this morning i woke up ready to get weighed and eager to enjoy my last day off before work starts. i decided to change my weekly weigh in day to a sunday to make it easier to fit into my routine now i'm starting work. although getting weighed itself doesnt take much time i like to write it down and update all my challenges and tickers etc while i still remember, so it's better to do it on a sunday.
well, anyways, i got on the scale in the bathroom like i normally do and found that i lost 1.5lbs, not great, but still a loss and took me over the one stone marker! 
as it happened my mum was walking past the bathroom and saw me weighing myself on the carpet, she told me that because id been weighing myself on the carpet it would have been underweighing me! so i took the scales downstairs into the utility room where there is a hard floor and to my HORROR i discovered she was right. it turns out instead of weighing 21st 5.5lbs (299.5lbs) like i did on the bathroom floor, that i actually weigh 22st 7lbs (315lbs) that was completely and utterly demoralising, especially because as far as i was concerned i weighed 22st 6lbs when i started the whole thing 3 weeks ago. it seemed like despite 3 weeks hard work and losing a stone, swimming 15 times and eating well every day, that i was back at square one! :sigh:
i felt like giving up. then it hit me. if there is a whole stone difference between the bathroom floor and the utility room, when i actucally started this 3 weeks ago i must have weighed around 23st 7lbs (329lbs) instead of going back to bed to cry myself to sleep i packed my swimming bag and hit the pool. 1hr 5 mins of swimming later and i feel a bit better. a number on a scale isnt going to make me feel defeated, it doesnt take away anything from my success so far. all it means is that i have a bit further to go. i'll adjust my starting weight and my tickers and then stop complaining and just get on with it.
rather than being depressed i should be celebrating, i just lost my first stone in 3 weeks!
i stopped off at the supermarket on the way home and picked up my weekly food shop. got loads of healthy stuff to put in my packed lunches next week. decided to have small meals in the evening, cereal or porridge for breakfast and a really filling and tasty packed lunch every day that will give me lots of energy while i'm at work and keep me satisfied until tea time.
so for example, tomorrows food is gonna look something like:
b - big bowl cereal - 250
l - 2 tuna, sweetcorn, light mayo salad pittas - 550
l - little tomatoes - 20
l - light babybel - 43 cals
l - yoghurt tube (frube) - 50 cals
l - apple - 50
t - fresh soup and bread - 500 cals
s - sugar freejelly - 20 cals
total - 1483 cals
to me that looks like LOADS of food and yet it still comes under my calorie budget. i cant imagine feeling deprived at all if i get to eat all that. the biggest challenge will be preparing my packed lunches every night after work. i might just do it while i make my tea each evening.
determined that this next week is gonna be a success, both at work and with my diet. i'm going to do everything by the book this week and hope for a few pounds loss next sunday, so lets see how good i can be! :angel09:
right, time to update my tickers and stats (which will be pretty depressing) and then to make a healthy lunch!
