Hey hun,
Just caught up with the last few days. Don't be shy about posting in my diary hun, the more the merrier and its always lovely to hear from you!
Glad the pollution is a lot better now, sounded quite scary with the health warnings and stuff. Lucky you with your Eiffel tower view back. I
WISH it was smoggy at my work to hide the scruffy looking tower block over the road!
Can completely understand where you're coming from with the pregnancy stuff. You might be only 23 but you seem really settled with your partner and if that's what you really want then go for it. It's your decision to make at the end of the day, so don't be put off by the 'too early' comments, it's not like you're 16 or something and unable to support yourself and the baby. I agree though that waiting until you're a healthy weight before getting pregnant is probably the best way to go, much lower risks for you and baby.
I'm sooo broody at the moment and when I see my friends having babies I feel kinda jealous, of course I'm happy for them but I want that soo much it hurts sometimes! I'm 28 atm and if it wasn't for the fact I'm in the middle of a career change (to be a sonographer ironically!
) I'd love to get pregnant. It sometimes seems a lifetime away thinking I'll be 31/32 before I can try for a baby (when my training is over), but then I look at the bigger picture and think we'll be married, have bought our own place and I'll finally be doing a job I love. So for me its the right decision to wait, but it still hasn't stopped me wanting a baby like mad. I've looked into it and fertility is only slightly lower before 35 than in the late 20's anyway, plus I'll be a healthy weight by then, so it makes sense all around to wait, but just tell that to my inner broody mama!
Anyway, sorry for going on. I just know what that broody feeling is like!
As for the anonymity thing, I guess I don't really care if anyone from my real life finds my diary. They'd have seen me so known how fat I was before, and if anyone judges me for that then screw them really. I'm trying to change my life for the better so I think anyone who tries to knock that says more about themselves than it does about me. I completely get why people would want to stay anonymous though, I did too when I started!
Hope you have a good time tonight. I hate it when you feel obligated to go to things and you don't really feel like it. Sometimes it turns into a really good night though! x