Hello!
I came across this forum last year, registered, then promptly forgot all about it L. Yesterday I vowed to start yet another weight loss attempt, I remembered Minimins and today found this thread. I think it might just save my life.
Sounds a bit dramatic really but like many of you here I have a lot of weight to lose and even if it doesn’t actually physically kill me, I’m not living the life I want to. I’ve been overweight for about 10 years and probably every year have embarked on some kind of weight loss regime, often successful… to a point. I seem to always sabotage myself and end up regaining all the weight plus a few extra pounds each time. Sound familiar??
Anyways, reading through this whole thread today one post in particular struck a cord, it was about not appreciating just being slimmer, always thinking about the end result and being a perfectionist. I realised I too had an ‘all or nothing’ approach.
As soon as have a gain or a bad day I feel I’m weak and useless. I’m so embarrassed to go back to class until I’ve lost it again it becomes an excuse to give up. If I can’t go to the gym 5 days a week and work out harder than anyone in there then I won’t go. I feel like I have to do better than anyone else because I’m the biggest and fattest I can’t make exceptions for that. After all I did this to myself, I’m to blame. This is why I fail.
I think over that past year I have started to give up, resigned myself to always being big, it’s definitely not what I want but it’s easier to give up. Reading this thread today has given me some hope. We all have a similar goal, you all seem so motivated and supportive of each other. I don’t want to do this on my own anymore, I would really love to join you and hopefully help each other along the way.
Sorry this has turned into a bit of an essay J Don’t think I’ve ever said any of this out loud, it’s been therapeutic J
So 84lbs… doesn’t sound a lot if you say it quick! J