Sick of carrying 2 hitch hikers about, so this is my diary

[broadsbean]

every cloud has a silver lining Lily and yours is your family all pulling together :family2::553: bet the party was muuuuuuuuuuch better.
hope you all had a good time xxxx

 

[Lily42uk]

Hi everyone,
We had such a good night it was so much fun, shame the time passed so quick though, before we knew it it was 1.30am lol
Had a lovely meal, bought spit roast chickens from Morrisons, had that with a lovely salad, rice and natural yoghurt and a few SW chips...others not following the plan had Pizza and Garlic bread too, but I must admit I fell at the final post, after being so good I just couldn't resist the marshmallows and the chocolate fountain..had at least 6 covered in lovely melted Galaxy lol...am hoping the dancing worked it off though ...but you know what it was a special night so I am going to forgive myself lol, and to top it all we have a 21st to go to next Saturday night, but I really don't know if I can resist the cakes the birthday boys mum makes omg they are just so delish, maybe allow for just 1 lol and then get Mal to clamp my mouth shut lol
Been a funny day today, ate really well, but we ended up spending most of it at my brothers, not seen him for a few months as he is really busy with his business and we are busy a lot too, but he offered Mal a part time driving job...YESSSSSSS I have hated most of the last 18 months of him being at home...not all of it ...but I am someone who needs my space and having him under my feet 24/7 has been driving both of us mad ....it's just a couple of days a week, but it is going to be such a welcome break for all of us...I am so excited and I think Mal is too to be honest.
Hope you all had a fab day, will catch up with your diary's as I can xx

 

[Lily42uk]

Today's menu:

EE

Breakfast:
2 x Wholemeal Bread (Hexb)
Spread 1 syn
Bacon
Fruit Salad (Orange, Plum, Pear, Strawberries)
Coffee 1.5 syns
Water (1 pint)

Mid Morning:
Fruit Salad (as above)
Yoghurt 0.5 syns

Lunch:
Minestrone Soup
Water (1 pint)

Mid Afternoon:
Nectarine
2 x plums

Dinner :
Tagliatelle & loads of fresh herbs from the garden
Gammon
Laughing Cow + 100ml water to make cheese sauce (Hexa)
Mixed Salad




Extras:
Marshmallows x 3 = 3syns

Total for today = 6 syns

 

[WelshJojo]

Hi everyone,
We had such a good night it was so much fun, shame the time passed so quick though, before we knew it it was 1.30am lol
Had a lovely meal, bought spit roast chickens from Morrisons, had that with a lovely salad, rice and natural yoghurt and a few SW chips...others not following the plan had Pizza and Garlic bread too, but I must admit I fell at the final post, after being so good I just couldn't resist the marshmallows and the chocolate fountain..had at least 6 covered in lovely melted Galaxy lol...am hoping the dancing worked it off though ...but you know what it was a special night so I am going to forgive myself lol, and to top it all we have a 21st to go to next Saturday night, but I really don't know if I can resist the cakes the birthday boys mum makes omg they are just so delish, maybe allow for just 1 lol and then get Mal to clamp my mouth shut lol
Been a funny day today, ate really well, but we ended up spending most of it at my brothers, not seen him for a few months as he is really busy with his business and we are busy a lot too, but he offered Mal a part time driving job...YESSSSSSS I have hated most of the last 18 months of him being at home...not all of it ...but I am someone who needs my space and having him under my feet 24/7 has been driving both of us mad ....it's just a couple of days a week, but it is going to be such a welcome break for all of us...I am so excited and I think Mal is too to be honest.
Hope you all had a fab day, will catch up with your diary's as I can xx

Wow!! Sounds like you had an awesome night!! xx

http://www.minimins.com/slimming-world-weight-loss-diary/187905-jos-journey-infinity-beyond.html

 

[Lily42uk]

Wow!! Sounds like you had an awesome night!! xx

http://www.minimins.com/slimming-world-weight-loss-diary/187905-jos-journey-infinity-beyond.html

It was such fun, forgot how nice some of my family are and what fun they are to be around lol
I danced almost solidly for 2 hours (just call me sweaty Betty lol) and then about 11pm my sister decided to get pads and pens out and we ended up playing group Pictionary lol and then we divided into 3 teams of 5 ...was absolutely hilarious lol
Was loads of lovely food...didn't mention all the goodies that were there, mainly cos I didn't touch any of them other than the 6 Marshmallows and Chocolate fountain oops lol
Could have been worse though, my niece who actually goes to same SW group as me wasn't quite as concerned as I was and it's her boyfriends 21st next week end that I mentioned above ...she is really going to struggle the next couple of weeks ...I have decided to pop in say happy birthday and run, I have tried his mum's cakes and they really are irresistible lol xx

 

[LoChan1984]

Mmm marshmallows lol Sounds like a lovely day and why not have a few treats. We don't want no depravation

Think I'll get some marshmallows myself, I was going to make some s'mores soon as I've ordered some graham crackers from t'internet - super sweet treat :drool:

Great news about the part-time work for y'hubby. Hope you enjoy the extra you-time

 

[LittleFlutterby]

*sneaks in like a ninja*

*pounces on lily*

hiiiiiiiiiiii

 

[WelshJojo]

It was such fun, forgot how nice some of my family are and what fun they are to be around lol
I danced almost solidly for 2 hours (just call me sweaty Betty lol) and then about 11pm my sister decided to get pads and pens out and we ended up playing group Pictionary lol and then we divided into 3 teams of 5 ...was absolutely hilarious lol
Was loads of lovely food...didn't mention all the goodies that were there, mainly cos I didn't touch any of them other than the 6 Marshmallows and Chocolate fountain oops lol
Could have been worse though, my niece who actually goes to same SW group as me wasn't quite as concerned as I was and it's her boyfriends 21st next week end that I mentioned above ...she is really going to struggle the next couple of weeks ...I have decided to pop in say happy birthday and run, I have tried his mum's cakes and they really are irresistible lol xx

Well have a party like that when we all reach target xxx

http://www.minimins.com/slimming-world-weight-loss-diary/187905-jos-journey-infinity-beyond.html

 

[Lily42uk]

Mmm marshmallows lol Sounds like a lovely day and why not have a few treats. We don't want no depravation

Think I'll get some marshmallows myself, I was going to make some s'mores soon as I've ordered some graham crackers from t'internet - super sweet treat :drool:

Great news about the part-time work for y'hubby. Hope you enjoy the extra you-time

Oh god marshmallows are definitely my achilles heel, I just cannot resist them, fine when they are in the shops, don't need to go where they are lurking, but indoors and open, my body just has a mind of it's own and I am certain my hand does too...so consequently, I brought the half eaten bag of marshmallows home ...why???????....and I have eaten the rest, not a clue how many were there could have been 5 could have been 20 ...oh well they are now gone so that's it.
Great news about hubby was really looking forward to a day of peace and quiet but no Son in law 2 is here, off sick today, and while he is up in their room, I don't feel liberated, can't go to loo and leave the door open same with the bath, can't walk about butt naked, not that I would but you never know what will take my fancy...hope he's back at work tomorrow cos hubby is working then too...just need me time lol
Hope you're having a great day hun xx

*sneaks in like a ninja*

*pounces on lily*

hiiiiiiiiiiii

ooohhh who's that jumping on me back......oh it's you sweetie...yeahhhh nice to have you back...look >>>>>>>>I even dusted the hidey hole for you xx

Well have a party like that when we all reach target xxx

http://www.minimins.com/slimming-world-weight-loss-diary/187905-jos-journey-infinity-beyond.html

Can't wait, definitely up for that ...hope you're ok hun, got loads of catching up to do today lol xx

 

[Lily42uk]

I had a really great eye opening day yesterday, has made me feel so good about myself and really strong...a major breakthrough is what I'd call it .
Very long story short, had a crap childhood, one of 7 children who through a crap home life didn't really know each other. As I said in a post on Jane's diary, one of my brothers took his own life because of it, which left 6 siblings, we are divided into 2 groups them and us...there are those 3 who accept what went on and have learned to forgive our parents and see them and carry on pretending it never happened and then there are me, my eldest brother and youngest sister (I was the middle child, I find it strange that the Oldest, Middle and Youngest Child have stayed close and not the other 3 ), who even though we have all in our own way forgiven them (more for our own sanity than anything else), will not ever forget the way we were treated and how they abandoned us both physically and emotionally.
Anyway as I said the 3 of us are close-ish and talk but have never really had a proper relationship as siblings, my youngest sister and I are close as we have worked really hard to build that relationship, my eldest brother, who is 6 years older than me and 11 years older than my sister, has always been very stand offish but involved if that makes sense, and consequently I have never felt able to be, not honest as I am an honest person, but never able to really vent my feelings or really get to the nitty gritty, I think because I always saw him as a father figure, or maybe because he reminds me of my dad or even just because I didn't have the confidence, who knows...but what I do know is with the changes I have made in my life I have found this confidence and I did actually tell my brother how I felt yesterday, while he is a very kind generous person, he has this forthright way about him, that really needs to be rained in some times and he needs to know that he's not ALWAYS right, so yesterday I told him just that, who me ? yes me !!! lol may not seem a great thing for some of you but for me was a massive break through, I definitely made it clear that I am not the walk over he seems to think I am and I actually feel we have gained a new kind of respect for each other. But more important to me, I have finally found a lot of respect for myself.
I knew that 2011 would be my year, I had a similar experience with my sister a few months ago, I tended to be laid back and let her take the lead and she often does, but not anymore...I WILL HAVE MY SAY AND I WILL IMPLEMENT IT TOO ...so ...I am so excited about this new me...wish it had happened when I was in my 20's but you know what it's happened...and I am going to make the very most of it every day...
Sorry going on and maybe I shouldn't have written that on here, but I really wanted to get it down how I was feeling and this way I can share with some good friends xx

 

[blubex]

Hey Lily,

I've not been off for a while so just spend about the last 3 hours catching up!!!

Love your new dinner service (had seen the plates when you posted the pix but they look even better with food on!!!)

I have been very on and off over the last week or so as lost my diet mojo completely - too busy to pop on here, couldn't be ar*ed to cook and hubby kept leading me astray!!!

 

[Lily42uk]

Hey Lily,

I've not been off for a while so just spend about the last 3 hours catching up!!!

Love your new dinner service (had seen the plates when you posted the pix but they look even better with food on!!!)

I have been very on and off over the last week or so as lost my diet mojo completely - too busy to pop on here, couldn't be ar*ed to cook and hubby kept leading me astray!!!

Thanks hun, I love the dinner service too and I totally agree they do look amazing with food on lol.
I know what you mean, been feeling a bit that way myself of late, but newly invigorated over the last few days, so am looking forward to starting anew...had a few words with my hubby about how I need him to stand by me and be strong for me and if he has to have his "goodies" then try and think so that he doesn't do it all in front of me .
But even with all that, I have eventually come back to my resolve of not letting anything stop me from losing this weight, although I do think I needed to be a little less strict and not make food my whole focus, so that's what I am trying to do now, still stick with it but be a lot more forgiving to myself ...I am one that tells everyone to forgive themselves and then I don't follow my own advice ...not any more.
Good luck hun, you know I and many others will be here with lots of support and encouragement if you need us xx

 

[JaneB]

Very pleased for you Lily that you are sorting your life out and nothing is standing in your way of you losing your weight, I do agree with you, you need not be hard on yourself about the food choices, this is a new way of life and you are doing it the healthy way so well done, I am glad you have sorted your differences with your hubby, the short break in the week away from each other will be good for you both, I am with my hubby 24/7 don't like to be parted even for an hour or two, the only time we are apart is when I go to sw class on thur morning then I rush home, its mad we don’t like to be apart, we use to work together and we lived together 24/7 for the last 31yrs, I just love it, I too am not letting anybody stop me from losing my weight, I am taking it the tortoise way and enjoying all the difference types of food along the way. Lovely to hear you enjoyed yourself and stayed on plan at the party xx

 

[broadsbean]

You sound like you had a similar upbringing to my mum, she moved away once old enougth so is quite distant with most of her siblings (she is one of 7 too).
in the last 5 yrs two of her brothers have died, so they are all trying to forge a closer relationship before its too late

My mum has always tried to ensure that our childhood would be differant and she has done exactly that, i have lots of wonderful memories and am close to my brother and sister, i in turn am hoping my children will be able to say the samething

It seems to me that dispite your childhood you are living a life full of love with a family of your own who love you and each other.
your brother will respect the new confident lily and you will be able to take your relationship onwards on an equal footing xxxx

 

[LoChan1984]

I had a really great eye opening day yesterday, has made me feel so good about myself and really strong...a major breakthrough is what I'd call it .
Very long story short, had a crap childhood, one of 7 children who through a crap home life didn't really know each other. As I said in a post on Jane's diary, one of my brothers took his own life because of it, which left 6 siblings, we are divided into 2 groups them and us...there are those 3 who accept what went on and have learned to forgive our parents and see them and carry on pretending it never happened and then there are me, my eldest brother and youngest sister (I was the middle child, I find it strange that the Oldest, Middle and Youngest Child have stayed close and not the other 3 ), who even though we have all in our own way forgiven them (more for our own sanity than anything else), will not ever forget the way we were treated and how they abandoned us both physically and emotionally.
Anyway as I said the 3 of us are close-ish and talk but have never really had a proper relationship as siblings, my youngest sister and I are close as we have worked really hard to build that relationship, my eldest brother, who is 6 years older than me and 11 years older than my sister, has always been very stand offish but involved if that makes sense, and consequently I have never felt able to be, not honest as I am an honest person, but never able to really vent my feelings or really get to the nitty gritty, I think because I always saw him as a father figure, or maybe because he reminds me of my dad or even just because I didn't have the confidence, who knows...but what I do know is with the changes I have made in my life I have found this confidence and I did actually tell my brother how I felt yesterday, while he is a very kind generous person, he has this forthright way about him, that really needs to be rained in some times and he needs to know that he's not ALWAYS right, so yesterday I told him just that, who me ? yes me !!! lol may not seem a great thing for some of you but for me was a massive break through, I definitely made it clear that I am not the walk over he seems to think I am and I actually feel we have gained a new kind of respect for each other. But more important to me, I have finally found a lot of respect for myself.
I knew that 2011 would be my year, I had a similar experience with my sister a few months ago, I tended to be laid back and let her take the lead and she often does, but not anymore...I WILL HAVE MY SAY AND I WILL IMPLEMENT IT TOO ...so ...I am so excited about this new me...wish it had happened when I was in my 20's but you know what it's happened...and I am going to make the very most of it every day...
Sorry going on and maybe I shouldn't have written that on here, but I really wanted to get it down how I was feeling and this way I can share with some good friends xx

It's a great thing to share on here - it's lovely and inspiring to hear how people's confidence is improving. It's just as important an achievement as the weight loss.

I've got my bag of marshmallows in the house now, thinking I should put them in an air-tight container then get the OH to put them on top of the kitchen cabinet so I can't reach. He'll huff about fetching them down and putting them back but if it means I can behave myself and stick to plan he'll do it for me - he's well-trained now

 

[Lily42uk]

Very pleased for you Lily that you are sorting your life out and nothing is standing in your way of you losing your weight, I do agree with you, you need not be hard on yourself about the food choices, this is a new way of life and you are doing it the healthy way so well done, I am glad you have sorted your differences with your hubby, the short break in the week away from each other will be good for you both, I am with my hubby 24/7 don't like to be parted even for an hour or two, the only time we are apart is when I go to sw class on thur morning then I rush home, its mad we don’t like to be apart, we use to work together and we lived together 24/7 for the last 31yrs, I just love it, I too am not letting anybody stop me from losing my weight, I am taking it the tortoise way and enjoying all the difference types of food along the way. Lovely to hear you enjoyed yourself and stayed on plan at the party xx

Thanks Jane,
You know I had years of counselling because of my childhood and really did think that I had become more confident, but it's not been until the last few weeks that I have realised how much I actually wasn't and how much more I needed to get out of my system and I now feel confident enough to say that I am going to be less of a push over with everything, including food!! xx

You sound like you had a similar upbringing to my mum, she moved away once old enougth so is quite distant with most of her siblings (she is one of 7 too).
in the last 5 yrs two of her brothers have died, so they are all trying to forge a closer relationship before its too late

My mum has always tried to ensure that our childhood would be differant and she has done exactly that, i have lots of wonderful memories and am close to my brother and sister, i in turn am hoping my children will be able to say the samething

It seems to me that dispite your childhood you are living a life full of love with a family of your own who love you and each other.
your brother will respect the new confident lily and you will be able to take your relationship onwards on an equal footing xxxx

Hi Mandy,
I swore my kids would never have the life that I had, and they haven't. My mother died 2 years ago and I can honestly say I felt nothing, I know already that my children will not think that of me when I go...I am very close to the family that I have...I love my husband with all my heart even if he is an ass at times and annoys me lol....and I feel that we set our children good examples, we are firm and don't accept lies and deceit, but soft enough too...we have always given them the right to have their say, all be it in a controlled way and still do...1 Sunday every month we have a "get it off your chest chat", no holds barred and no comebacks after...after all we may be related and love each other but we're human and think differently and things they do get on my nerves and vice versa, so we have it out and clear the air and my eldest daughter does the same with her children now. I asked my eldest just today if she knew how much I loved her and she replied with just 1 word...Undoubtedly...that makes me so happy.
My 2 daughters are 10 years apart in age but they are really close, they go almost everywhere together and that makes me happy too.
I am sure my brother will be no different, but I will cos now he knows that I will not just sit back and be a walk over xx

It's a great thing to share on here - it's lovely and inspiring to hear how people's confidence is improving. It's just as important an achievement as the weight loss.

I've got my bag of marshmallows in the house now, thinking I should put them in an air-tight container then get the OH to put them on top of the kitchen cabinet so I can't reach. He'll huff about fetching them down and putting them back but if it means I can behave myself and stick to plan he'll do it for me - he's well-trained now

Thanks Lo, you don't know how much that means to me, it does worry me that sometimes I share too much, I don't like to feel I make people uncomfortable ...but I just needed to get it out today as I was so happy with myself.
OMG!!! Marshamallows after what I did you should chuck them in the bin lol...I can resist chocolate, crisps, peanuts, cakes, biscuits... but put a blinking marshmallow in front of me and all my resolve goes out the window :8855:

 

[tillymax]

The party sounds fabby and I'm glad you all enjoyed it.

Well done for speaking up for yourself with your brother

We all need our space so I'm glad hubbies got a little job to get him out from under your feet :8855:

 

[Lily42uk]

The party sounds fabby and I'm glad you all enjoyed it.

Well done for speaking up for yourself with your brother

We all need our space so I'm glad hubbies got a little job to get him out from under your feet :8855:

Hi Tilly,
It was a great night, so much better than just going off to a restaurant and then going home and everyone mucked in too.
I am dead chuffed with myself and Malcy for saying to my brother well actually no....we'll do it this way, rather than just taking the easy option.
I am loving Mal working, I actually missed him today and was happy to see him when he came home, this is going to be great for both of us....the best of both worlds, 2 or 3 days a week at home and the same for work...love it xx

 

[Mrs E-H]

Hi lovely Lily never feel bad for venting especially on your own thread lol It sounds like you have had a horrible time but it also sounds like you are getting through it and dealing with it. Well done for being so confident and strong Im so proud of you
xxxx

 

[Lily42uk]

Today's menu:
Have to say, I was so carried away with stuff today, that I actually forgot all about breakfast and didn't actually eat anything until 12.30, so had fruit then and so i will work on today's menu and start with Brunch lol

EE

Coffee 1.5 syns
Banana
Peach


Brunch:
75g Wholemeal Pasta
Passata with herbs
1 Wholemeal Roll (Hexb)
2 x Laughing Cow Deli Lights (1/2 Hexa)
2 slices Sopocka Ham
Cucumber, Tomato and Chopped Spring Onion
Water (1 pint)




Mid Afternoon:
Orange
Apple
Water (1 pint)


Dinner:
Smoked Haddock
Mashed Potato (mashed with 7 floz of veg stock made with cube)
Broccoli
Carrots (from garden)
Runner beans (from garden)
Water (1 pint )



Extras:
2 x Crumble Yoghurt 1 syn
Coffee 1.5 syns
2 Ryvita 3 syns
3 x Laughing Cow Deli Lights (1/2 Hexa)

Have done 2 hours 15 mins exercise with, Water (2 pints)

Total for today = 7 syns