I'm writing this post for my future benefit... Don't read, spare urselves... I'm on a downer!!
I have had a right battle with myself today. It's so stupid basically arguing with urself, wanting something but telling urself u can't!! I'm so fed up of it!! When will food stop ruling me???
I started off so well, cereal, fruit, gym etc but this evening I've really struggled. I was gonna order some food, I wrestled with the idea for an hour..(an actual hour!!!!) b4 I decided to make myself some pasta, which I then covered in cheese!
After I ate it I felt sick. I wasn't even hungry! What's my problem????? I ate all that for no reason what so ever!!! Grrrrrrrr
I kno only I can lose the weight but every day I have family telling me to eat the stuff I can't! After a while I just wanna give in. I kno it's not their problem that I'm obese, but a bit of support wouldn't go amiss!! It's hard enough without them encouraging me to eat!
I hate this! Food shouldn't make you feel like this! It's a horrible feeling!
U feel down if u restrict ur food, u feel down if u cheat on ur diet... It's lose/lose!
I dunno, just fed up I guess!
I need to snap out of it & stop feeling sorry for myself!! It's just easier said than done