Just read back over my diary to try and found this post... I need to get back thinking this way -
"I would be lying it I said Im finding it easy... Im not but I just realised I can keep making excuses for myself or I can just get on with it. We can all blame hundreds of things for why we got overweight but truthfully (unless medical) there is only one person to blame and thats us, I put the food in my mouth, be it comfort eating, greedy whatever... it was me who made the choice to eat it and now I can either keep making excuses, keep cheating and just perlong this... or I can get my head back in the game and focus on why Im doing this and what the end goal is.
Everytime I see the scales go down, it makes me feel a hell of a lot better then eating the bad food Ive refused would have. If I cheat, I feel guilty, get angry with myself, regret eating it... whats the enjoyment in that? If I turn it down and see the scales dropping, I feel proud of myself, feel a tiny bit more happy in my own skin and most importantly... it rebuilds my confidence, makes it easier to walk down the street with my head held high... I will now happily walk through a group of lads, before if I saw a group of lads, I would do my best to avoid walking through the middle of them or near them, with the hope they wouldnt comment on the fat girl, stupid huh? But thats how low my confidence was.
We can all say "tomorrow I will be good" "tomorrow I will restart" but tomorrow can be a day, a week, a month, a year... tomorrow can just keep getting pushed back and back until it never comes and until you have wasted your life waiting for tomorrow to make a change.
You just have to look through this forum to see what amazing weight loses people make, people who probably thought they would always be overweight, we can all do this, we just need to want it enough and face up to the reality of it and stop making excuses, Im the worse for this but thats gotta change, no more excuses!"