nikki's diary - closed...... moved over to maintenance to test the water!

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so cold! been out today looking for boots and we wanted some new gap fleeces. so passed a tresspass shop and bought some thermal socks. didn't find any boots that fit, welly boots. hate it when they size it wrong. a size 8 is a 42, not a 41, a 41 is a 7! argh!!!!!!

 

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been very busy this am. didn't have my first shake til gone 10! got kids up, did their breakkie, did hubby's breakkie. had shower, got dressed, cleaned house, changed beds, put on washing, put up xmas lights and reindeer outside. then i had my first shake of the day.

 

[leeds123]

hi nikki, you seem to be doing ok. just checking in on you!

 

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hi leeds

read your thread bout acas... bummer. left a reply for you though.

 

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it's weigh day and i think i've lost 2lb. would like more but don't think so

 

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Well I lost 1.5lb this week . At least it's off and not on etc. Been 100% 810 plan too. Then since my weigh in I've been to the loo twice! typical!!!!

 

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well 100% but did have a coke zero at the pics yesterday. i was craving popcorn, sweets etc so i did well considering i could have broken loose lol

 

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i am so cold. i have 3 layers on and a blanket over me and i'm freezing. i think i'm off to sit on the radiator. i've been going to bed with my dressing gown on it's been so cold. brrrr. outside is -7 deg c and this morning it was -10.5 deg c. cold cold cold.

 

[Surfhunny]

Well done Nikki!! And well done for resisting all the tasty cinema temptations!!! It is bloody freezing, I'm sitting in my fleecy jamas, big dressing gown with heating and fire on full blast and still cold!! And I'm not even in ketosis.

Keep up the fab work Hun x

 

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tx

 

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Wish my weigh day had been today as I was another pound down on yesterdays weight. Well, i suppose it will show on Mondays weigh in

So yesterdays weigh in had me at 11st 11.5lb and this am I was 11st 10.25lb. Not far to go now but I am still hoping for 11st 7pm for Xmas. Don't think it's possible with a night out on the 18th. Fab food and fab vino mind probably 1 glass and I'll b done in. I was drinking 2 bottles over 3 days. Think it was part of the stress of my mum being in hospital and the depression my mum being in hospital and her situation caused me. Don't think about drink now. Seems to have gone out of my mind. Good ol tablets.

 

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exercise for my tuesday....

on the dreadmill for 50 mins. i ran a fast mile then walked half a mile then ran another fast mile then walked half a mile, ran a very fast quarter of a mile and walked a quarter of a mile, ran a very fast quarter of a mile and walked the last quarter of a mile to make 4 miles. a really good sweaty interval session on the dreadmill.... was watching jeremy kyle..... lol then i went on the bike for 10 mins

think i burn around 450/500 cals in this session.

 

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brrr cold again. i've frozen toes, frozen legs, a hot thigh cause the dogs there, cold hands and nose and icicles hanging off the end of my nose - or so it would feel like had my tea and my last cd products of the day. only decaf coffee to keep me warm now.

 

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so angry today with emily and dude i suppose.

ems has continuously played me up for weeks now and i'm totally sick. she's drawn on walls, on cupboards. i'm sick of the fight i have with her. she doesn't do what i say. her behaviour has got worse since she started school.

this afternoon has been a bit of a disaster all round. i decided to clean the mat in the living room, hoover it. then sort the mat out and make it even as it's been getting on my nerves as it was a funny angle. we've a yoga mat down over the fireplace hearth cause the corners are sharp incase the kids fall. it was stuck so i pulled and bashed myself in the face knocking my lens of out my glasses. whilst i was scrabbling to try to attempt to put it in dude was attacking the coals on the fire, fake coals, but still dirty things. ems was messing around in the kitchen. i'd lost my screw on the way to the kitchen so decided enough was enough and locked them in their playroom by shutting the stair gate to stop them getting out. i finally found the screw and in the meantime had phone my dad to come and help me. then i had to clean up the coals and put the fireguard back etc etc. wish i'd never started the job. ems also got a smacked bum. just had had enough. i've told her that i'll cancel her birthday and santa won't come but it just doesn't work. i've no other option but to put her in her bed room. dude's been clinging on to me today and today i'm sick of it. trying to climb up me, crying constantly. he's tired but won't go to sleep. the only thing that calms him down is the tv and as ems has been banned from watching it he can't watch it too.

have finally resented and put on 'big cats'

 

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i've got an intermittenant cold and sore throat. had it since saturday. comes and goes. really annoying!

 

[Surfhunny]

I've had that too since I've been back, woke up Sat with a sore throat, had cold on Sun then sore throat no cold Mon, now I've got sore throat and cough, apparently my dad had it while I was away, it's a right pain!! Hope you feel better soon, and also had a better day today x

 

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the scales are being kind to me today. 11st 9lbs on mine this am butt naked pleased as i weighed in on monday at 11st 11.5lbs

 

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while i was posting pictures i thought i'd do a picture explosion on here.

biggest

smallest (before matthew)

taken in the summer time on my journey

taken 3 weeks ago

 

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what a day and what an upcoming weekend!

been busy really bust doing this and that. dropped ems off then went to tescos for diet bits, put it away then picked my aunt up to take her to see ems in the school nativity thing. too ems to mum's for lunch, helped mum have a shower, took ems to tumble tots, then it was my hair back to the house, cleaned paul's study room, did kids tea, did my tea, did hubby's tea. kids bathed and put to bed, tidied kitchen, put away toys and i'm finally on here.

tomorrow, ems having her hair straightened ready for her birthday party on sunday, off to hubby's mums 2 hours away if the pennine route is open 3 hours if it isn't, back here late evening. dad's collecting her balloons for me, then up the following day, sunday, brekkie, get kids ready for party, load everything in the car, unload it, meet friends, have the party (at our gym), go home and collapse. phew!

paths are awful. sheer ice. it's been melting and freezing, melting and freezing. was so scared of falling today. i'm less frightened of falling now than i used to be when i was bigger, don't know why though. strange.

 

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awwww no! dude has chicken pox. ems hasn't had it. it's her birthday party tomorrow. someone is going to have to stay at home with dude and my plans for next week are out of the window.

out goes nursery on wednesday. it's my hair colour so he'll be dragged along and he'll have to cry it out in his buggy as i don't think he'll be well enough to go to nursery on wednesday. he's in tuesday pm and in the am was to be in creche at the gym, that isn't going to happen and it might stretch into thursday too now! life is never simple.