Hi Guys,
I'm so sorry that I haven't been about much recently!! :cry:
I've felt really dissapointed in myself and have gone quite off the rails food wise!!
I can tell I have put on big time and I can see the podge slowly creeping back in certain places. (I reckon i've put on a good 5/6lbs).
I think my downfall was the start of the two weeks when OH went away! I was lonely and down and a few times I reverted back to old habits of picking in the eve to satisfy some kind of emptiness that I was feeling at the time. And because I was picking it's gradually got worse and worse, where I was just going over the top and having a binge.... which is not me at all!!!
I am just so disappointed in myself and know that I can do it and have done it, but for some reason I just can't stop myself!! I say to myself don't do it you silly cow, but for some reason my hand is still reaching out and getting whatever is there!
Last night in bed with my OH, for the first time in a long while I didn't want any nookie as I was feeling embarassed about the way I looked. (sorry if TMI) we sat there and we discussed the way I am feeling at the moment and he has agreed to really help me and be quite strict and give me some tough love, which I think I may respond to best from him!
I am desperate to get back on the wagon and start to feel as good as I was! I want to do it, I really really do! I've still been going down the gym, which I enjoy... it's just food I have really struggled with!!
WHY???
Anyway, sorry for the long waffling message I just need to put down how I am feeling at the moment and hope that it may be just the therapy I need.
I really do hope everyone else is doing okay??
Kelly, phone battery has been dead for a few days and kids had hidden my charger so only just read your text yesterday (sorry x).
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