Hey Charley! Thanks for your concern (such a lovely way of putting it too), I'm not worried about dangerous territory... I'm way too much of a foodie for any of that! I really like what my body is becoming, but I definitely want my BMI to be somewhere in the middle of the healthy BMI range- I'm still fitting size L or XL clothes and I'm tall, so will never be 'small', but I still have a lot of tummy/bum/thigh fat to lose! I'd like to evaluate things in a stone's time, but ideally I'd like to be a size 10 top/dress and 12 bottom, and right now I'm a 14 top and 16 bottom.
I know the reason things have been slow recently- because I've been so unfocused! I've not been counting syns, measuring Hex's, I've just been doing whatever... And I think the balance I've had this year has shown me great things about what I can get away with maintaining, but I'm just not focused enough to stick 100% to Red days like I should to finish the job. I'm getting complacent and craving bad food all the time, which just didn't really happen all of last year doing SW :S it's weird! It's sad because I know if I stick to plan 100% I'd be seeing the results (guarenteed it would be slower at this stage, but still) but I just keep getting cocky and eating naughties/getting drunk
I'm not too scared about fasting three days a week as a lot of people do it (4:3 instead of 5:2) and many do ADF (Alternate Day Fasting) too, as a health choice! Fasting is healthy for the body, I know there's a fine line between fasting and annorexia, but at the same time I know that the whole fast day I'm dreaming about my treat the next day
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I was feeling a bit hyper yesterday when I wrote that, I even calculated an extra day into my week before Thursday LOL... So there won't be another chance for a fast day now until Sat, and that day I'll be hungover so won't be fasting! Sunday I am meeting a friend for drinks so probably won't do it then either! So this week is more like a 1:7
Anyway, lovely that you're looking out for me, and I kinda expected my post would raise some eyebrows, but I'm all OK dude
also, I have G watching over me, telling me off for scoffing his treats etc, he won't let me get too skinny as he likes curvy women
at this point I know I've got more to lose as he's the same height as me and he's half a stone lighter- and he's not skinny! He's slim, but I'd like to be slimmer than that
also my Wii keeps telling me it wants me to be 11st12 LOL... Douche bag wii telling me I'm not good enough still
I know what you mean about mini history lessons in films- I like that too! There wasn't much to learn from Dallas in that sense- just that they were denying products that could help because the policies on drugs in our world are ridiculous, which is still the case for a lot of things. We're allowed to smoke cigarettes and drink alchohol, two of the most poisonous, damaging drugs around, but we're not allowed mind expanding/eye opening hallucenogens that pose absolutely no risks other than mental and emotional expansion... Why? Literally because the tobacco and alcohol companies pass these laws. Dallas Buyers Club was kinda highlighting this in medical terms- they banned drugs that were helping people because they weren't earning enough from it. I hate this world sometimes! Rant over
Have been soooo noshy today :S dang. I guess deprivation of calories yesterday would naturally make me hungrier today, but it hasn't so much been hunger as cravings of nothing in particular- just wanting to snack a lot!
So far food has been like so:
RED:
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B - Nat ff yoghurt, banana
Mid morning snack - Bowl of HexB1 cereal (small part HexA1 for almond milk) +2 for golden syrup
L - stir fry of loads of random veg (peppers, bean sprouts, green beans, carrot), half a diced potato and some black beans (HexB2 for both) with some rocket and cucumber on the side and a fried egg on top (was going to add rice and make it an EE day but decided against!)
D - Will be salmon with something, probably side salad and some more beansprouts/green beans that need using up.
Snacks - 2 activia 0%, 1 babybell (the rest of HexA1), 2 packs of beef jerky (3 syns), 1 lilt zero and a pepsi max
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I'm trying to power through the cravings and keep it healthy- for lunch I wasn't really hungry but just desiring of food, so I decided to do an uber healthy thing but sadly it didn't really satisfy me so I had a yoghurt
I could well swing this around to an EE day if I want, as the beans and potato would then be free so I won't have over Hex'd... Buuuut I want to do red and feel deserving of the treat food I'll have out tomorrow at Misato and Waterstones (travel research day again with the gals I'm going to India with, and probably with G beforehand!)
I'll have some more syns later though, just get a bit freaked when I use my Hex's early as I always want sweet stuff in the eve
so will have something sweet with syns later.
Today G and I went on the grass across the road (public park/field) and basked in the sun- such a nice day! I did some rollerblading for about ten minutes too, but my calves were hurting from yesterday so I stopped. Have been doing some travel prep stuff this afternoon; I've now confirmed two more middle east shoots and we are pushing the travels back a week as it was too good a job to pass up on and I really need the money! So in the next 5 weeks I've got two trips to Dubai, one to Bahrain and then Tokyo to begin our travels at the end of it! Eeeek! Def going to be hard to lose the half a stone I'm aching to lose before I go away with all these work trips
but I'm going to try and be strict with myself while out there!
Mid-week WI tomorrow and am bloody hoping that 1lb gain is off! I've had a fast day and a good girl Red day since then (and also a naughty girl massive kebab/choc overdose day!) but hoping for a loss!
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