Sunshine's Trip To Pre Baby Weight (start Thurs 13th oct, p 91)

[Watergirl]

Hey Sunshine - what a lovely idea, the donation to Cancer Research.
You do have a really good goal to work towards. It is horrible when you stop fitting into clothes, but sounds like you have it under control.
Have to say your days sound manic!!! Hope all is well with you - not spoken for ages xxx

 

[Sunshine Singer]

Hi, lovely to see you here. How are you?

So much for my early night. I'm wide awake which is driving me mad!!!

Good day on track. Wish I could sleep!

 

[herewego]

Lovely to see you motivated - it gives me hope that I can find my mojo one day too! The cancer research donation is a wonderful idea!

Have a great day!

 

[Sunshine Singer]

Oh my gosh I didn't sleep for hours. It was SO frustrating especially as I want early nights! Weighed today. I have yoyo'd by 4 lbs for 2 months which is also annoying. I wobbled on Saturday while I was out which has resulted in being 2.5lbs up. It's strange, you'd think having such low calories that even one wobble wouldn't show up but for me a single blip and i put on. Okay I'm focused now doing my new challenge and I tell myself 810 till goal one month but when I'm actually doing 810 it can seem like forever.

My weighin this Thursday isn't till I finish work at 2020 which is so late to be weighed. That Saturday blip has taught me that if I'm in a situation while I'm out and there's a lack of what I can eat to stay on plan then I'll fill up on coffee. I can't throw all my hard work out the window every week. I've faffed on this diet for 10 months now. I've seen people here come and go while i've never come off the cd food. Get a grip girl. I want to get off these products asap so keep going to goal do that I can move up the plans.

Amazing how I'm in control of all sorts. I make choices all the time but why when it comes to what I eat I'm like a flipping mad woman with no self control.

Right here I go off to do a long day. Haven't started so well and all from a blip. We searched for a restaurant ( me and friend) on Saturday and none of them were cd friendly. My one place I Gould get great salads had closed down.

Ok enough. Breath. I'm on track. Wish I hadn't weighed myself.

Rant rant rant xxx

 

[Sunshine Singer]

So staying off the scales will keep my mood up obviously. Not at all a good way to start. I sound like s negitive cow after rereading what I just wrote. I'm so tired oft diet taking over my life. Dictating how I live, what I wear, how I feel!

Due on soon too. Lovely!

 

[Laura Croft]

Hi Stranger,

It's great to see you back posting here. I hope you don't mind me being blunt but I think you know me well enough now

What's your motivation behind choosing 810? You can still lose a decent amount of weight on a higher plan ie 1200 and you'd have more energy to exercise. 810 is only just over a VLCD and I think you are struggling with the food situation because your body really wants to eat, and all those lovely hormones ie leptin are kicking in. You don't have much glycogen store on 810 and that's what your body is going to go in search of if you get your heart rate up so you will feel hungry. Just a few thoughts okay? x

There Is a Hole in My Sidewalk
Autobiography in Five Short Chapters
By Portia Nelson

Chapter One
I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost…I am helpless.
It isn’t my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.

Chapter Two
I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend that I don’t see it.
I fall in again.
I can’t believe I am in this same place.
But, it isn’t my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.

Chapter Three
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep whole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in…it’s a habit…but,
My eyes are open
I know where I am
It is my fault.
I get out immediately,

Chapter Four
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

Chapter Five
I walk down another street.

Ps. Not for a second suggesting you are anything earlier than Chapter Three

 

[Katycakes]

Identify Sunshine... have had the same struggles.

Laura... nice analogy, think i have seen it before but especially relevant now. I am still planning on staying with the same street, just trying to avoid the hole... which may mean I am a very slow learner... but I promise that one more fall and I am out of there.

Hugs for Sunshine.

xxx

 

[Sunshine Singer]

Thanks Hun. So nice to hear from you. Lack of sleep has made me grumpy lol. I just want to get to goal asap and 810 should be the quickest way for me according to CDC. I conpletly know what u r saying and I'll have a think. I'm driving myself mad. Better finish off getting ready or I'll be late. Just found put I'll have a nice half hour off paid this morning so I'll be back. Thanks again xxx hugs

 

[Sunshine Singer]

Thanks katy. Back later. Much rather be here allday x

 

[Sunshine Singer]

I just can't wait till I've got to goal, done 1000-1500 and then start calorie counting with a big choice of foods. I need to keep this in mind. I know it won't be easy but at least by then I'll feel better in myself. I haven't piled all the weight back on, I've put a stone on since my lightest on cd but I'm used to being smaller now so this extra weight feels like I'm back to square one. Right my moan is over. Sorry for venting. You're all so lovely.

 

[Laura Croft]

but I promise that one more fall and I am out of there.

xxx

I hope you find something that works for you Katy. I think you know my thoughts now.

Thanks Hun. So nice to hear from you. Lack of sleep has made me grumpy lol. I just want to get to goal asap and 810 should be the quickest way for me according to CDC. I conpletly know what u r saying and I'll have a think. I'm driving myself mad. Better finish off getting ready or I'll be late. Just found put I'll have a nice half hour off paid this morning so I'll be back. Thanks again xxx hugs

It's your thread. You can be however you want. Maybe 810 is the fastest way (if you were on the plan and not exercising) but is it really the best way? And I get wanting to lose the weight for your dress but please have a think.

If you were on net 1000 cals below your BMR (including exercise), you could still easily lose 1 - 2 lbs a week and in fact it may even be faster some weeks as it's recently regained fat, well that's my theory. That means in 6 weeks time (easily), you could be at goal. If you stick to 810 for a month, you still have a good few weeks to move up the plans (another month?), that means losing weight with exercise could be faster than the packs (and cheaper ).

I hope your CDC is a good, honest one and making the decision in your best interest.

You know this is a bit of a general rant but this is what scares me for want of a better word about CD. How quickly we all go back to packs when we want to lose weight. If that works for people, then great, and I'm sure for some that it does but look how many have struggled on here. Going back onto to the packs didn't work for me as a way to lose a few lbs. I had to learn to eat healthily and use exercise to maintain.

I really must get to work now.

 

[curlywurly1234]

Hey hon..
Aww its good to let it all out hon!! Big hugs..
Your doing fab and you will get there..... you have to do what you have to do.. You will still lose on a higher plan but I understand you want to do it as quickly as possible but on a higher plan you may stick with it more..
Do you know that you can now have eggs and prawns on 810... has your CDC given you the new book..
Your doing fab hon... Your going to be just where you want to be for your wedding.
Have a good day xxxx

 

[Sunshine Singer]

Ps. Laura I just read that poem. Yes rings true. X

 

[Sunshine Singer]

Eggs are fab curly yes don't eat prawns which is a shame.

Laura, last week I wanted to go up to 1000 as I was getting nowhere fast with 810 but my CDC thought it best to stay on 810 cutting me down to only one porridge a day, a lighter bar and a shake. As I exercise I too thougt going up would be better. I'll chat with her xxx thanks

 

[Laura Croft]

Eggs are fab curly yes don't eat prawns which is a shame.

Laura, last week I wanted to go up to 1000 as I was getting nowhere fast with 810 but my CDC thought it best to stay on 810 cutting me down to only one porridge a day, a lighter bar and a shake. As I exercise I too thougt going up would be better. I'll chat with her xxx thanks

Welcome If 1000 doesn't work, will you please consider 1200 (at least)? There's been lots of CDers on here who've done well with 1000 when they were going up the plans but not done well with it when just trying to lose weight ie after a period of normal eating. It makes sense because we aren't in ketosis on 1000 but usually at least 1000 cals below BMR so it's too much of a drop.

I closed my thread in Maintenance to take a bit of time out from MMs. I think I've been here more since....

 

[Sunshine Singer]

My CDC told me I wouldn't lose much on 1200 and as I found 1000 too easy to fall off the dreaded wagon as I kept adapting it to suit me I'm just flipping scared of what to do. Everyone has so many different ideas as to what's best for us when it comes to diet. Fiancé is callorie counting 9 days and lost a stone. Now I know I can't compare to a man with 3 st to lose but he's having all he needs nutrients, carb, protein etc and loving it. It's so tempting to join him but I'll feel like I've wasted months on cd x hum

 

[Laura Croft]

My CDC told me I wouldn't lose much on 1200 and as I found 1000 too easy to fall off the dreaded wagon as I kept adapting it to suit me I'm just flipping scared of what to do. Everyone has so many different ideas as to what's best for us when it comes to diet. Fiancé is callorie counting 9 days and lost a stone. Now I know I can't compare to a man with 3 st to lose but he's having all he needs nutrients, carb, protein etc and loving it. It's so tempting to join him but I'll feel like I've wasted months on cd x hum

Wasted months on CD? Not at all. Look at your before pics and that should be a good enough reminder for you. Did your CDC tell you why you won't lose much on 1200? I don't get that. Sure, if you compare 810 vs 1200 on weight loss alone for a month, you can lose more but don't forget then on 810 you need to move back up the steps so that adds time.

It's okay to be scared hon. This weight loss thing isn't easy and in some ways losing weight on CD is so easy, it's almost too easy and then we try the normal way, well we struggle. And we didn't normally come to CD as a first time dieter either. To use an old OA saying, it's a process not an event.

 

[Sunshine Singer]

Well I'm on track still but i've been doing some more thinking. A few things laura said made me look at cd and be pleased I've lost 2 stone instead of thinking of the wasted time etc. Okay so I have a stone ish to lose. I've had 2 years away from ww and I am considering starting that at home. I know the diet inside out and it was a way of life for me for long time. It could suit be better and I have time to lose the stone over 2 months before my dress fitting.

I've been scared to come off cd and even my CDC told me not to be. My fiancé is always telling me to go to the doctor as he's sure I'm deficient in something as my energy is so low. I think it's just the low calories that's doing it. I feel so loyal to cd but I feel like a fly banging into a closed window overv and over. I think I need a change and at least with ww I'd know what to do and I could happily exercise.

I'm gonna have a long think. It's a good thing. Right off to think and bend my sisters ear lol

thanks for all your help. No decision made yet and ill be back to update my diary.
I sound very self obsessed today. ...... Just delving deep

 

[Sunshine Singer]

Hi Diary,

Decision made.......... I've spoken with my CDC tonight along with my family and I have decided to come off CD. It's been on my mind a long time and I just need time out of it for now. I started my weight loss journey at 11 stone 7lbs losing a bit with ww and with CD i'm now about 9 &half stone. I'm in the 9's instead of the 11's so it's not been a wasted journey at all.

I am def starting ww tomorrow and as soon as otherhalf gets home we are going off to do our first proper shop in nearly a year.

This forum is amazing and has played a HUGE part in my CD life. I never thought I'd come off it early but i feel its the best thing for me at this moment in time. I am positive I will still come on to keep up with everyone and post on your diaries. I won't move this diary to the ww section but i may post over there too.

I'm still here, i'll post everywhere so this is not goodbye to all my mini friends. Curly, Katy, Jess, Bess, Greeneyes,Laura, Herewego, Lelly, Shanny, Watergirl and so so many more (too many to list ) a huge huge thank you for all your advice and support. I've been on here 10 months and I don't see myself walking away. But I am walking away from CD (for now)

Good luck everyone ...sending you all a hug xxx

 

[Jessica Rabbit72]

Am so glad that even though you arent following CD you are still going to come and say Hello.

You have done so well and should be proud of what you have achieved and Im sure you will approach WW with the same enthusiasm and determination that you did with CD and it will get you to where you want or need to be.

Its been fantastic following your story and I have no doubt in my mind that you will be a beautiful bride and I cant wait to see the pics.

thanks so much for all your support over the last 10mths and DONT BE A STRANGER!!!!!
Love
Jess
xxx