nikki's diary - closed...... moved over to maintenance to test the water!

[Surfhunny]

Nikki don't stress about your feelings for your kids, my mum was exactly the same, my brother was a terror child. He needed hardly any sleep (still the same) and had a tendency to be very hyperactive, bordering on ADHD when he was little whereas I was the calm good child who slept right through and behaved.

I don't know how she coped with his tantrums and back answering and screaming fits. I do remember coming home from school a few times to find her sitting outside on the front porch with the music on and hearing him screaming and raging in his room. So you're not alone on that one.

My best friend regularly takes a cup of tea out into the garden while Little E or FT (depending on whose turn it is for a tantrum) gets on with their hussy fit. She's even dumped both of them at her mother in laws and come to mine just to get away from them.

I guess not having kids it's hard for me to comprehend but I'm sure how you're feeling is pretty normal.

Big hugs hun xxx

 

[great things]

food continued

to recap....
2 coffees
3 pints of water
1 dr pepper zero
1 cd choc shake
1 veg flavouring
1 nibble of the kids cheese bread bun (opps) almost on plan, not quite yet.

2 more pints of water
1 cd porridge
2 cups of coffee (decaf)
1 can of dr pepper
baby bell cheese. (opps) just feeling mega hungry today.

 

[*Shanny*]

Nikki are you on the 1000 plan today??

you are doing fine id say x

 

[great things]

was trying for the 810 plan. having a bad time trying to do it.

 

[*Shanny*]

was trying for the 810 plan. having a bad time trying to do it.

your doing fine.. your liquid intake is good.!

stop doubting yourself and keep going xx

 

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it's just weigh day tomorrow and i've not been 100% brill this week and this is my last ditch attempt to loose anything i can, anything more, before weigh day.

 

[Surfhunny]

What's with the zumba people with one trouser leg rolled up? Am I missing something lol

 

[great things]

not sure. fashion? lots of their trousers have the ability for you to put up one or both legs. just been looking at the bottoms.

 

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flaming mess up.

had cottage cheese and salad with a very small slice of the kids bread. the cheesy bread when in the bin as i had one more nibble and thought i can't continue with doing this.

then i cooked hubby tea and grabbed a couple of nachos. then i walked away and sat down with my computer.

so probably had more a 1000 day in a sense than an 810 day. i have had 3 cd products as i just 'needed' a bar or i was going to kill someone.

so basically an 810 day with a few picks at stuff, making it 1000. still under my BMR by around 500 cals.

i've also had a week without booze. no wine for me this week.

 

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food continued

full recap....

2 coffees
3 pints of water
1 dr pepper zero
1 cd choc shake
1 veg flavouring
1 nibble of the kids cheese bread bun (opps) almost on plan, not quite yet.

2 more pints of water
1 cd porridge
2 cups of coffee (decaf)
1 can of dr pepper zero
baby bell cheese. (opps) just feeling mega hungry today.

3 more pints of water
1 cd bar
2 more decaf coffees
3 more cans of dr pepper zero
about 4 nachos
salad and cottage cheese
small slice of kids bread (small loaf)

 

[Surfhunny]

Sounds like you're doing fine Hun! Being on those 2 plans is tough because you're allowed a bit of food so picking is easier than if you weren't allowed any. The good thing is you're aware of what's going in your mouth and it's not all unconscious eating. good luck on the scales tomorrow.

 

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thanks

i think the 1000 is harder than the 810. that is because when i do 810 i am still in ketosis and i do not snack on carbs in anyway shape or form. when i'm on the 1000 i'm out of ketosis and i'm more likely to snack. so hard.

 

[Surfhunny]

You're right about that, as soon as the hunger kicks in I'm stuffed.

 

[great things]

the daft thing is that i'm not hungry on the 1000 when i follow it. i just start picking a few days in regardless. it's mad!

 

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bed time i think. 22.11pm lets see what weigh day says. i hope it's a good one. please

 

[*Shanny*]

Night night best of luck tomorrow xx

 

[Surfhunny]

Night and good luck tomorrow xx

 

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well i think i've lost a measly 1lb, but better off than on. i'll see with weigh in.

 

[*Shanny*]

Morning Nikki here's to a fresh week.. for you.!!

 

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just changed my ticker to match my scales. i'm usually the same on hers but sometimes depending on my clothes i can be 1/4lb different. not much but enough to make it one or the other. i'l take the lowest reading thanks very much. so anal!