Surfhunny's Countdown to Florida

[Surfhunny]

Okay day 1 over and done with and I feel so much better for being back on CD! It's going to be another 2 and a half weeks until I see my CDC cos she goes on holiday on Monday so hopefully by the time she comes back I'll have shifted the weight I've put on. I'm not going to go on the scales until next Friday. Partly because I don't want to know how much I put on and partly because I think if I know I'll just admit defeat before I even give it a chance.

I did take my measurements though and I've put on 1" on my hips and chest and 3" on my waist. It gives me a vague idea of how much I've put on, but I'm not going to dwell on that I'm going to focus on how much is coming off!!

 

[*Shanny*]

Morning sal 2.5weeks will fly by u will be able to shift a nice amount by then.

Good luck for day 2 now x

 

[Surfhunny]

Cheers my chicken!! How're you getting on anyway? Day 2 going swimmingly too, it's easy when I'm in this frame of mind, just hope I can stay this way lol. Tomorrow is going to be a not of a test for me, it's my friends little ones christening, but I'm not going to eat at the buffet, I will be strong!!! I figured that was where I went wrong last time, each week there seemed to be an event of some sort, which I used as an excuse for a day off, which made it incredibly difficult to stay focussed and on track. The very first time I did CD I went to weddings and all sorts and abstained at all of them, I even went to Florida for two weeks and did SS+ while I was there. So there's no reason I can't do this now!!

 

[lyndzi76]

Great frame of mind to be in. CD is the stangest situation I have ever been in it's the easiest diet in the world as food is completly out of the question but god you have to have your head in the right place.

Hope tomorrow goes well. x x

 

[*Shanny*]

Hi sal I'm so so still obssesed with the scales that won't change for now really.

I'm resting today as I am doing a charity walk midnight walk tonite.
I'm still having cd's most days watching the caliores really.
It's my bday soon so cutting down from today so I can relax for that weekend. Lol

Keep up the positive mind !!

 

[Surfhunny]

Well minor hiccup at the christening, I had a bit of pork off the BBQ and a few doritoes. I'm not too worried about that because it could be been worse but I restrained myself. I passed on the alcohol and came home early to avoid temptation. I'm proud of that but back to it now!!

 

[lyndzi76]

Glad you enjoyed the christening.
I've been crap for about the past 4 days, I keep picking!!
I need a massive kick up the arse.

 

[*Shanny*]

Hey Sal you ok ?? xx

 

[Surfhunny]

I'm okay Shanny, just really struggling to get back onto CD SS. I'm a bloody idiot! Time is running out and I can't get on with it. The disapproving looks from my work colleagues and some of my friends have started up again - I can tell by their faces they're thinking "here we go again". I know I need to ignore it and just get on with it or I'm going to hate my holiday and won't want my photo taken. I enjoyed New York so much last time because I wasn't worried about looking fat in photos because I was at target.

I need to work hard!! I had a chat with my mum yesterday and she said that I'm not afraid of hard work I'm afraid of failure and I see each little slip up as a failure, instead of admitting it's a slip and carrying on like it hasn't happened. I write the whole day off and use the slip as an excuse to eat as much as I can before getting back on track the next day. If I slip I need to get back on track right away, not the next day or the next week.

We'll see, I have to do this, time is running out!!!!!

 

[stokegal]

Hey Surfhunny - I'm glad to have found one person on here still from my time before. I know what you mean about finding it hard after a relapse... I had a major one and the 3 and half stone that I lost... I put 3 back on - in 2 months!!!! It's day 5 for me and I'm finding it a lot easier now though it's probably because my mammoth weigh gain came a huge cautionary tale - hopefully this should spur you on to knuckling down - giving up is so not worth it - I'm back in all of my fat clothes and so unhappy - we went to turkey 3 weeks ago and there is not one picture of me, thats a vast difference for my egypt holiday when I was 3 stone lighter and nobody could take a picture without me jumping into it

Hope ur doing ok (I've not had chance to read through all of your diary)

 

[*Shanny*]

Sal glad you replied was wondering about you.

I totally understand where you are coming from, why not consider starting on ss+ for a week, then ss?? Remember months back we talked about no pressure sal ?? Please take it easy your mum is right.!!!!
You are a very strong lady who has come so far in your weight loss journey.
Stop from giving yourself so much slack, and try to concentrate on this now. Just think when your in Vegas u will want and need pictures of your trip away. As u said time is running out sweetie and only u can beat the time you have got too.
Today is Monday so make THE change take it day by day no pressure. Just be full of spirt, and you will not 'fail' but can be more stronger on this diet.

I know you will. Xxx S

 

[Surfhunny]

Thanks girls, I have a feeling I'm going to need a lot of help and support over the next few weeks. Shanny I think I might try easing back in with ss+ but I am going to have to do ss in the end to gtg the weight off because I find ss+ too hard to stick to.

Stoke I'm sorry to hear about your gain, but I can totally understand how easy it is to gain. I find myself a stone heavier after a 3 week holiday so it's not quite back to square one for me but it means I'm a huge step away from target now! Frustrating!! Good luck with it this time, you know you can do it!!

 

[leeds123]

dont give up surfy! its hard but get back on that wagon girl and then hold on for DEAR LIFE!!

 

[enlightenme2]

I see each little slip up as a failure, instead of admitting it's a slip and carrying on like it hasn't happened. I write the whole day off and use the slip as an excuse to eat as much as I can before getting back on track the next day. If I slip I need to get back on track right away, not the next day or the next week.

Good grief, I sooo understand this part, but my mouth doesn't seem to cooperate at times, yet the more glycogen we amass from doing, the less the body responds, prob figuring it'll hold on until the next blip and get its fill then. We have to break the cyle, prob is how???

 

[Surfhunny]

So tonight the girls had a get together to plan our holiday itinery, so much to cram into 2 weeks. We've also all agreed we're on a diet until then. Some of us have more to lose than others and Loulou doesn't need to lose weight at all but is joining in to keep the rest of us going. The others are doing healthy eating but I'm doing CD SS. It's 9 weeks ish til our holidays so here goes!! Operation Showgirl starts in earnest and at least I have a bit of support now!

 

[Surfhunny]

I've woken up this morning feeling dreadful, I've had painful sinuses for almost a week and today it's the worst it's been. I've just had to sit in the car for 20 mins because I felt too dizzy to stand up! I cant go home because we've got a big case today and I'm the only one here I've loaded up on painkillers and I'm just sitting down as much as I can so I don't fall down. I hate being ill because I generally don't get ill! I just want my mum to look after me when I'm sick - big baby!

But I'm not letting it stop me from cracking on with CD. What a week to get my motivation back, there's a charity bake sale all week in the staffroom so that will be a true test of my willpower and how much I want this. So shake 1 and 1litre of water out of the way, roll on 5.00 when I can go home and crawl into bed!!!

 

[great things]

i'm going to try a celebrity slim version of the 810. i'll use the stuff and have a small meal of a night. i know i'm going to suffer this week though. at least i'm not doing any exercise this week. i can't bring myself to weight myself. eek.....

going to wait until next monday and get weighed then as long as i'm good. i suppose i can't go round with my head in the sand. focus, motivation.

 

[Surfhunny]

Nikki that's exactly what I'm doing about weighing. I'm too scared too. I'm going to leave it till the morning of my wi next Wed, I'm just not brave enough yet! So far so good today, the rep brought in tons of cakes and pies to add to the stodge that's already in the staffroom. But everytime I've been slightly tempted I've pulled out a picture of me at target and convinced myself I want to be there again more than the cake, so far it's working!

I just need a couple of good days under my belt and I'll be back in the swing of things!! Good luck with Celeb Slim Nikki x

 

[Surfhunny]

Day 3 over with minimal fuss. The good news is that I no longer feel hungry yay, not sure if I'm in ketosis yet but so long as I'm not getting hungry I'm happy enough! I'm surviving the bake sale week quite well I'm glad people seem to be baking cakes and sweet things cos I'd struggle if there were pies and quiches.

It's funny how I can be so strong and determined at times. I love Jelly Belly jelly beans and where I live they're quite hard to come by (luckily). TK Maxx randomly gets them in from time to time so if I see them I stock up. I got 2 boxes at the beginning of the week and put them away in the cupboard and that's exactly where they've stayed! The first time I did CD they'd just brought Cadburys Wispas back and I stocked up on them cos I thought they were limited edition and didn't want to miss out. I managed to keep them in the cupboard and when I'd finished I rationed them out. Every other time since I've not had the strength to put things away for any longer than a couple of hours. So I'm very hopeful that I've turned a corner with the diet now and I'm in the same frame of mind as I was first time.

It's Dads birthday on Saturday and he's decided that rather than go out for the usual family meal (which I wouldn't beable to go to) we're going to have a BBQ instead so I can have chicken kebabs and join in. Yay. Things are looking up!

 

[*Shanny*]

Hey Sal enjoy your dad's birthday today, im restarting in the morning a count down to 4 weeks ssing.!! oh man i so cant wait to feel empty again!!

You sound as if you are in the right frame of mind sal.

keep in touch hun x