Hi all,
Looks like it's back to the Dr's. These health problems are getting out of hand. I know no one can actually advise cos it's clearly a medical problem, I just want to have a moan.
Sorry to get a bit tmi again but despite a few days of normality after finishing the orlistat and have been severely constipated again. Only going once a week, bloated and in pain. I've been drinking gallons, taking a fibre supplement - nothing works except laxatives, and they are hit and miss. This is horrible, sorry, but I'm going nuts here. Most of the time there just doesn't seem to be anything to come out! Where is my food going? I feel stuffed right up to my chest but nothing much is happening.
Even worse than that I have the worst case of water retention in my life. At least I hope that's all it is. I feel like I am wrapped in a body sized blood pressure cuff. Squeezed into a tight water suit. The horrible thing is my legs. My socks are leaving a dent on my ankles a good cm deep, I can fit my little finger in the hollow and it's flush with the rest of my leg! Also, if I press my leg of lean against something it leave a deep indentation that takes ages to go away. It feels like the green oasis stuff you stick flowers in, or play dough. It's quite upsetting. It doesn't feel like my flesh anymore, it's very disturbing.
On top of that I've felt like totm is coming ever since I started this diet, it was meant to come nearly two weeks ago but it never showed up even though I'm on the pill. I've had non stop cramps all month. I don't think I'm pregnant. Very unlikely indeed cos we had fertility problems and I'm not even sure we've had sex recently there's been so much going on.
Worst of all, I weighed myself and my weight is rapidly climbing every day. I was 15 101/2 last week, I'm already 15 11 1/2 and am expecting that to be even higher tomorrow for my actual weekly weigh in. I feel huge. I have cheated a bit this week but I don't think it's enough to warrant this gain. A treat meal at the weekend, pie and mash - and I have been so miserable I've eaten maybe 6 biscuits this week. That doesn't add up to a pound or more gain, when I've been otherwise good, I'm sure.
I just feel thoroughly rubbish. I swear I was healthier when I was eating rubbish and binging every night. Obviously my system doesn't like the changes I've made. I am working so hard to stick at it despite the health issues but it makes it all the harder.
I think I will write today off, have a day to wallow in poor me and start a new week tomorrow - hopefully with some dr's advice and some medication. If I can just get the energy I will start exercising then too as I 'm sure that will help. I'm just so achey I can't even contemplate it yet. My hands and wrists are throbbing typing this so I'm going to go for now.
Keep your finger's crossed please, I need to get this sorted.
Caz x