[kimmi1982]

I feel the same kez, I think the honeymoon period and exciting bit is over!! I'm pleased with the results to date but now I feel it's really hard work for 3lb a week!! Despite having a really good weekend, declining the pizza and breakfast etc I weighed myself and in the same!! Really annoyed!! Got weigh in at 1130 and don't want to go-so annoyed!!! Ggggrrrrr!! X

 

[Surfhunny]

Oh you've both done so well. I'm not going to tell you what to do, but I regret each and every time I've given up. I can't help thinking how many times I'd be at target if I'd just stuck with it.

This diet messes with your head, plays mind games, makes you envious of people eating normally. But the other day I realised that I will never lose weight permanently any other way because with any other diet there's just too many chances for bad habits to creep in without me even realising. A little bit extra allowable food here and there soon adds up and I'm back to my old habits. As much as I hate CD at times (right now in fact) it's the only way I can do this.

And you CAN do it! I know it might sound silly but have you ever written a pros and cons list? I did it the very first time I did CD when I was convinced I was ready to give up. My CDC made me write the list. I was so sure the cons list would be miles long and it wasn't. There were 3 things on it:
1: it's too hard
2: it impacts on my social life, no drinking, meals out etc
3: it's expensive!

And there were tons of things on my pros list, I still carry the list round with me to remind me why I'm doing this.

Sorry if this sounds preachy, I just don't want you to give up and regret it like I have every single time. This is the hardest, easiest diet in the world depending on where your head is at. Big hugs hun xxx

 

[kimmi1982]

Good advice surf!! I'm not giving up, but definetly ready for a week off plan and a bit of sun!! Hopefully my motivation will return after my hols! X

 

[cornishkez]

Morning! Well I've just had a chat with cd and I am having a week off. Just feel like I'm wasting my time and money at the minute. Going to have a week off to get my head sorted and hopefully get whatever it is out of my system.

Plan on eating sensibly, got salad, cottage cheese and chicken for dinner followed by natural yoghurt and pineapple.

I'm determined not to return to CDC next week massively heavier, to prove to myself if anything that I can be sensible. Got my riding lesson Tuesday, Zumba on Thursday, bowling sat and badminton sunday so hopefully I can keep active and make good choices.

 

[cornishkez]

Oh and spotted my bald patch is back!!!

 

[great things]

shave it off kez lol

hey girls ss is the easy part. i'm doing a maintenance now and it's a living hell. constant weekly fights with myself.

i am so totally focused on ss and ss+ and even the 810 plan. i get on the 1000 and i struggle.

 

[cornishkez]

Any body read the Paul McKenna I can make you thin? Was on sale in tesco so popped it in the trolley.

Had a massive binge today, which was inevitable. I knew it was coming, eaten so far my stomach feels like it's going to pop, it's rock solid! Never mind, done now tomorrow is a new day.

Got my second riding lesson tomorrow and then on Wednesday going to go and sign up with the gym and make use if the classes. I don't think I can make any of their zumba classes, timings with work, but there are loads if others. There must be something I would enjoy?! I even thought about paying for a PT to draw me up a fitness plan.

If I can't do it the cd way , I'll have to find another. Ultimately I need to find exercise that I enjoy to get me off my backside. Sitting at a desk for 40 hours a week isn't great!

 

[Surfhunny]

Hey Kez, how're you doing? Hope you're okay hun!! I've tried Paul McKenna. I fell asleep every time I put the cd on lol. I gave up reading the book too. I don't know why but I have a hard time doing exercises that require you to imagine things, which is pretty much what you're asked to do. Imagination is not my strong point.

The cd is very relaxing, I quite like his voice. I figured some of his hypnotherapy might work too but I lost interest after the imagining bit didn't work. But its worth a try. Hmmm I've got insomnia tonight.....where's that cd gone??? Lol xxx

 

[cornishkez]

Hehe, have yet to listen to the cd but it did amuse me that the first sentence is about cd. Lol

Which he is right? Why do I have an issue sticking to 1500 kcal but not 400kcal? Oh well we'll keep reading see if anything else rings home.

How are you? Still enjoying your lovely new bath? I can't believe how quickly the finished it!

 

[Surfhunny]

I remembered last night I have a hypnotherapy weightloss app on my phone so put that on and was out like a light! I don't know how good it is for weight loss, but great cure for insomnia lol. I think if you search for Lose Weight Hypnotherapy you'll find it. I've just had a look and he also does a Deep Sleep one, maybe I should download that one too. I've got the lose weight one, confidence one and positivity one. Who knows if they work though?!?!?!

 

[cornishkez]

I feel fat, fat, fat!!! Eating for the sake of it, don't even want to bit still do. Missing the empty belly feeling so much, I feel all bloated and sore. Even picked up a coke zero at the garage over regular coke. Back to cd tomorrow me thinks! Hope I feel this determined in the morning?