nikki's diary - closed...... moved over to maintenance to test the water!

moan and groan. i've eaten way too much this xmas. tummy's sore from eating and i've been on the loo so many times i've lost count, forgot about what goes in has to come out. it was the nibbles and booze that have got me. decided to go back on my 810 plan yesterday but i just didn't have the heart. so i felt i needed another day. today i've got my mojo back and don't feel hard done by. i had a fab xmas but still i was constantly thinking about the food i ate and the drink i had and worrying about how much weight i've put on. i know that the first week back on the 810 and it will most likely most if not all come off.
 
grrrrr. no back on track. hubby want us to have champers. back on it tomorrow. promise. i can't leave it any longer cause my weigh in is monday!
 
feel really sad about my mum. she was in hospital on xmas day, she's still in actually but we went to see her. she seemed pretty much out of it and was falling asleep loads. so we left. she opened a couple of pressies first and i showed her some xmas day pics on my mobile. we went to see her today as we've been away since xmas day pm. found out that she was too out of it to know that we'd even been. thought she'd got no pressies etc. i'm gutted. this xmas has been hard. very stressful in that a couple of days i never got a text from her til late and i was beginning to worry bout her. i'll be glad when 2010 is over. i also hate new year as it gets me very down. hate celebrating it.
 
aw nikki. your poor mum. hope she is feeling much better soon. i have had a few restarts myself but there is something about the last 2 weeks in dec which is impossible! i just now see it as the good days i have balance out the bad days so i shouldnt gain much. the funny thing is my weight is all over the place at the moment. some nights i havent eaten much but have gone to bed almost a stone heavier than normal!!

my advice to you would be to have a chilled week, enjoy the bad stuff but try and be healthy. i had a similar xmas to you, enjoyed it but worried about the weight and getting back on cd! stop stressing about cd, you have loads on your plate at the moment (literally!) so just go with the flow and try and claw back some of the damage before weigh in. I honestly dont think i can do it properly until sunday jan 2nd but in the meantime i am trying not to go overboard.

like you, i am looking forward to kissing this year the hell goodbye!!! cheer up nikki, and lets look forward to getting to goal in 2011.
 
It is so hard to be hungry. I admire your dedication! That is the most difficult part of losing weight for me -- being hungry, watching others enjoy food that will make me gain weight, and forcing myself to be good!

I am so impressd by your efforts (and success)! Congrats on the weight loss and keep going!
 
back to it 100% tomorrow with the thought that i've totally done xmas to death.... enough to cover new year too! :D
 
Oh Nikki sorry to hear about your poor mum, you're really having a rough time at the moment, I hope you're ok!! Xxx
 
back to it today. had a good food run so why do i feel like i don't want to diet? why am i craving things that i've eaten enough of to keep me going a life time? flaming carbs...... carb craving
 
Keep going Nikki you can do it!!! Get through these first few days and you'll get back into it!
 
i know. i'm just grumpy with it :( feel deprived as xmas isn't really over and the cupboards are bursting with xmas cake, nuts, crisps, sweets etc it's the nuts that are calling me. if they continue to do so i'll be binning them!
 
decided to have tonight off - again! back on it again tomorrow. i will get there honest.
 
I got one yay, been having a play with mum & dad tonight, my god I'm so unco-ordinated lol. I'm going to get the zumba game on Monday, mummy is buying it for me yay!!! I love it genius idea.

Enjoy your night off, happy new year and thanks for all your support this last year, you've been a massive help and encouragement!!! Xxx
 
so glad you felt i helped :D we will get to goal sometime next year :) i feel 2011 is going to be much better. my mum had some good news today. no chance of her having her leg off according to dr stuart. they're just wanting both heels to heal and then they'll operate, plastic surgery i think. 2011 has to be better health wise than 2010 mind money wise it was ok. found an isa i never knew i had.... paid a bit off the mortgage.
 
this dieting is hard work. so don't want to do it right now. feel that as 1st jan we should have a slap up meal, booze etc so hard to decide what to do. in one respect i feel like i shouldn't have had last night off. i would have been in ketosis now and feeling amazing instead of just knackered.
 
weigh day tomorrow.

off plan 20-28th dec
on plan 29th, 30th dec
off plan evening of 31st
back on plan with contempt 1st jan - didn't really want to be back on plan

weight 20.12.10 - 11st 4lb
weight 29.12.10 - 11st 12lb aprox
weight 31.12.10 - 11st 7lb
weight 1.1.11 - 11st 10lb
weight 2.1.11 - 11st 8lb
weight 3.1.11 ???????????? TBC
 
Hope WI goes okay Nikki!! Good luck!!! X
 
blurgh.... not too bad i put on 1/2lb :( could have been worse. 2 weeks today is my birthday, hoping i can be at goal by then.
 
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