Hellloooooooooo I'm so rubbish at getting on here lately. I just seem to have a million other things to get done, and I don't seem to have time to scratch myself.
But I need to make more time for me, and do the things that I wanna do.
I can not train at the moment. I've hurt my back oh yet again!!! It's so frustrating, because my head is finally starting to get back into the right head space, and I really have a new determination to get things done.
I've got 38 days until we go to Egypt for 2 weeks. So I want to get back down to 12 stone. Which is 1 stone 3.4lbs away.
I've just finished off all the premade Cambridge diet shakes that I have, and I've got some premade slim fasts, and I am having other packs of slim and save. ( shakes, bars and meals)
I'm actually quite liking the meals that they do. They are in packets that you have to add water to and cook them in a microwave, but they are quite nice. Small but quite nice.
I've decided to do a MEal replacement diet again because in 5 weeks I am going away on an all inclusive holiday for 2 weeks. I want to shrink my tummy so that I don't eat so much. ( I know that it's a pretty crappy excuse but I really don't want to eat that much, I know I can mentally stop but you get that oh I'm on holiday I'll be fine etc) so I'm on that for the next 6 weeks ( well when I started it was 6 weeks)
So far so good.
Started the week (Wednesday with the heaviest I've been for a long time!!!!! 13 stone 8lbs.) now being sat morning ( and only 3 ish days into it) I've lost 4.2lbs.
I am having a premade shake for breakfast ( which I have now run out of) maybe one for lunch, but will have a packet one instead now. And then one of the meals for dinner. And a bar.
It's been pretty easy so far, and being so busy has been super. Work I would say has to be the hardest part, because I don't like to talk about being on a meal replacement diet. I guess being in a leisure centre I have to hide it because I'm ashamed. I think also it's a bit of I don't want to listen to the oh that's just gonna make you worse and you are gonna gain it all back ( which has happened like that so far) but that's not because I have gone back to eating food, it's gone like that because I am back to the lazy person who has every excuse in the book to be sitting on the sofa and not on the treadmill. I'm also just eating crap. I let things slip and I don't think it's because I went from doing the Cambridge diet and then eating again, it's because I just went back into bad habits and it would have happened even if I didn't do the Cambridge.
I mentally need to get back into the right head space, and I'm working on that.
I have the support of my husband who has been amazing. He has been behind me the whole way through, and I can not believe I have him. I'm so lucky. And I wanna make him proud.
When we get back from Egypt, it's then 60 days untill I go back to Australia. Which I will do my hardest I can at getting towards my goal, but my main aim is going towards my fitness again.
The laziness has made my fitness to pretty much nothing again, so I need to bring this back up.
I need to start again, but I'm being held back by my back. But as soon as it's right I will get back into it.
Hope everyone on here is ok and getting on with their journey.