Surfhunny's Countdown to Florida

Good luck for your restart x
 
Right I've made it to lunch time which is where it all went horribly wrong yesterday, but today I've come to sit outside, away from the temptations in the staffroom. I've had 2 litres of water almost, so that's good. I feel okay at the moment, quite positive that I can do this again! Once I get home I'll be fine because I have nothing in the house but CD and bottles of fizzy water. I tend to have plenty to do when I get home on a night so for me work is where I struggle. Too many people seem to have made it their mission to get me to eat. But I CAN do this. I just need to keep feeling positive.
 
Well done for making it to lunch time :)
I'm struggling Day 3 of re-start now, just want ketosis to kick in or even better the weight to drop off over night.

I find the struggle is when I get home as I have to make hubby's lunch box for work and tea :sigh:

Think I may ask him to start making his own as it's a real temptation.

Keep it up x x
 
Hi surf feeling positive is the 'key' im restarting again in the morning.

COME ON, "you can do it nowwww" x
 
Well I've made it through day 1 and I'm shattered. I'm going to have an early one tonight, I'm sure it'll do me the world of good. Things at work just keep getting worse... Two of my good friends is handing their notice in and it leaves us up the creak big time. We're having an emergency meeting on the 30th to see whats going to be done. I'm sorely tempted to quit too, but unfortunately I'm not in the position to, and the managers know that and can screw me over any way they like. We'll just see what gets said in this meeting before I decide whether I'm going to demote myself so I don't have to deal with the pressure from above and below. I hate being stuck in the middle like this during such a volatile time. Aaargh, don't think I can take much more stress.

I realised when I read through my posts from the last few days that I sound like I'm depressed - I'm not that bad, I'm just miserable with everything thats going on at work and feeling a bit lonely and stuff but I'm definitely not going down the depression route (not yet anyway). I will cope with it all and I feel a bit better for getting a hold of my dieting - I just hope I can stay in control.
 
Sorry to hear about work and I know it's easy to say but it is only work try not to let it get to you too much x x

Glad you have had a good day, hope tomorrow goes well.
 
come on surfhunny.... you can do it. :D
 
Well done for getting through the day Xx
 
Yay I've done it!!! Am in bed now having had my first 100% day in a few weeks!! First mini challenge completed. Night everyone and massive thanks for being here for me, I appreciate it more than you'll ever know xxx
 
Well done hunny, so proud of you for getting through day 1 100%! I'll be dropping in to keep an eye on you! x
 
Ok here goes day 2, not off to the best start, just managed to spill the last bit of my shake all over the floor and had to suffer another interrogation by Tactless Tessie about the diet, found myself justifying what I'm doing so I ended up just saying it works if you work at it, like anything! Also right now on the table in front of me is a slab of lemon drizzle cake from the night shift, a bit much for breakfast but I've been known to have cake for breakie before! Not now though!!!!

Kez I know exactly what you mean about bingeing, it scares me how easily I can slip back into the bingeing mode. It's worrying that even after this time I still have not learned self-control! I'm fine until I start then I can't stop! I need to try and get my head round that!

Good luck with the exam Kerry!! Xxxx
 
STEP AWAY FROM THE LEMON DRIZZLE CAKE!! ;)

You`ll only feel worse later if you give in. You CAN do this :D Say strong & Good luck for today Xx
 
I stayed away!!! So long as I've had nothing, I don't want to have anything.....does that make sense? If I let one thing slip by I just see it as failure and carry on eating until I can get my head together enough to get back on track!! This is something I'm really going to have to deal with at some point, I can't continue forever with this all or nothing approach to food!! Gonna chat to my CDC just now about it. See if she has any ideas about how I can stop it!
 
Well I've been to WI and had a nice long chat with me CDC about everything thats been bugging me lately, and we've put some plans in place to try and work things out. First of all I need to make it through this first week on SS, with nothing but CD products.

Anyway, I was totally dreading stepping on the scales tonight, I've avoided them all week because I've been baaaaaaaaad last week. So I got the shock of my life when I only put on 1lb...I guess fate decided I'd had enough bad luck for one week. 1lb I can happily cope with. I was sure I'd be back up at 14st again.

So I have got 1st 8lbs to lose, which is 22lbs. I'm going to change my ticker right now and scrap all the other WI stats at the bottom of my signature, and start again with a blank sheet.

Day 2 is almost over, I've just had a Spicy Tomato soup and it was okay, still not a fan of the soups but I really wanted something savoury. Anyway, just got my last bit of water to go and hopefully tomorrow I'll be back in the pink!!
 
Well done for getting through Day 2 hun, let me know if your CDC comes up with any revelations or smart ideas on how to work with the old all or nothing.

I think tomorrow might be Day 1 for me, as I won't be eating anything prior to the exam with nerves anyway. So nothing stopping me.
 
Aw hun, hope tomorrow goes well with your exam and everything, don't think about it being day 1 until you've finished your exam, then decide.

My CDC has said she's going to have a think about the all or nothing thing, because she's exactly the same as us. For now I'm working with the 'nothing' and I'm going to see if there's any books on amazon that deal with binge eating....it's not a new thing so there must be something out there, even if I have to buy books on bulemia to get answers. I'll let you know if I find anything!

I'm off to bed just now, I'm always worn out on Day 2 then on Day 3 I can't sleep so I'm going to make the most of sleeping tonight. Thank god I'm not a sleep eater.... I saw a documentary once about a lady who ate in her sleep and couldn't understand why she wasn't losing weight on her diet. Just my luck that would happen to me, but at least there's nothing to eat in my kitchen.
 
I have diagnosed myself with this:

Binge Eating Disorder

Binge eating disorder is characterized by compulsive overeating in which people consume huge amounts of food while feeling out of control and powerless to stop.



A binge eating episode typically lasts around two hours, but some people binge on and off all day long. Binge eaters often eat even when they’re not hungry and continue eating long after they’re full. They may also gorge themselves as fast as they can while barely registering what they’re eating or tasting.
The key features of binge eating disorder are:

  • Frequent episodes of uncontrollable binge eating
  • Feeling extremely distressed or upset during or after bingeing
  • No regular attempts to “make up” for the binges through vomiting, fasting, or over-exercising.
People with binge eating disorder struggle with feelings of guilt, disgust, and depression. They worry about what the compulsive eating will do to their bodies and beat themselves up for their lack of self-control. They desperately want to stop binge eating, but they feel like they can’t.



According to the National Institutes of Health, 2 percent of all U.S. adults suffer from compulsive overeating—making binge eating disorder more common than bulimia or anorexia. Unlike other eating disorders, which primarily occur in women, binge eating disorder also affects a significant number of men. Binge eating usually begins in late adolescence or early adulthood, often after a major diet. But most people don’t seek help until much later when weight gain from their binge eating is causing health problems.



The blue is all me, this is exactly how I feel.


So why is it happening, according to this study...
Biological causes of binge eating disorder

Studies show that biological abnormalities contribute to binge eating. For example, the hypothalamus (the part of the brain that controls appetite) may not be sending correct messages about hunger and fullness. Researchers have also found a genetic mutation that appears to cause food addiction. Finally, there is evidence that low levels of the brain chemical serotonin play a role in compulsive eating.
Psychological causes of binge eating disorder

Depression and binge eating are strongly linked. According to the U.S. Department of Health and Human Services, up to half of all binge eaters are either depressed or have been before. There is further evidence that low self-esteem, loneliness, and body dissatisfaction are involved in compulsive overeating. People with binge eating disorder may also have trouble with impulse control and managing and expressing their feelings.
Social and cultural causes of binge eating disorder

Social pressure to be thin can add to the shame binge eaters feel and fuel their emotional eating. The way one is raised can also increase the risk for binge eating disorder. Some parents unwittingly set the stage for bingeing by using food to comfort, dismiss, or reward their children. Children who are exposed to frequent critical comments about their bodies and weight are also vulnerable. Another factor which has been linked to binge eating is sexual abuse in childhood.



More blue - all me, so how the heck am I going to stop??



How to stop binge eating

It can be difficult to overcome binge eating and food addiction. Unlike other addictions, your “drug” is necessary for survival, so you don’t have the option of avoiding it. Instead, you must develop a healthier relationship with food—a relationship that’s based on meeting your nutritional needs, not your emotional ones.

Tips for Overcoming Binge Eating


  • Eat breakfast. Skipping breakfast often leads to overeating later in the day, so start your day right with a healthy meal. Eating breakfast also jump starts your metabolism in the morning. Studies show that people who eat breakfast are thinner than those who don’t.
  • Avoid temptation. You’re much more likely to overeat if you have junk food, desserts, and unhealthy snacks in the house. Remove the temptation by clearing your fridge and cupboards of your favorite binge foods.
  • Stop dieting. The deprivation and hunger of strict dieting can trigger food cravings and the urge to overeat. Instead of dieting, focus on eating in moderation. Find nutritious foods that you enjoy and avoid labeling foods as “good” or “bad.”
  • Exercise. Not only will exercise help you lost weight in a healthy way, but it also lifts depression, improves overall health, and reduces stress. The natural mood-boosting effects of exercise can help put a stop to emotional eating.
  • Destress. Learn how to cope with stress in healthy ways that don’t involve food.
So there we have it, I have an eating disorder!! I really need to look into it a bit more but this was my first google search and this is what I came up with so there's plenty out there. I don't want to have an eating disorder so I need to fix it. And I think doing CD SS last time round helped me get a lid on it a bit, but breaking up with AP led me back to bad habits again. SO doing SS again until I get to target might help me get over it again. I HOPE!!!!
 
Hiya everyone... can i join please?

Hi Sally (my Jiggery Pokery team member) i am a binge eater. Often of a night time altho i am never hungry i just feel the need to eat and i often beat myself up about it afterwards. Not good :(

I am on the end of day 1 of my re-start and this is the first time in 4 months i have lasted a whole day 100% so i am feeling really proud of myself! I have drank around 6pints of water and feeling great today. I had 2 mint choc shakes today and my bar hehe! I have swaped all my porridge for mint choc shakes, so now i have 2 mint choc shakes a day instead of my normal porridge and shake. I think its going to be better for me with it being summer shakes are more freshing lol.

Hope your all having a good day <3 xxx
 
Of course you can join, it's just my weightloss diary, not a proper team or anything. Well done for making it through day 1. In alot of ways day 1 is the hardest, just take it day at a time and it'll be WI day before you know it!!!
 
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