Surfhunny's Countdown to Florida

[Goreygirl]

Surfhunny

I've been off work since last April so I know how you feel about being off work for a while. The biggest thing I've had to learn is that it's OK to be ill and that my "guilt" about being off work and my continual desire to get back ASAP so as not to let people down etc was part of the reason I was struggling in the first place! I had to let all that go... including the superego part (my therapist's words) that wanted to take responsibility for everything work related.

You just have to force yourself to let it go and give yourself permission to take time to recover.

take care

 

[Surfhunny]

Surfhunny

I've been off work since last April so I know how you feel about being off work for a while. The biggest thing I've had to learn is that it's OK to be ill and that my "guilt" about being off work and my continual desire to get back ASAP so as not to let people down etc was part of the reason I was struggling in the first place! I had to let all that go... including the superego part (my therapist's words) that wanted to take responsibility for everything work related.

You just have to force yourself to let it go and give yourself permission to take time to recover.

take care

Thanks Goreygirl, it's good to know I'm not the only one who feels like this, for years the rest of the team has carried our lone manager, covered for him, done part of his job for him, and even at points lied for him!! Because he's the worst kind of bully, he's the kind who if he gets accused turns it all round to look like he's the one being 'ganged up on'. He's done it before when someone blew the whistle - she ended up having to leave because she ended up looking like she was victimizing him... Difficult situation!!!

Anyway on the plus side the man has actually Bern and changed the meter at last!! So at least that's one less thing to think about when I go back to work.

I should get my order of exante bars today, I'm looking forward to it, how sad lol. They're slightly higher in cals than CD ones but the rest is fine, carbs, salt etc, and they're like tasty flapjacks, so they'll be for treats only, not everyday things lol.

 

[*Shanny*]

Heey sal im having an exante bar tomorrow i so cant wait lol.!

i only have 3 left now... may save a few pounds and stock up.!

how u feeling today? x

 

[Surfhunny]

I'm okay shanny, completely bored bit okay. Still waiting for physio appointment I'm half tempted to jump on the scales but there's no point really because I have no idea what I weighed when I started this properly I know I'm not in the 15s but think I'm still in the 14s.

I wish I didn't get fixated on food, I've had laughing cow cheese triangles in the fridge for a while, and everyday I've had to really try to not have them and today my resolve failed 2 laughing cow cheeses, not laughing anymore and neither am I cos I just want food now fortunately there is nothing but CD and Exante in the house! Phew!

 

[great things]

did you check the date on the cheese before you ate it. it might have been out of date.... you should have smeared it all over something, not you, and then laughed as you binned it.

 

[Surfhunny]

It was in date I wish it wasn't cos I'm fussy about dates on things. Never mind done now, they can moo off. The only things left in fridge are Mayo , coke zero and tetras and even I won't resort to eating Mayo with a spoon lol.

 

[cornishkez]

Hahaha! I've got images of you smearing laughing cow all over your face, while cackling! Like some mad woman. hehehe

 

[great things]

mayo lol. all good i say. my fridge is full of choc, cheese etc. upboard full of kids stuff. argh! mind i'm totally not bothered today. today i'm focused. i hope it lasts. i need these last few pounds off and to recovered from this rubbish weigh in, which of course, was totally my fault for being greedy.

 

[great things]

Hahaha! I've got images of you smearing laughing cow all over your face, while cackling! Like some mad woman. hehehe

we are on a roll tonight ladies.

 

[cornishkez]

I feel like we should be in the same room sometimes, with a glass of wine having a natter!

Still, I've got a glass of coke zero in my hand, so 'Cheers!'. Time for BL!

 

[Surfhunny]

Hahaha! I've got images of you smearing laughing cow all over your face, while cackling! Like some mad woman. hehehe

And that's pretty much the level of hysteria I get to at times lol.

Youre right Kerry but I've got my can of coke zero in my hand so cheers, here's to lovely rugby Rob on BL!!

 

[cornishkez]

Ah bless him, he's going for it. Good boy!

 

[great things]

i'm breaking from the coke..... having a coffee had my can today. fingers are swollen. i'm watching bruce parry from last night. BL on ff tomorrow so no leaks pls.

 

[great things]

i'm not sure if i'm spelling things right tonight... suffering from spelling probs.

 

[Surfhunny]

i'm not sure if i'm spelling things right tonight... suffering from spelling probs.

Spellings seem fine to me! I'm confused by BL already, who went home last week?

 

[great things]

wasn't it orange in UKBL? didn't you post that last week or was that the USBL?

 

[cornishkez]

Orange went last week, the ones that couldnt be bothered to get out of bed and then had a bad ankle, and then had a cold etc etc!

 

[great things]

yep just going to post orange, re-read your diary.

 

[Surfhunny]

No you're right I just couldn't work out where they were, dozy mare I shouldve been able to work that out by process of elimination, duh!

 

[great things]

i can't remember what they looked like but i will when i see it.