Sick of carrying 2 hitch hikers about, so this is my diary
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beckyn22
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:bighug: :bighug: :bighug: Dearest Lily please take comfort in the fact that you are everything your mother was not. Your loveability and general amazingness shines out in every post (sorry to gush but 'tis true!). I feel so angry with your sister - and to do this at this time beggars belief. I am so sorry you are going through so much rubbish but there are rainbows amongst the clouds like Mark's brilliant opportunity, your family and the holiday and your amazing losses this month, little Lyla, Kirsty's little one on the way. I hope you are feeling a bit better. You are very loved by many, many people; even those of us who have never met you :bighug: xxxxxxxxx
Purple Patsy
Gold Member
:bighug:Hun, thinking of you. Hope you're doing OKish through it all. :bighug:
EmmyR1984
Gold Member
I honestly couldn't have said it any better
Words can't describe how I feel for you right now, but just know sweetie that we are all here and think the world of you for being the amazing woman that we have come to know and think so much of :bighug:
Words can't describe how I feel for you right now, but just know sweetie that we are all here and think the world of you for being the amazing woman that we have come to know and think so much of :bighug:
Lily42uk
Gold Member
Thank you sweetie :hug99:xxx
Thank you hun, look forward to your call :hug99: xxx
Thank you hun :hug99: xxxx
Thank you sweetie :hug99: xxx
Thank you sweetie :hug99:xxx
Thank you Patsy, you don't need to say anymore :hug99: xxx
Thank you hun :hug99: xxx
Aww Becky you really know how to make a girl cry, thank you so much for the lovely words :hug99: xxxx
Thanks again Patsy sweetie :hug99:xxx
Thank you sweetie I have done exactly that :hug99: xxx
Aww thank you Emmy, another one...you guys really know how to make an emotional wreck cry lol ...thank you all you are all ...each and everyone of you very very special to me :hug99: xxxx
Lily42uk
Gold Member
Hello everyone, I will start with my wi in tonight and I gained a hefty 7.5lbs this week and I am actually surprised ti wasn't more....I had given up and wasn't going to continue with my weight loss ...until last night....then I watched the channel 4 programme last night Ruby Wax's Mad Confession.....I honestly sat right through the programme with my mouth wide open, she was discussing me ...I thought....everything she and the others on there said, applied to me and she also pointed out a few things that I hadn't gotten my head around.....I think...No I know my problem has always been that I haven't allowed myself to have bad days ...I have always felt I had to be strong and let go of the past instead of embracing what I went through and accepting that I will have bad days and even allow myself to have them....I have just got off the phone to my sister yet again and she said to me that's exactly what I have been telling you but not in those words lol...I don't expect that I will suddenly turn everything around and be fine next time something comes along that upsets me, but I am feeling more confident that I will be able to cut myself some slack in the future.....Thank you all for your support,I have read each message as you have posted them on my Android phone, but until now didn't feel able to respond coherently.
I still feel a little tearful but Kelly and Kirsty both gave me big hugs and told me that my mother may not have cared for me but they knew I loved them and they love me back and in Kelly's words..and some :cry: that got me crying again but in a good way.
So now I need to knuckle down and get going with the weight loss again, thankfully I didn't gain as much as I thought I would as believe me if it wasn't nailed down this week I ate it ......I ate a large pack of Chocolate digestives in one sitting...crying my eyes out as I shoved biscuit by biscuit into my gob....I have gone back over 19.5st again but only just ....I want to lose another stone b efore we go away on 24th of August so I have 1 month exactly to get it off....
I am shattered and haven't slept at all well the last couple of weeks, dozing off about 5-6am and being up again by 9-9.30am .....so I am going to do an hours exercise and then try to go to bed....I am off to Windsor with my sister and niece and sister in law tomorrow, my niece is the last of that generation to turn 21 this year and she is arranging for 45 of us her family and close friends to stay in a hotel in Windsor and we are also going to book a restaurant, can't remember what the restaurant is called but it's a Greek Restaurant close to the Castle and my sisters neighbours husband is one of the musicians there....because there are a lot of us we are getting a great deal with the hotel, 2 nights would normally be £170 for 2 of us, but because we are booking so many rooms they are charging us £120 for the rooms for 2 nights and throwing in bed and breakfast too.....so my sister wants me to go with her so that I can say if the rooms are ok with my back problem and if the stairs are manageable for me at the restaurant, as we are such a large party they have opened the upstairs dining room...so going to check that all out tomorrow,.....hopefully once I am back from that I will be able to come back and catch up...but thank you all again so much for your love and kindness :hug99: :sign0168: xxxx
I still feel a little tearful but Kelly and Kirsty both gave me big hugs and told me that my mother may not have cared for me but they knew I loved them and they love me back and in Kelly's words..and some :cry: that got me crying again but in a good way.
So now I need to knuckle down and get going with the weight loss again, thankfully I didn't gain as much as I thought I would as believe me if it wasn't nailed down this week I ate it ......I ate a large pack of Chocolate digestives in one sitting...crying my eyes out as I shoved biscuit by biscuit into my gob....I have gone back over 19.5st again but only just ....I want to lose another stone b efore we go away on 24th of August so I have 1 month exactly to get it off....
I am shattered and haven't slept at all well the last couple of weeks, dozing off about 5-6am and being up again by 9-9.30am .....so I am going to do an hours exercise and then try to go to bed....I am off to Windsor with my sister and niece and sister in law tomorrow, my niece is the last of that generation to turn 21 this year and she is arranging for 45 of us her family and close friends to stay in a hotel in Windsor and we are also going to book a restaurant, can't remember what the restaurant is called but it's a Greek Restaurant close to the Castle and my sisters neighbours husband is one of the musicians there....because there are a lot of us we are getting a great deal with the hotel, 2 nights would normally be £170 for 2 of us, but because we are booking so many rooms they are charging us £120 for the rooms for 2 nights and throwing in bed and breakfast too.....so my sister wants me to go with her so that I can say if the rooms are ok with my back problem and if the stairs are manageable for me at the restaurant, as we are such a large party they have opened the upstairs dining room...so going to check that all out tomorrow,.....hopefully once I am back from that I will be able to come back and catch up...but thank you all again so much for your love and kindness :hug99: :sign0168: xxxx
Lily42uk
Gold Member
Thank you Dawn you don't know how much I appreciate all your love and concern, it really means a lot to me :hug99: xxx
lsf666
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Glad you're back Lily x
I watched Ruby Wax too (most of it - fell asleep) and it was great. She's inspirational the way she's talked about everything to help others. And I bet she'd love to know that you were affected too.
Glad you're back on it
:bighug:
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I watched Ruby Wax too (most of it - fell asleep) and it was great. She's inspirational the way she's talked about everything to help others. And I bet she'd love to know that you were affected too.
Glad you're back on it
:bighug:
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broadsbean
Gold Member
hello lily good to see you back xxx
strength is all well and good, but staying that way 24/7 365 days a yr is what has got us in the mess we are in. it has taken me 9 mts of counselling to finely accept that showing weakness is not shameful .
your girls are so right you have risen above your childhood broken the cycle and shown your mother how it is done
i hope your not freting that gain cos it does not define you, its a mere blip on the journey you have come so far on.
hope the rooms are suitable cos it sounds like it would be a really nice weekend xxxx
strength is all well and good, but staying that way 24/7 365 days a yr is what has got us in the mess we are in. it has taken me 9 mts of counselling to finely accept that showing weakness is not shameful .
your girls are so right you have risen above your childhood broken the cycle and shown your mother how it is done
i hope your not freting that gain cos it does not define you, its a mere blip on the journey you have come so far on.
hope the rooms are suitable cos it sounds like it would be a really nice weekend xxxx
Purple Patsy
Gold Member
Oh the timing of the new challenge could not be better for you hun and you'll get back to it with a vengeance, you know you can do it and as Mandy says this past week has just been a blip. Onwards and downwards lovely lady and we are all here to help you if required. Hope you get a lovely nights rest lovely Lily.
Purple Patsy
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Afternoon Lily. Hope Wednesday is being kind to you.
