thanks sweet thing, tho today is disasterous!! will just forget it and back into my work routine tomo, cm to cope better there than at home!!
so today i have brought some new shoes for a wedding in 3 weeks, they are lepoard print from evans as i have fat feet lol and i already have a dress i want to wear, it was a bargin last year, should have been £60, and got it for £7 lol its from debenhams its boobtube and has a brown uner neith with net over but then rouches at the bottom, knee length lol hard to explain! and i know if i dont wear it to this wedding it will end up on ebay never worn as i dnt have any other suitable events soon and want to b out of it by the next one lol it fits today (didnt when i brought it, could hardly do it up!!) but i could do with loosing a bit more to make it look its best, the material hangs so will catch bumps lol unless its loose, so thats my plan!!
no idea what to wear to the hen night sat, but tried things on today and as totm i just feel fat and nothing felt right, tho this isnt unnormal for me lol
so need to stick to this to look fab at the wedding, also my great auntie is a bit of a ***** and has always made nasty comments to me about weight etc, and its her daughters wedding so want to look good to stick two fingers up at her!! shes a fitness freak as this is all she can control always bn a size 6-8 then went up to a 14 after breaking from a controlling relationshop and being happy (secretly i was laughing when this happened) shes the sort of woman that thinks she can say watever and then 2 mins later expects u to do something for her!!! really irritates me!!
rants over and tomo is a new day!! i cm to say this alot lol but i cant hang on yesterdays disasters!!
oh and today i decided to wear jeans (size 18 ones) i havent worn jeans for ages, im happier in leggins and long tops/dresses!! and tbh the jeans did start to get tight about nov/dec so i just stopped wearing them lol thats my way of dealing with the weight lol think this kinda dint help me weighing in at my heaviest in january!! think for wen i have slimmed i will take notice if things feel tight to sort it and not just avoid it!!! tho i do intend to always weigh in reguarly and if my weight fluctuates more than 5-7lbs from goal i will be strict for a few weeks to get back to goal.
its weird but i feel good that i can identify when things got to there worst, and realising i ignored these signs makes me more aware if it happens again and will deal with it not just change my style lol
lots of weird ramblings today but think i analyse things when totm lol im a deep thinker, cancer star sign and i am typical of the sign!! lol