Surfhunny's Countdown to Florida

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hi :wave_cry:

diet is pants.... again! started again today! 3 weeks to a family christening and 4 and a bit weeks to our hols. need to shift this mill stone around my neck called weight!

 

[Surfhunny]

Ah Hun totally know the feeling. I'm feeling pretty cr@ppy right now too, been out for tea tonight for mums birthday so that's the last of it for a while. Plus my friend Holly wants to lose some weight before her birthday next month so I'm going to diet with her, it's four weeks. I'm hoping that now I've realised I'm an excuse eater I'll be able to say 'No excuses' and mean it!!!

Good luck Hun, I wish this wasn't so b@st@rd hard!!!

 

[*Shanny*]

Ah Hun totally know the feeling. I'm feeling pretty cr@ppy right now too, been out for tea tonight for mums birthday so that's the last of it for a while. Plus my friend Holly wants to lose some weight before her birthday next month so I'm going to diet with her, it's four weeks. I'm hoping that now I've realised I'm an excuse eater I'll be able to say 'No excuses' and mean it!!!

Good luck Hun, I wish this wasn't so b@st@rd hard!!!

Aw good to see you and your mate are cracking on together sal will u be doing sw??

I'm wide awake cant sleep at all , it's getting me well upset.!! I hate this
X

 

[Surfhunny]

Well I've left it a week and still nothing from Audi woman so I've set about fixing the damage on my car. It's her tough luck from now on if she can't find my car to get my reg number. I've put before and after photos on to show my handy work so far.

I also spoke to my friends hubby who checked the security cams, unfortunately there's nothing to see, I pull into the space, then it switches to a different part of the car park, can't tell I hit her car. He said not to worry cos it gives me deniability, she now can't prove it was me. Not that I think anything will come of it now, but it's still praying on my mind and I still jump every time the phone rings.

As for my diet, I'm still being a total failure!! Getting lots of negative comments about going back on it, a lot of "oh no not again"s. It annoys me because I don't bang on about it, I talk if people ask about it but I generally try not to draw attention to it. I can't seem to get through the day without chucking in the towel I hate the first few days, I struggle so much to just get to a point where I'm in ketosis. Once I'm in the pink it's plain sailing, but the first few days I struggle with commitment! Grrrr Like I said I'm not in a great place at the moment so I won't bang on about my negativity and failure

 

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You need a fresh start Hun. Try today. Ignore Audi woman. Focus on your goals and find a happy place. Ignore the negative comments as they're there just to make you fail. I'm hitting day 3. All is well but..... I can get into ketosis then the weekend hits and hubby offers me all sorts and I feel weak! I'm going to really try to focus this week I need not to have a cheaty weekend!

 

[*Shanny*]

Good evening Sal x

 

[Illa]

surfhunny I read your post on Cerulean thread, wanted to provide you with some good energy to keep going

 

[Surfhunny]

surfhunny I read your post on Cerulean thread, wanted to provide you with some good energy to keep going

Thank you!!!!! Xx

 

[cornishkez]

Hey Sal! What's the proper name of your K products? Is is P.....K..? Thats the only one I can find with Spag Bol?

Somebody at work was asking about VLCD's today and saying they would like to give it a go, so we've agree when I get back from Canada in 2 weeks that we will start!

The plan is Exante, but I was going to try out some of the other ones you use, also I ahve seen some on ebay called Slim&save?? Any ideas who or what they are?

 

[Surfhunny]

Hey Sal! What's the proper name of your K products? Is is P.....K..? Thats the only one I can find with Spag Bol?

Somebody at work was asking about VLCD's today and saying they would like to give it a go, so we've agree when I get back from Canada in 2 weeks that we will start!

The plan is Exante, but I was going to try out some of the other ones you use, also I ahve seen some on ebay called Slim&save?? Any ideas who or what they are?

Hey Hun, I'll PM you on Facebook with the details!!

 

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Hellllooooooooo

Fed up today! Not diet related! Just feel tired! Like wiped out! Crazy! Think the schools thing isn't really going to work!

 

[Surfhunny]

That's a shame, what did it involve?

 

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£15 an hour being an assistant for 12 weeks then doing after school stuff more than during school time. I'd have to do 3 hours to cover dude's nursery fees without anything else. Would struggle to pick up ems from school and fit my own 2 nights in really. Hard to explain.

 

[Surfhunny]

This is going to seem very cryptic I'm sorry, but I'm not sure what it means myself yet....

Something in me snapped this weekend, I went to Rosedale with my Mum and Dad in there new caravan. There's no phone signal at all in the valley, and they didn't take a tv so I've had all weekend with nothing to do but think!! And all I could think about was food I hate admitting that :cry: It's heartbreaking that I'm back to this point again. I promised myself I'd never let it take hold of my life again like it did before and here it is, the addiction is back :cry:

This last week I've been all over the place mentally. I've bounced from doing CD to CC to giving up completely, I feel out of control!!! Realistically what I need to do is remove food from the equation completely again. It's that simple, I need to do SS!! If I don't do it I'm going to just keep getting fatter and fatter and fatter

This is where it gets tricky, I don't know what it was that's snapped, it's either my resolve and I'm just ready to admit defeat because I'm scared of failing for the millionth time...or it was Fat Sally that broke and admitted defeat, meaning I can give it my all and succeed to my target weight.

I dont know which it is yet, I know exactly what I SHOULD do, but what I WILL do I have no idea yet!! The problem is I'm acutely aware of how many times I've said "Right, this is it, last time" only to fail to get through the first day..... I'm starting to sound like a stuck record. I really admire people like Cerulean who are single minded and determined!! I start each and every day determined to have a 100% day and something always goes wrong.

I don't know what I'm going to do, I need a serious think, this weekend has started something I need to decide what I'm going to do. I may be AWOL for the next fees days but I'll be lurking and thinking.

 

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You must do what needs doing. SS is great when you have the willpower to call it a day with food. As you know I've been struggling and stopped cd today til after my holidays. My scare and worry is putting on in-between now and my hols then putting on during my hols. Today is day 1 of cc. I've still got about 10lbs that I'd love to drop before my hols and if I manage a bit of that it would be great. I've downloaded an app where I can write down my food intake. My little lies start when I've had a lot to eat and then I don't write things down. I love my grub so I'm going to reintroduce foods that I've cut out. Going to start cooking things again, curry, chilli, soup, spaghetti Bol etc. Going to have to find the energy to kick my eating for energy. I sometimes snack on things cause I'm tired rather than hungry.

I think something needs to change for us to change. Why food for you Sally? You can't be hungry? Is it boredom with nothing else to do other than eat? Stress? Worry? Negativity which leads to self loathing which leads to comfort? I need to get extra active now. I need to get back to running but with my achillies still hurting I feel that I can't yet. Thinking of going for a run every day on holiday then there's the swimming etc. I really want to get back to running now!

 

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P.S don't not post. I think posting is better cause help could find you. You can re-read you feelings and thoughts. Negativity can show through but it can help you analyse why you feel that way as far as I've seen you are just a typical woman. Stress of life and job. Trying to confirm. Trying to fit everything in. People make comments when you diet and again when you fail. They expect you to fail and make comments which makes you feel bad then as hard as you try you are obviously influenced in all emotive and physical was which the eats away at you self confidence and will power and bang you fall off the cd wagon. Then of course people start commenting on the fact you lost your willpower again..... Well what the hell do they expect with 0 support!

To do cd properly you must really see a CDC and get back some of the positivity that others are sapping. When you stick to it and the weight comes off you start feeling amazing but you need some help now. What about even thinking twice a week help for the first 2 weeks, then drop it to once a week!

 

[Illa]

if I went away with my parents with nothing to do but think I would definitely keep thinking about food. It's the only fun thing we do together, eat and drink. My mother is quite slim but eating is very important to her. And the only fun and relaxed conversation we have is around a table so don't worry, boredom makes us eat, as particular family situations. You need to switch your mind and keep yourself busy.

Food was also part of our family week end. At the beginning I just did not know what to do with myself. Now I keep my hands busy another way (I keep running around and have actually nice things done ). But it was hard to make the switch.

Keep coming and sharing your thoughts here, you'll get what you want to do eventually.

 

[Surfhunny]

Thanks Nikki and Illa, I am going back to my CDC in September, I know I'm delaying things but my mum is coming with me and can't start until then with holidays to fit and and waiting for pay day etc, so i have already decided to bite that bullet even though I'm totally ashamed to be going back to her at this weight :cry: but my mum said I wont be the first or last person whose gone back like this.

 

[Illa]

I've postponed my weight loss so many times, started over and over again so many times before finding the RIGHT time. It might take several attemps, it doesn't mean you are not going to succeed one day. take care

 

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So what you are after really is just like me....... Damage limitation!