Thanks very much everyone!
I could feel myself slipping and I never let myself slip I always put in 100%!!!!
This is my job:
I'm the Senior Leisure Attendant in a Hotel Gym. There's a pool, jacuzzi, sauna, steam room and 2 gyms. I'm a lifeguard but I don't have to stay stationery as the pool isn't large enough but it's deep enough to warrant a lifeguard.
We aren't allowed to leave as we are lone workers so do not get breaks as we are the only qualified people in the building. We observe everyone from behind monitors from behind a desk. I clean everything and do chemical pool tests.
I get paid 22p above minimum wage and I handle all of the finance, admin, health and safety, COSHH, outreach and email enquiries, I built the website for The company too. I am also the membership sales manager and conduct frequent audits. We have a beautician and I do all of her accounts, her offer charts and book her clients in.
My manager gets paid over triple my wage, works 4 days a week (mon-thurs) hasn't worked a weekend for nearly 12 years and moans about how I don't do enough when I'm in! She always looks cross/disappointed in me and rings me up out of hours on my days off and on hol (inc France) to tell me off & guilt trip me. On a weekend If something goes wrong I'm rung first not her because she hates being disturbed. I'm very close to the beautician and going to her wedding this year- but my boss and her side together and pick at The clothes I wear, what I eat, my relationship with my OH and 'why aren't you married/engaged yet!?'
My boss takes every school holiday off and goes abroad and under no circumstances are we allowed to ring- this is when the weekend staff run riot and I struggle to control it all! My boss has a miscarriage in August and I managed to get an early flight back from where I was to support her yet I don't get anything back!
My parents have been members 15 years+ and my brother is also part of the weekend staff- I have known my boss and the beautician since I was 10 so feel quite attached to them. They know I have had problems with my mental health and anxiety when my flatmate was I'll and my grandma died. I desperately needed someone to talk to but they'd just move it onto the next dress they were gonna buy. I don't get sick pay and I when I was in hospital before Xmas I got shouted at when I was in hospital and made to come in the next day where I got accused of being lazy!
Yet I feel guilty for leaving and can't bring myself to do it!!!! 6.30 an hour and I can barely live- I only took reception to put food in the cupboards!!!
Sorry it's so long :'( I've never told anyone this :'(
Ruth
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