thought id resurrect this thread rather than start yet another one seing as this is still what im wanting to achieve right now :0)
im coming back to s and s tomorrow with a touch of weight to go thrown in at the start to make the transition easier . I've spent the last year managing to stay the same weight following a primal type route , now that is something I didn't think id ever be able to do , Ive just looked back on my old threads and by god there are a few :0) and I realise that apart from this last year ive only ever been actively gaining weight or actively loosing it by varying methods and degrees . found this thread titled why ? that I started and many goals / reasons have changed over the last years but I think im still no closer to figuring it all out circa 2013 than I was in 2009 !!!
this was my post back them Im gonna chew (scuse the pun) it over and come back to how I feel about it all later xxx
i often wonder why ?
why do we diet ?
what is it that drives us ?
is it a need to be actively doing something 'with'ourselves?
or is it society telling us that we are not good / pretty/ skinny enough (and never will be)
do we ever reach that elusive goal that we are continually striving for ? or do we subconciously sabbotage ourselves because we wouldnt know what to do if we actually succeeded or didnt have our trusty diets to keep us sane
mmmmmmm am i the only one who thinks these things?
my list 2 years ago consisted of
1 be healthy
2 get fitter
3 be more attractive
4 feel good about myself
5 stop hiding behind the 'fat'
(hard to admit that one )
6 be able to shop in 'normal 'clothes shops
7 look good in a little lacy pair of shorts
8 most importantly i didnt want to pass my dieting demons on to my little girl , i know where mine come from ... a lifetime of being told that i wasnt quite , good/ skinny/pretty enough and believing it.my demons go soooo far back that i dont ever remember being 'allowed' to feel good.
mmm i wonder ,yes i do :0) will i ever be 'good enough '????
