Morning Texty, I agree with the others, you are being a bit hard on yourself. I know you want a loss, like we all do but STS is just like maintaining when you get to target and you WILL get there. We are all here to support you like you are a massive support to all of us. I don't know where I'd be in my journey without your words of support and encouragement.
Good luck with SE - I find it had too with 1/2 superfree - so I look forward to your food diary for some ideas x