cherry i look forward to seeing you back on monday
sandra you are right about being able to get the gain off in no time, i managed to shift a whole 2lb over night
the kids and i went to my parents for dinner (i had a vanilla shake) my mum done home made mince beef and onion pie with mash and veg, it was so tempting but i didnt even as much as smell it, so very pleased to be back to 100% again. although im really fed up with myself for faffing about a few times over the last 9 weeks. i could have been half a stone or more lighter by now if i had just stayed focussed like in the first few weeks
i know that iv acheived a huge thing by losing 3 stone already but it still niggles at me that i could have been so much further along than i am.
i had my hair cut this afternoon. that felt good
iv sold loads of size 20 22 and 24 clothes on ebay and made about £100 after posting costs. iv ordered a couple of jumpers a cardi some tops and 2 pairs of jeans from ebay to treat myself. i havent worn jeans for about 3 years because i cant stand them cutting into me and having that big shelf over the waist. just hope they fit nice when they arrive! i have decided to keep some of the money i made in paypal and ass i sell more clothes ill add to the paypal and maybe try exante? (they accept paypal) i am thinking of moving to exante next month. i cant see any difference apart from more variation in flavours and having no pharmacist to visit? i weigh myself at home so i dont need the pharmacist assisitant who annoys me somthing chronic anyway. i would love to be able to have a banana, choc, strawberry or vanilla shake for breakfast and then have a choice of soups for dinner and a bar some days for lunch. oh i dont know?
feel a bit deflated, even though i should be bubbly and determined i just feel bogged down tonight.
havent managed much water either. drank my 1.5 litre and had extra 400ml in my shakes but the other 1.5 litr of water is sitting on my bedside table while i surf the net, if i drink any more now ill be up 5 times in the night to pee
i really need to go to sleep so im off.
hope the scales are moving in the right direction over the weekend so that i can come close to my goal for this week which is to be bmi of 35.1. i wanted to be out of super obese range and down to bmi of 35 which is top end of 'obese' by week 11 and be 4stone off by week 12 (i need to be down to 13 stone 4.3 lb).
i can only try my best, would be nice to have something to keep the motivation going
Night x