Sammy's Journey - this time I WILL do it!

[tubbynomore]

I didn't dare do AAM but I had a few WS days which were enough! I don't think I'd stop if I were eating every day!
A month without weighing I can't manage to the end of the week lol.

 

[SammyE]

TS is getting easier, come on the 10's

Been feeling a bit crappy recently, as per usual its linked to a man... fed of being friendlined (like sidelined... but put in the "friend" bracket) so despite making all sorts of promises to me, booking stuff up with him, he has decided we are "best friends" and he has met someone else... and that all the plans we made need to be cancelled but "we are still friends right? I dont want to lose u as a friend" urghh jog on sunshine! Men suck! but hey ho... not going to waste anymore time on feeling down about him, no doubt he will come crawling back when the latest pretty skinny thing gets bored with him or proves to be too much hard work and I will tell him where to go!

 

[tubbynomore]

Some 'friend' he is!!!! Kick him into touch hun you deserve to be treated better than that.
You will be the skinny minnie walking on a handsome guy's arm you will pick up at a Christmas do Great way to celebrate getting to goal, get out there and enjoy single life. Something to aim for...

 

[precious]

Oh Hun massive hugs darling! Men hey really r something else. Stay strong my lovely hugs x x

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[DustQueen]

TS is getting easier, come on the 10's

Been feeling a bit crappy recently, as per usual its linked to a man... fed of being friendlined (like sidelined... but put in the "friend" bracket) so despite making all sorts of promises to me, booking stuff up with him, he has decided we are "best friends" and he has met someone else... and that all the plans we made need to be cancelled but "we are still friends right? I dont want to lose u as a friend" urghh jog on sunshine! Men suck! but hey ho... not going to waste anymore time on feeling down about him, no doubt he will come crawling back when the latest pretty skinny thing gets bored with him or proves to be too much hard work and I will tell him where to go!

Sod him babe you don't need or deserve to be anyone's second choice sod the stupid idiot x

 

[precious]

Hey sammye where r u lovely??? Hope ur well come on back lovely I'm struggling AGAIN lol x x

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[SammyE]

Back again! Pretty sure none of the people I used to know on here are still lurking around though

Thought I would up this post rather then start a whole new one.... I nearly got to goal, I put weight on, I lost weight, I lost it, gained it, round and round that story goes, now I am back to where I originally was, just shy of 16 stone I have dipped in and out of exante, ive done slimming world, weight watchers, stuffed my face with kebab, myfitnesspal, I reckon if we take into account the original nearly 5 stone I lost and the weight I have lost after gaining since the original post on this diary, I must have lost about 10 - 12 stone, which is even more scary when you think I've got back up to nearly 16 stone!

I was just below 11 stone when I first took my big fall from the diet wagon, I guess I kind of got swept away with all the compliments, started dating someone who is a big eater and drinker, I managed to stay around 12 stone for a couple of years before wham I gained 2 stone in a few months, I'm just so fed up of being this size, untagging myself in pictures, even my wedding photos, I untagged the majority I was tagged in!

I think my biggest mistake though was becoming comfortable, "ahh it doesn't matter that Ive gained a stone, I'll go back on exante for a few weeks and lose that" then Id try for a day or two and keep cheating, I might managed a week before I got tempted with a take away or wine (usually both) I also didn't wean myself back into, I went from shakes to takeaways literally over night.

Things that have changed from last time, my goal weight, 126lbs - 9 stone which would of seen me in a size 8 - 10 lets be honest now... not a chance in hell, why do I want to be thin, why is thin so important? So I am upping that goal to somewhere between 10 stone and 10 stone 7lbs which should see me in a size 12, I was a comfortable size 14 at 11 and a half stone so another stone to a stone and a half should see me a size 12, I'll be happy with that.

Anyways! I have ordered a 6 week supply of shakes and bars, lets do this again....

 

[aloize]

Hi sammy

 

[Darcy15]

Hello Sammy

 

[sybersadie]

Welcome and good luck.

 

[Darcy15]

How's it going?

 

[SammyE]

Thank you for all the welcome messages

I am doing ok so far, I am doing simply solution at the moment to use up all the fresh veg and stuff I had in, hate throwing stuff away, am trying to get my water intake back up but it was always something I struggled with, probably managing about 3 pints at the moment, need to try and get it up to 5 pints really, will go to total solution next week.

 

[SammyE]

1st day of total solution done and I'm not going to lie, I am absolutely starving! I forgot how hard the first few days can be, my stomach is hurting, Ive drunk about 6 pints of water today, I think I might try and have two bars and a shake tomorrow instead of two shakes and a bar and then split each bar into two just until I get over the worse of the hunger pains, ketosis cant come soon enough!

 

[Darcy15]

How's it going Sammy?

 

[SammyE]

Almost got through day 2 of total solution, been doing ok on the water, had 7 pints and Ive managed to split my food out over the day, I had the second part of my evening bar at 8 so hopefully I'll go to bed before I get hungry again.

I've had a pretty quiet day today, was off work so just sat watching Netflix all day lol, watched a film called the testament of youth and ohmygod I was sobbing! haha, what a mess.

My husbands away at the moment with work so its just me and the dog, which is making it really easy to stick to the diet because I haven't got anything else in the house, not sure how I will feel when I'm having to cook for my husband, he is a nightmare, because he has a really active job and does lots of sport so he can get away with eating badly, but I cant and I don't have the willpower to say no or cook myself something else, its so difficult, I'll try and cook something healthy and then he will come home with some drink and before I know it, its 10pm and he is ordering a pizza, I'll say no at first but will have changed my mind before he finished placing the order and would end up having a small pizza... and some cheesy chips then I'm a 16 stone lump and crying into my milkshake over a soppy film lol

I cant believe when I first started this post I was 28 and now I am 34, scary! I started so many good habits when I first lost the weight, I had started to run and was doing gym classes, spin etc, I was exercising pretty much daily until I met my now husband, I do need to start that back up and shifting a few stone will certainly make exercising a bit easier.

Hope everyone else has had a good week and stay strong for the weekend!

 

[SammyE]

Last night was awful, my stomach was rumbling so much to the point where it was hurting so I couldn't sleep, I was awake until about 1am but oh well!

Woke up feeling crazy hungry too but had a pint of water before having my bar and only had half of it, I'm trying to get out of eating because its breakfast time or lunch time etc and only eat when I am hungry and also only eat until I am no longer hungry not until I am stuffed full, portion size is a huge thing for me, I'm just a pig basically haha.

I am really hoping for a good loss this week to spur me on!

Ive done myself a spreadsheet (because I'm a geek) to put all my weigh ins and measurements into, but I also worked out how much weight I could lose if I can manage to lose a stone in the first 2 weeks and then lose an average of 3lbs each week, I could lose 5 stone in 20 weeks but I do have a couple of days out and a wedding during that time which will push me off of TS but hopefully if I can stick to it 100% the rest of the time that will limit the damage too much

 

[sybersadie]

I always go to bed with a mug of Twinnings "sleep tea" - it fills my tummy up and stops the stomach rumbling which will def keep me awake.

Hope your day is good.

 

[Darcy15]

Have a good day Sammy

 

[SammyE]

I'll give that a go Sadie, thanks

So today didn't start that great as I felt really rubbish but once I had finished my first bar I started to feel loads better, I didn't feel hungry again until about 3:30, when I had the pancakes which were ok I guess... and I have only just had the first part of my evening bar, I wasn't really feeling hungry so fingers crossed this means the starving feeling is finished.

My husband is away with work so I received my valentines present today which was roses and chocolates, so the chocolates got very quickly put into the back of a cupboard well out of view I think that is the hardest part about this diet, if you bend it, its not worth doing, you can't just have a cheat if you want the diet to work and work quickly and I want it to work quickly, last time the weight would be flying off, then I would slip up and I'd go back and forth losing the same half a stone, regaining, losing and so on, I don't want to do that this time, it just makes it harder for me to be going in and out of ketosis, gaining and losing the same weight, makes you feel like you aren't getting anywhere!

If I'm totally honest I'm not worried about doing the diet, I can lose weight once I put my mind to it, I'm good at losing weight... but I'm rubbish at keeping the weight off, so I really need to work out what I am going to do once I get to goal, why put myself through months of this just to end up in the exact same position again, it needs to be something I am willing to stick too, I had a personal trainer at the gym who used to say only make changes you are willing to do for life.

I guess at first I need to fully understand where I went wrong, I need to understand what my biggest downfulls were and then try to find a way to get around them or over come them, easier said then done huh?

 

[SammyE]

9lbs off this week! Really happy with that, I'll be back in the 14's before much longer.

It might be a really difficult diet to stick at but you don't get results like that on many other diets